Mother

[chinosxsongx]

Can I just ask you
how does it feel
to miss another year of my life?
How does it feel?
I go days without hearing from you,
& now i know why.
Like it's not hard enough
being the only one who cares.
But I'm the only one who will try to find you
when I know you are hurting.
& you go and hurt me.
I wish I could make your pain go away,
because then life would be better.
You don't deserve everything you got,
but then again,
neither do I.
You are a dying breed,
because while you are so beautiful on the outside,
it's like you forgot on the inside, and you are destroying yourself.
I look like you, you know.
& you tell me I'm beautiful all the time.
I didn't used to believe it,
but if I look like you,
then I will.
I don't care what you look like when the time comes
for you to come home.
I will be here waiting,
like I always am.
Because as much as I'd like to give up,
I can't.
& I won't.
Because it's not your time to be forgotten.
It is your time
to heal
& to start over.
Please, just do it for me.
Because we are among a dying breed,
and there will never be another like you.
Because you and only you,
are my Mother.
& no matter how much I say I hate you,
or how much I miss you
or how much you make me cry,
there are always the times
when you make me laugh.
You are my Mother,
& I love you so much.