Free Day
Today is my free day, no classes and no finals. I'm supposed to be studying math with Steph but er...she isn't here. Actually, I'm not sure when she's coming, if at all. So mom took me with her today and started to tease me about how I could've just stayed home and slept. Yeah...that does sound like a no brainer but I want to spend as much time with the SHU crew as possible, even though I think I may be getting on their nerves. ^_^; sumimasen
I'm getting, how my dad says, clingy. I understand that everyone is busy, that there are a lot of things going on in their lives, but I think it would be beneficial for them to just relax or at least live up the remainder of their freshmen year here. They forget too easily how quickly the years will come and go and that certain things won't stay the same just because they want it too. Like high school, don't take college for granted. Yes grades are important, but so are your relationships and interactions with others. Appreciate what you have now because you can't keep putting off the great things that are present. I'm thinking back to HC days and I reinvented myself from how I was like in middle school. I was definitely happier, but I was still tentative. I've missed so many opportunities just b/c I was afraid. I ended up having the nerve to do a lot more things towards the end of my high school year. I don't think I want to put stuff off like that again. I don't want to repeat same mistakes, I don't want to impede future possibilities, and I definitely don't want to daydream so often. If I can do something now, despite the consequences and subsequent embarrassment, then at least I know and will feel that I accomplished something, that I lived and not just observed and imagined what could've happened. I think we're all held back by practical possible outcomes, but you know what? Those outcomes haven't happened yet so that leaves the option of the improbable to occur. It's a sweet thought knowing that a positive effect can happen.
lol, guess I went on a tangent again. Ah well.
I'm getting, how my dad says, clingy. I understand that everyone is busy, that there are a lot of things going on in their lives, but I think it would be beneficial for them to just relax or at least live up the remainder of their freshmen year here. They forget too easily how quickly the years will come and go and that certain things won't stay the same just because they want it too. Like high school, don't take college for granted. Yes grades are important, but so are your relationships and interactions with others. Appreciate what you have now because you can't keep putting off the great things that are present. I'm thinking back to HC days and I reinvented myself from how I was like in middle school. I was definitely happier, but I was still tentative. I've missed so many opportunities just b/c I was afraid. I ended up having the nerve to do a lot more things towards the end of my high school year. I don't think I want to put stuff off like that again. I don't want to repeat same mistakes, I don't want to impede future possibilities, and I definitely don't want to daydream so often. If I can do something now, despite the consequences and subsequent embarrassment, then at least I know and will feel that I accomplished something, that I lived and not just observed and imagined what could've happened. I think we're all held back by practical possible outcomes, but you know what? Those outcomes haven't happened yet so that leaves the option of the improbable to occur. It's a sweet thought knowing that a positive effect can happen.
lol, guess I went on a tangent again. Ah well.