suddenly i find myself digusted with my life and disgusted with everything and everyone. so repulsive. so base. so full of shit. i want out.

J AND R patrons beware! today i bought what i thought to be stereolab's PENG! (used) and upon listening, i found that it was not stereolab at all! it's a man reading the bible! on the train ride home, wendy and i decided that religious fanatics are trying to convert indie rockers of the world via indie rock (how fitting!). this makes me sad. monday ( Read more... )

you know that feeling when you can't bring yourself to do the right thing, the good thing, the one thing that would bring you happiness and joy and ecstasy because you're a coward and you can't face up to the people you love and so you end up hurting yourself and unintentionally hurting them while feeling the pain and agony of having caused all of ( Read more... )

last friday, a musician approached ester, amory, and i during our lunch in the park. it went something like this ( Read more... )

i saw my neighborhood for the first time today. after ap english review at chez ester, i took a stroll through the street fair. smoke from the burning food irritated my eyes. as i passed the stands, i glanced at the goods and with each glance, i teased the vendors. but i'm no tease, i bought a hexagonal locket of iron of plastic turquoise. one ( Read more... )

i am reading a heartbreaking work of staggering genius and am laughing out loud (LOL). i like it very much. with every word, i find that i am not alone with the ants with the frustration with the etc. etc. he articulates what i cannot and i feel like screaming THERE IT IS! when i read it because really. there it is. everything. it's well done ( Read more... )

today i took the sats, and so, my future as mailwoman/pretzelvendor/homelesswoman was set. i saw a few stuy kids and spoke to a few nonstuy kids. one boy described his school as a crackhouse. a girl described her school as messed up because a lot of the students are girls and girls are messed up in the head ( Read more... )

psych class should be renamed let's take out pictures of our boyfriends and giggle class. i was supposed to learn about freud! english class should be renamed let's stab ourselves for lack of anything better to do class ( Read more... )

i've two tickets to see rooney and tint for tomorrow, at irving. if you wish to see these bands, come find me, i'll give you the tickets.

i like my sister because she tells me stories about her classmates who protest against gay marriage and do weed and hit on girls. but she's given to wearing whore lipstick. i have serious concerns about this. the world is a different place now and i fear for her. she has also taken to mix making for her crush. an appropriate aww goes here. she's so ( Read more... )