Journal Entries
Day One: Second Chance
They told me that I got pulled here. I don't know how, but I exist again. I wasn't sure what to do, but one of the people helped me. They call them greeters. They greet people when they first come to this place. And then, when I first spoke into the NV thing, people talked back! I think I hurt some of them, though. But Roxas is here! And he and Riku told me that Axel is here, too, but I haven't seen him yet. I think I hurt Roxas, though. when we first talked. I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I did anyway.
But he still came to see me, and he brought his friend Joe with him. And now they're letting me stay in their apartment with Namine. Joe looks like Riku. That's because he's a copy too. I didn't...Vexen talked to me, too. He and Lexaeus and Zexion are here, but I didn't talk to Zexion. I also talked to Namine, and...and even Sora, a little. But Vexen gave me his number so that I would call him.
I didn't tell Roxas or Joe any of that.
Day Two: Sora
I talked to Sora today. He told me there are beaches here. I only talked to him a little bit. I don't think I can see him yet.
Am I only here because Sora is here?
Day Four: Seashells
Me and Roxas went to the beach and talked about what happened.
Then we collected seashells.
Day Five: Werewolves
If you get bitten by a rat, you won't turn into a rat.
Day Six: Religion
I talked to a man today. He told me about religion and faith and how people use it for existence. They don't wonder if they should exist, or if they do exist. Instead they ask themselves what their existence means. I don't really understand it all.
I think the Organization is a kind of religion. It's a group of Nobodies who asks what their existence means and then try to get hearts so that they can exist as a whole. No broken parts.
I'm a broken part. But I don't think religion will help with that.
Day Ten: Boats
Sora told Roxas he rented a boat and we could go on it. We wouldn't have to see him at all, we could just go where it's docked and go around in it for the remaining time. But now Sora is mad at Roxas because he lied to him.
I know why he lied. But now everything is weird. If I don't like lies and Roxas doesn't like lies, then that means Sora doesn't like lies.
I don't know what to do.
Day Fourteen: Scientists
I talked with a scientist today. Joe was upset at him because he was a scientist, but I think he's nice. He told me I can call him Hal. It's like a nickname. I don't think our numbers count as nicknames. But I don't really want to be called anything else. I just want to be Xion.
Day Fifteen: Complicated
Yosuke said that girls are complicated. And Axel told Roxas that girls are complicated. But I'm a girl and I don't think I'm complicated.
But then Yosuke said that Roxas doesn't like girls. Everyone got upset. But even if Roxas doesn't like girls, he'll still be my friend, right?
Day Sixteen: Al Bhed
Rikku is a girl's name too! And she said she's going to teach me Al Bhed. I already know a little: Qeuh. Nuqyc. Yqam.
Day Seventeen: Dreams
I keep having nightmares. And even if I have my own bed now, sometimes they get really bad and I go into Joe and Roxas' room and I sleep with Roxas for the rest of the night. I don't have nightmares when I do that.
Day Twenty-One: Axel
Axel moved in with us! Joe's not that happy, but me and Roxas are! Except we don't have a bed for him. So we bought him a bean bag chair and now he and Winner sleep on it. It's a red bean bag, like his hair.
Now I have someone else to go to if I have more nightmares.
Day Twenty-Three: Riots
There was a riot outside and in the underground mall! It was between people who worked for the two companies here. SERO and AGI. I stayed away from it and hid near my new job. But something happened and I ended up fainting, like I did before. I don't know what happened after, but they said that Axel came to try and get me, but he passed out too.
Then Sora came and got me. And I'm okay. Why did he do that? Was it because it was me and he didn't want anything bad to happen to me? Or would something bad happen to him? I have to say thank you. After my throat stops hurting.
Day Twenty-Seven: Books
Riku had a box of books for us today. He said that they were a gift from someone, except they were all little kid books. They're not like the books Roxas and Joe got us. I'm still reading those, but we didn't need the other books. Riku said we can give them to a school, so we'll do that.
Joe was angry about it. He was being really mean to Riku about it, and then when I told him he should stop it, he started saying mean things to me. He told me to forget. I'm not going to talk to him for awhile.
Day Twenty-Eight: Clothes
I have new clothes. Regular clothes. They help a lot because now that I have a new job, it makes me more normal. I like my job. I scoop out ice cream for people and then they tell me what they want in it, like pretzels or cookies or brownies, and I mix them all together for them. I like the ones with brownies in them the best.
Day Thirty: Cats
Roxas gave my bed to the cats. Now they all sleep with me, and they don't give me enough room. I'm going to try and get them out of my bed. I think if I make a trail of dry cat food out of my bed and out of the bedroom, they might follow it.
Day Thirty-Three: Friday 13th
Today was Friday the 13th. I talked to the werewolf about it, and he told me that a lot of people think 13 is a bad number. I didn't really understand it.
But I talked with Sora today. Face to face. Me and Roxas met him at the library, and I told him about me. And he knows who I am now. That I'm a part of him, except here I get to be me instead of being stuck in his head. We don't have to ignore each other anymore. I think that'll make everything better.
Day Thirty-Seven: Heat
It's like the hottest day in Agrabah outside and my zipper is caught in my jacket and I can't do anything about it.
They told me that I got pulled here. I don't know how, but I exist again. I wasn't sure what to do, but one of the people helped me. They call them greeters. They greet people when they first come to this place. And then, when I first spoke into the NV thing, people talked back! I think I hurt some of them, though. But Roxas is here! And he and Riku told me that Axel is here, too, but I haven't seen him yet. I think I hurt Roxas, though. when we first talked. I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I did anyway.
But he still came to see me, and he brought his friend Joe with him. And now they're letting me stay in their apartment with Namine. Joe looks like Riku. That's because he's a copy too. I didn't...Vexen talked to me, too. He and Lexaeus and Zexion are here, but I didn't talk to Zexion. I also talked to Namine, and...and even Sora, a little. But Vexen gave me his number so that I would call him.
I didn't tell Roxas or Joe any of that.
Day Two: Sora
I talked to Sora today. He told me there are beaches here. I only talked to him a little bit. I don't think I can see him yet.
Am I only here because Sora is here?
Day Four: Seashells
Me and Roxas went to the beach and talked about what happened.
Then we collected seashells.
Day Five: Werewolves
If you get bitten by a rat, you won't turn into a rat.
Day Six: Religion
I talked to a man today. He told me about religion and faith and how people use it for existence. They don't wonder if they should exist, or if they do exist. Instead they ask themselves what their existence means. I don't really understand it all.
I think the Organization is a kind of religion. It's a group of Nobodies who asks what their existence means and then try to get hearts so that they can exist as a whole. No broken parts.
I'm a broken part. But I don't think religion will help with that.
Day Ten: Boats
Sora told Roxas he rented a boat and we could go on it. We wouldn't have to see him at all, we could just go where it's docked and go around in it for the remaining time. But now Sora is mad at Roxas because he lied to him.
I know why he lied. But now everything is weird. If I don't like lies and Roxas doesn't like lies, then that means Sora doesn't like lies.
I don't know what to do.
Day Fourteen: Scientists
I talked with a scientist today. Joe was upset at him because he was a scientist, but I think he's nice. He told me I can call him Hal. It's like a nickname. I don't think our numbers count as nicknames. But I don't really want to be called anything else. I just want to be Xion.
Day Fifteen: Complicated
Yosuke said that girls are complicated. And Axel told Roxas that girls are complicated. But I'm a girl and I don't think I'm complicated.
But then Yosuke said that Roxas doesn't like girls. Everyone got upset. But even if Roxas doesn't like girls, he'll still be my friend, right?
Day Sixteen: Al Bhed
Rikku is a girl's name too! And she said she's going to teach me Al Bhed. I already know a little: Qeuh. Nuqyc. Yqam.
Day Seventeen: Dreams
I keep having nightmares. And even if I have my own bed now, sometimes they get really bad and I go into Joe and Roxas' room and I sleep with Roxas for the rest of the night. I don't have nightmares when I do that.
Day Twenty-One: Axel
Axel moved in with us! Joe's not that happy, but me and Roxas are! Except we don't have a bed for him. So we bought him a bean bag chair and now he and Winner sleep on it. It's a red bean bag, like his hair.
Now I have someone else to go to if I have more nightmares.
Day Twenty-Three: Riots
There was a riot outside and in the underground mall! It was between people who worked for the two companies here. SERO and AGI. I stayed away from it and hid near my new job. But something happened and I ended up fainting, like I did before. I don't know what happened after, but they said that Axel came to try and get me, but he passed out too.
Then Sora came and got me. And I'm okay. Why did he do that? Was it because it was me and he didn't want anything bad to happen to me? Or would something bad happen to him? I have to say thank you. After my throat stops hurting.
Day Twenty-Seven: Books
Riku had a box of books for us today. He said that they were a gift from someone, except they were all little kid books. They're not like the books Roxas and Joe got us. I'm still reading those, but we didn't need the other books. Riku said we can give them to a school, so we'll do that.
Joe was angry about it. He was being really mean to Riku about it, and then when I told him he should stop it, he started saying mean things to me. He told me to forget. I'm not going to talk to him for awhile.
Day Twenty-Eight: Clothes
I have new clothes. Regular clothes. They help a lot because now that I have a new job, it makes me more normal. I like my job. I scoop out ice cream for people and then they tell me what they want in it, like pretzels or cookies or brownies, and I mix them all together for them. I like the ones with brownies in them the best.
Day Thirty: Cats
Roxas gave my bed to the cats. Now they all sleep with me, and they don't give me enough room. I'm going to try and get them out of my bed. I think if I make a trail of dry cat food out of my bed and out of the bedroom, they might follow it.
Day Thirty-Three: Friday 13th
Today was Friday the 13th. I talked to the werewolf about it, and he told me that a lot of people think 13 is a bad number. I didn't really understand it.
But I talked with Sora today. Face to face. Me and Roxas met him at the library, and I told him about me. And he knows who I am now. That I'm a part of him, except here I get to be me instead of being stuck in his head. We don't have to ignore each other anymore. I think that'll make everything better.
Day Thirty-Seven: Heat
It's like the hottest day in Agrabah outside and my zipper is caught in my jacket and I can't do anything about it.