Rebirth
Last night I fed, and I haven’t fed in a long ass time. I know I am still awakening, trying to shrug off years of lying dormant, but I have seen a new truth. For those who are vampyres or of vampyre kin they grow by how much they feed, and learning to control and take in on which they feed. Since I haven’t fed in a long time it has been harder for me to meditate and practice my abilities, thank goodness for having a sixth sense is all I can say!
I’m not going to go into juicy detail on my feeding experience, but if you know how Incubi/Succubi feed, then put two and two together and knock yourself out. The real trip is what I was feeling after my session. I felt not alive, or refreshed, in fact I felt quite the opposite. I was trying to pull some emotion out of my soul, and feel love and sympathy, and I could not. I felt not even like an animal, not like a beast, nor a human, I realized how much of a change you go through when you awaken.
I felt no emotion… I felt nothing emanating from my body. I felt like I was dying. Every time I would breathe in I could feel energy, a life source that would tingle, like a cold or warmth, yet with no temperature enter my lungs and diaphragm, and when I would exhale, it felt like stagnant death was passing my lips. I was so aware of the energy around me, it was almost other worldly.
The awakening process is indescribable, I just hope others can understand what I’m trying to say with my lack of words. It is awe inspiring. I should repost an old post about when I first started to realize I was awakening. If anyone has awakening stories and is willing to share please let me know. I am more than curious to hear about the tales of others.
We become something more…
~Chimera
I’m not going to go into juicy detail on my feeding experience, but if you know how Incubi/Succubi feed, then put two and two together and knock yourself out. The real trip is what I was feeling after my session. I felt not alive, or refreshed, in fact I felt quite the opposite. I was trying to pull some emotion out of my soul, and feel love and sympathy, and I could not. I felt not even like an animal, not like a beast, nor a human, I realized how much of a change you go through when you awaken.
I felt no emotion… I felt nothing emanating from my body. I felt like I was dying. Every time I would breathe in I could feel energy, a life source that would tingle, like a cold or warmth, yet with no temperature enter my lungs and diaphragm, and when I would exhale, it felt like stagnant death was passing my lips. I was so aware of the energy around me, it was almost other worldly.
The awakening process is indescribable, I just hope others can understand what I’m trying to say with my lack of words. It is awe inspiring. I should repost an old post about when I first started to realize I was awakening. If anyone has awakening stories and is willing to share please let me know. I am more than curious to hear about the tales of others.
We become something more…
~Chimera