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Title: (undetermined)
Author: Chiyo A.K.A Oppie
Genre: Angst
Pairing: The most adorable couple, Yunjae!
Rating: PG13
A/N: I dunno why I can’t write a good summary, so just read it… LOL
“WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT???”
“DON’T PLAY DUMB WITH ME KIM JAEJOONG!! I KNOW YOU ARE CHEATING BEHIND MY BACK!!!”
Jaejoong looked at Yunho’s face with disbelief. He didn’t know why Yunho accused him for something he even didn’t do. Where he got the idea he was cheating behind his back?
“YUNHO! Please… Listen to me. I-Never-Cheat-behind -your-back. You’re just assuming thing.”
“Don’t lie to me! They saw you at the café with a man and looked so close to each other!!” Yunho kept blabber his anger towards Jaejoong. He just couldn’t stand the thoughts of losing Jaejoong to someone else. He loves Jaejoong too much. Too much, even he couldn’t let the beautiful man talked with other human being.
“They? Who are they?? Don’t you trust me?? Why do you have to believe what they said??”
Jaejoong began to feel tired of this never ending conversation. He just wanted to go to his apartment and took a rest. He regretted his decision earlier to visit his boyfriend at his apartment. It’s just because he felt like he missed Yunho so much. If he knew that he only got snaps and yells from Yunho, he would just go home.
“It’s not important who they are!! They have the proof!! You can’t deny it!!”
Jaejoong could only sigh. This conversation would never end if the both of them kept blaming each other. He had to let Yunho refreshed his mind first. Maybe tomorrow, they could make it up.
“I think you had to clear your mind a little bit. I don’t want to talk about this shit now. I’m tired. Just think over it again, Yunho. I will never cheat on you. I love you as much you love me. Or am I wrong? You don’t love me anymore to even trust me, right?”
“I-“
“No, please… Don’t start it again. I’ll give you times to think it over. Or if you don’t trust me anymore, then this relationship couldn’t last longer. I leave now,”
Jaejoong walked out of Yunho’s room and left the frustrated Yunho behind. He couldn’t hold his tears any longer, when he closed Yunho’s apartment door, his tears just couldn’t stop falling. He tried to sweep it away with the hem of his shirt, but it kept flowing. He quickly made his way to his car, and drove the car away from Yunho’s apartment.
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After Jaejoong left, Yunho felt like he was the most idiot people in this world. He knew Jaejoong never lied to him. Even when they were fighting just a few moments ago, he could see the truth in Jaejoong’s eyes. He knew Jaejoong’s habit too well. If Jaejoong lied then he wouldn’t dare to look at him right in to his eyes. Just like when he was lying about break up because he wanted to surprise Yunho on Yunho’s birthday. Or when Jaejoong fell down at the park and lied that his leg wasn’t hurt. Jaejoong would let his head look down when he was lying.
And the other fact was, his Jaejoong never flirted with anyone else. Even with him when they hadn’t became a lover yet. He remembered how hard he tried to get Jaejoong’s heart. And how happy he was when finally Jaejoong accepted his love. Now, they had been a lover for over five years since they were a student in university. Then why did he believe the lies instead to believe his own boyfriend?
Yunho messed his hair, feeling frustrated. He had to apologize to Jaejoong. He looked up to the wall clock, and sighed when he found it was almost midnight. Moreover, Jaejoong said earlier that he was tired. There was no doubt Jaejoong had slept already. Maybe tomorrow, Yunho thought before laid his body down on his bed and closed his eyes to sleep.
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Next morning, Yunho woke up abruptly with sweat covering his face. He had a nightmare, but he didn’t remember what it was. He tried to remember, but nothing came into his mind. His thoughts stopped when he smelled something. It was like someone was cooking in his kitchen now.
Jaejoong!
Yunho dashed out of his bedroom and ran to the kitchen. And as he expected, Jaejoong looked busy preparing the breakfast. He wore the black apron Yunho gave on Jaejoong’s birthday. And just like usual, his Jaejoong looked so flawless and beautiful.
It seemed like Jaejoong could feel he was being watched. He turned his head to Yunho’s direction.
“Morning, Yunho-yah,” Jaejoong greeted him with a wide smile plastered on his face.
“M-morning,” Yunho stuttered. No matter how much he had seen Jaejoong’s smile, but it still could make his heart beat thousand times faster.
“Do I disturb you? If I do, then I’ll just-“
“NO! I mean no, you don’t,”
They were silent for a few minutes. Then Yunho broke the silence first.
“I was planning to go to your apartment today to apologize.”
“….”
Yunho walked closer to Jaejoong, and he stopped when Jaejoong just a few centimeter in front of him. He took Jaejoong’s hands, and squeezed it softly.
“Jaejoong-ah, I’m so sorry for everything. I’m sorry for snap and yell to you. I’m sorry for accusing you,,, I’m sorry… I love you, I really do.”
Yunho lifted Jaejoong’s hands and brought it to his lips. He kissed Jaejoong’s hand lovingly then he looked at his face. Jaejoong’s eyes were brimming with tears.
“You know me, Yunho-yah. You know that I’ll always forgive you. I love you too,”
Yunho cupped Jaejoong’s face with his hands. His thumbs wiped the tears away and he bended down to capture Jaejoong’s lips on his. Then he broke the kiss and eyed Jaejoong’s face again. He saw the smile on Jaejoong face, but somehow he saw a glint of sadness in his eyes.
“Now, let’s eat. I’ve prepared breakfast for you,” Jaejoong said as he held Yunho’s hand and guided him to dinning table.
“Thank you, Jaejoongie,”
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After breakfast…
“Yunho, why don’t you take a shower now? I want to go out today.”
“Okay, Boo. I’ll shower now.” Yunho said as he stole a peck on Jaejoong’s cheek before ran to the bathroom.
Yunho felt so excited. He couldn’t wait to go out with his Jaejoong. He would do anything to make Jaejoong smile again. Yunho took a quick shower and minutes after he had ready to take Jaejoong out. He walked out of his bedroom heading to living room. Jaejoong was waiting Yunho there as he watched the television. When he heard Yunho came, he turned around.
“Are you ready?” Jaejoong asked softly.
“Yea,”
Jaejoong just smiled at Yunho and walked to the front door. But Yunho gave a check on his phone cell before followed Jaejoong.
“Yunho-yah, can you leave your phone? I don’t want our date disturbed,” Jaejoong asked shyly.
Yunho looked at Jaejoong strangely. Jaejoong never complained about it before. And why in earth Jaejoong asked him to do it now?
Screw that! As long as Jaejoong happy, then I would love to do so,” Yunho thought mentally.
“Okay… I’ll leave my phone,”
Jaejoong smiled sweetly and mouthed ‘thank you’ to him. Yunho pecked Jaejoong on the cheek and together they both walked out of Yunho’s apartment hand in hand.
Inside Yunho’s car…
“Boo, where’s your car?”
“Err, I left it at my apartment… I got to your apartment with bus,”
Yunho felt confuse at the moment. Jaejoong seemed hesitate when he answered his question. Just like he was hiding something.
“I see… So where do you want us to go?”
“Let’s go to Han river!” Jaejoong answered vigorously.
Yunho smiled. His heart filled with love when he saw Jaejoong’s smile.
“Ok. We’ll go there.” Yunho said as he lifted his right hand to Jaejoong’s hair and ruffled his hair lovingly.
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Yunho and Jaejoong were sitting on the bench at the side of Han River. Jaejoong head leaned on Yunho’s right shoulder and his hands wrapped tightly around Yunho’s right hand. The bench was right under a big tree, so they didn’t feel the heat from the sun.
“Jaejoong-ah, why do you want to go here so suddenly? Is there something bothering you?”
Jaejoong looked at the view of Han River before he sighed softly and answered Yunho’s question.
“… I just want to see the view with you, that’s it…”
“But, why-…”
Yunho couldn’t finish his question. He felt something weird. Something wrong was happening. But what is it? He didn’t know.
They kept quite as they saw the water flow of Han River. But suddenly, Jaejoong broke the silence.
“Yunho-yah…”
“Hmm?”
“Do you love me?”
“Of course! I love you, Jaejoong-ah, and you know it very well.”
Yunho couldn’t stand this anymore. There was something wrong with his BooJae. He turned to Jaejoong and cupped Jaejoong’s face with his hands. He looked Jaejoong right on his eyes and tried to find what the hell was troubling him.
“Tell me, Boo… Tell me what is bothering your mind?”
“…”
“…”
“Yunho-yah, can you promise me one thing?”
“Of course…”
“Promise me if I die someday, you have to move on.”
Yunho frowned.
“Why-“
“Just say that you promise...”
Yunho sighed softly before he answered, “Okay, I promise..”
Jaejoong just smiled. He took Yunho’s hands from his cheeks and put it to his heart.
“I want to hear you say that you love me…. “ He paused a few second, then he continued, “ You hear it, even after five years since we became a lover, my heart always beat so fast when I near and look at you. I love you Yunho-yah, I love you too much. Until it hurts to even let your hands go,”
Jaejoong turned to look to Han River again. Yunho wrapped his hand around Jaejoong’s shoulder and let Jaejoong’s head lean on his shoulders.
“Say it again Yunho-yah. Say that you love me, and only me…”
“Kim Jaejoong, I love you and only you…”
Yunho took a deep breath before he started to sing a song.
jeonyeok noeuri jigo
hana dul kyeojin bulbicheul ttaraseo
neo ege gago isseo
chagaun barame umchurin ni eokkae ga naeryeo ankijeone
naega kamssajulkke
I Love You babogateun geudae
modeun geoshi naegenun sojunghan geol
geudae wiro tteoureun taeyangmankeum
nuni bushin i gaseumeuro
gidaryeojun shigan mankeum neol naega jikyeojulke
gidohan modeun kkumi ganjeolhan nae hyang giro nama
uri hyanghae isseo More than the air I breathe
balga ol achime hamkke useul su itneun
naui baraemdeuli irwojil su itdorok
naega gidarilke ne son nohji anheulge
nunmul ppunirahaedo naega dakkajulke
geu bichi boiji anhado amuri heomhan giriljikado yaksokhalke
my my my my please be mine
geudae wiro tteoureun taeyangmankeum
nuni bushin i gaseumeuro
gidaryeojun shigan mankeum neol naega jikyeojulke
gidohan modeun kkumi ganjeolhan nae hyang giro nama
uri hyanghae isseo More than the air I breathe
saranghandago ije geudae ppunirago
jeo haneul kkeute surichyeo jeonhago shipeo
Love you teojildeuthan gaseumi geudaereul bureugo isseo
~ chajawado
apun shiryoni uril chajawado
gu apume mok meowado
da orumanjyo jul su innun naega do saranghalke
tumyonghan usumkochi banjjaginun jo byol
dulchorom
areumdapge neol neomaneul jikyeojulke
geudae wiro tteo oreul taeyangmankeum
nuni bushin i gaseumeuro
gidaryeojun shihan mankeum neol naega jikyeojulke
saranghae nol saranghae
sesang
gajang nunbushin gudae kumgyolgatun i ma
uril hyanghae isseo (yeong eo)
After the afterglow sets,
I'm going towards you,
Following the lights which turn on one by one
I'll embrace you,
Before the cold wind makes your shoulders flinch
I love you,
The foolish you,
You're so precious to me
As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I've prayed for,
They're going towards you with my sincere scent
I hope that my wishes of smiling next to you every new morning,
Will be able to come true
I'll wait for you,
I'll never let go of your hands,
Even if it's only tears,
I'll wipe them away for you
Although we are not able to see the end,
No matter how bumpy our road is,
I'll promise you, please be mine
As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I've prayed for,
They're going towards you with my sincere scent,
More than the air I breathe,
'I love you' 'You're the only one',
I want to yell those words out into the sky
I love you, my heart which feels like bursting is calling out to you
No matter how many times they find us,
No matter if we can't breathe,
Like those invisible flower-like smiles,
Which shine just like the stars,
I'll keep you safe beautifully
As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
I love you, I love you,
You're the most beautiful in this world,
This dream-like heart,
More than the air I breathe
(PICTURE OF YOU [AFTER GLOW)- TVXQ)
Jaejoong’s eyes were red. He tried to hold his tears, but he couldn’t. The tears ran down his cheeks. He was happy to hear the song from Yunho. He was happy, but he felt empty at the same time.
When Yunho finished the song, he turned to look at Jaejoong.
“Why are you crying Boo?” Yunho asked as he wiped the tears with his thumb.
“I’m just happy. I’m happy to have you as my everything.”
“Shuusshh… Please, don’t cry.”
Jaejoong gave Yunho his angelic smile and muttered a “Thank you,” to him.
Yunho couldn’t hold this anymore. He couldn’t hold the urge to kiss Jaejoong. He captured Jaejoong’s lips on his. When Jaejoong parted his lips, he entered his tongue in Jaejoong’s hot cavern. He savored the sweet taste of his Jaejoong. The taste that he always loved.
Then, they broke the kiss after a few minute.
“Yunho-yah, can you get me a drink. I’m thirsty…”
“Okay, I’ll get it. Wait here,”
He kissed Jaejoong’s left cheek before he ran to find what Jaejoong wanted. After he got it, he ran back to their place quickly. But, it surprised him when he couldn’t find Jaejoong there. Jaejoong was gone.
“Jaejoong-ah!!!! Where are you??? Jaejoong!!!!”
He tried to find him around that place, but still, Jaejoong was out of sight. It had been hours but he still couldn’t find Jaejoong. Then Yunho ran to his car, and drove to his apartment.
When he was at his apartment, he checked his phone and there were thirty three missed called from Yoochun and one message from ‘My Boojae’. He opened the message quickly and read it.
Yunnie-yah,
Thx 4 everything…
I love you,
<3
What the fuck is going on??
Yunho screamed mentally as he tried to call Jaejoong. But, Jaejoong’s phone wasn’t active. He was so worried and he wanted to look for him again when suddenly his phone rang. He looked at the caller ID. It was Yoochun.
“Yobu-“
“Yah!!! Where were you?? I’ve tried to call you from this morning, but you didn’t answer!!”
“I was with Jaejoong, but now I can’t find him anywhere. Do you know where he is??”
“…”
“Yoochun, are you still there?”
“… are you sure you were with Jaejoong this morning?”
Yunho felt weird. Why did Yoochun ask that question? He was really sure he was with Jaejoong from this morning until he suddenly disappeared.
“Of course!”
“But, it’s impossible!!!!! Because Jaejoong died last night in car accident!!!!!”
Yunho shocked for what Yoochun just said.
“Y-you lie, don’t you?? Please, stop joking!! This isn’t funny!!”
“I’m telling you the truth!!! I’m at Jaejoong’s apartment now-“
Yunho dropped his phone on the floor and without hesitation dashed out from his apartment. He needed to see Jaejoong. He wanted to proof that Yoochun was wrong. His Jaejoong was still alive!!! His Jaejoong was still with him today!
Yunho felt his heart hurt badly. Then he let out a choke sob and his tears couldn’t stop flowing. He drove his car so fast even though his vision was blurred by tears. When he arrived in front of Jaejoong’s apartment building, he quickly made his way to Jaejoong’s place on the third floor.
Yunho opened Jaejoong’s front door and there he found Yoochun and the others. They looked so sad, even Junsu and Changmin were crying soundlessly. There was a black coffin behind them.
Yunho gulped hardly. He felt his leg glued to the floor. He couldn’t move and he scared to know the harsh reality. He was afraid he couldn’t see Jaejoong anymore after this. He didn’t want to believe the fact that his Jaejoong had gone.
Yunho walked closer to the coffin as Yoochun, Changmin and Junsu stepped aside from the way. When Yunho had stood right beside the coffin, he looked down slowly.
Yunho felt his world broke down when he saw Jaejoong’s pale face. He looked so peaceful. Even when those lips had lost its color, he still looked as beautiful as ever.
Yunho didn’t realize his tears had fallen down on his cheeks. His heart throbbed with hurt and lost. He wasn’t ready to lose the one he loved more than anything in this world. He just couldn’t face this cruel world without Jaejoong by his side. He couldn’t take it any longer, and before he could stop it, he had cried badly as he cupped Jaejoong face with his both hands. A few drops of Yunho’s tears fell on Jaejoong’s face which made Jaejoong’s face looked like he was crying too.
“Jaejoong-ah… Jaejoong-ah… Please don’t leave me…” Yunho mumbled between his sobs.
He knew, no matter how hard he screamed and pleaded Jaejoong to comeback, it would never happened. Jaejoong had gone.
“I won’t Yunho-yah, and never…”
Yunho froze, his sobs stopped. Was he imagining thing? He thought he just heard Jaejoong’s voice. He wiped his tears with the back of his left hand, and found Jaejoong’s eyes opened and were staring lovingly at him.
“H-How?”
Jaejoong just gave him a wide grin as he sat up from his ‘Yunho-thought-was-dead’ state. He then hugged Yunho tightly and whispered, “Happy Birthday Yunnie…” to Yunho’s ear softly.
“YUNHO HYUNG!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!” YooSuMin’s voice echoed in that room, and soon there was a big birthday cake on a table.
Jaejoong broke the hug and smiled at Yunho’s still shocked face. He pulled Yunho’s face down and kissed his lips passionately. After a few minute, they broke the kiss. And finally Yunho’s mind had registered what was happening.
“Oh My God, I thought you really have gone back then…”
Yunho hugged Jaejoong again, tighter than before.
“Ahem! Hyung! Do you forget we are here?” Changmin faked a cough as he teased Yunho playfully.
Yunho broke the hug, and turned to YooSuMin direction. Before he got to hug his dongsaengs, he helped Jaejoong out of the coffin first. Then he hugged the three lovingly.
“Hey, are you three the one that has this idea to surprise me?”
“Yeah!! This all is our idea,” YooSuMin answered happily.
“But, how?”
“Changmin, tell him our genius idea,” said Yoochun.
“Last night, after Jaejoong fought with you, he came to us and told us how disappointed he was with you. You know what, Jaejoong hyung came to your apartment last night, because he wanted to celebrate your birthday.”
Yunho felt the guilty feeling in his chest. Then he turned around to see Jaejoong and held his hands.
“Jaejoong-ah, I’m so sorry…”
“It’s okay Yunho-yah…”
Changmin continued, “ So, we made this idea quickly. Early in the morning Yoochun hyung dropped Jaejoong hyung to your apartment, as I and Junsu hyung prepared everything in Jaejoong’s hyung apartment. As we have planned it before, when you was trying to find drink for Jaejoong hyung, he went back to his apartment with Yoochun hyung who has waited in his car not far from you two’s place. That’s all.”
“How was it? Our idea is great, right?” The three of them did a high-five. On their faces plastered a wide satisfied grin.
“Uh-uh, very great till I felt a heart attack!!!!!!”
Yunho chased after the three as Jaejoong chuckled happily watching the funny scene.
“Yah!! Come here!!! I’ll spank your asses for making your hyung a fool!!!!!”
“Gyaa!!”
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END
I’m not really satisfied with this fic though. I myself don’t know why.