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[chipmunkcheekz]

My ex-boyfriend just IMed me. Sometimes I feel like if I wait long enough, I can almost pretend like he didn't happen to my life. I didn't deserve his shit, and he didn't deserve my first time. He is the only person that truly makes me feel nauseated when I see, speak to, hear, or even think about. I seriously feel physically sick now knowing

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[bessie_glass]

those are my almost exact thoughts with my first.

[chipmunkcheekz]

I have met few people who are happy with who their first time was and how it went. Unfortunately, I am in the norm.

[lifebyjake]

its weird how people can affect us like that. i feel your pain.

[chipmunkcheekz]

I really shouldn't let it affect me so much. I don't know why it does. There are other people who have hurt me in the past that I can just laugh about, but I think it's the whole first time thing. I built it up to be so much and it was like ordering a filet mignon and getting a moldy, rotted quarter pounder. I like that analogy.

[fuckfriend]

hope youve been well...
thinkin bout ya
;)
-steven