This will take a while...
I've been struggling with a lot of things as of late, in particular getting myself established again after having moved houses. That's been the only real aspect of my life that's gone smoothly. Everything else, however...
First I'd decided there wasn't much point in my being a part of The Vanguard Tic anymore due to the fact that I just didn't feel anything for the music anymore and that I didn't feel as strongly about the music we were making as the others...so I'd left. Secondly is the rate that Uni work is quickly kicking my ass, I plan to get on top of it soon, but that's just a plan at the moment...
I made the mistake of talking to a girl...I met her at a gig and we started talking, then we hung out a few times and found that we quite liked each other. It turns out that in the time we were hanging out and doing stuff together, she'd gotten back with her ex and had been with him for roughly 1 month, she drunkenly ' fessed up to me over the phone. I was angry, I was hurt, I'd felt used and at the same time, with all the shit that I've pulled over the last couple of years, felt it was what I'd deserved. I'll probably (like an idiot) talk to her again sometime soon. I don't quite know how to describe how I feel.
Just coming up with the words to fill this out were exhausting. I feel so drained. I ended up nuking my Facebook too.
tl;dr
I'll be ok soon, just need some time on my own.
First I'd decided there wasn't much point in my being a part of The Vanguard Tic anymore due to the fact that I just didn't feel anything for the music anymore and that I didn't feel as strongly about the music we were making as the others...so I'd left. Secondly is the rate that Uni work is quickly kicking my ass, I plan to get on top of it soon, but that's just a plan at the moment...
I made the mistake of talking to a girl...I met her at a gig and we started talking, then we hung out a few times and found that we quite liked each other. It turns out that in the time we were hanging out and doing stuff together, she'd gotten back with her ex and had been with him for roughly 1 month, she drunkenly ' fessed up to me over the phone. I was angry, I was hurt, I'd felt used and at the same time, with all the shit that I've pulled over the last couple of years, felt it was what I'd deserved. I'll probably (like an idiot) talk to her again sometime soon. I don't quite know how to describe how I feel.
Just coming up with the words to fill this out were exhausting. I feel so drained. I ended up nuking my Facebook too.
tl;dr
I'll be ok soon, just need some time on my own.