The Bucket List
Title: The Bucket List
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Angst
Length: Oneshot
Summary: It was the weirdest day of Yunho’s life when he saw the most beautiful person his eyes had ever laid upon on digging his own grave, literally.
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“Is it really necessary for the photoshoot to be this early? I only slept for like five hours this week, one for each day.” Yunho wearily said as he tried to get some sympathy from his friend slash manager and let him rest some more.
“Is it my fault that you have to be so fucking famous? Bear with it a little longer and you’re going to get the vacation break you badly needed.”
Yunho closed his eyes and tried to sleep. He desperately tried but he couldn’t, and not being able to sleep in moving cars is very frustrating especially when you are an artist. The theme of the photoshoot is nature, so they’re going to a forest that is a six hour drive from the city. He just stared outside the window and watched the beautiful view to relax himself.
When they arrived at the place they were amazed by the lovely scenery. There is a falls nearby and there were beautiful trees and flowers everywhere. It’s definitely a place to go to when you want to relax and relieve some stress.
“The shoot will start in two hours.”
Yunho looked at his manager like he’s grown another head. “Are you kidding me Chun? Two hours? I woke up so fucking early and we’ll start in two hours?”
Yoochun sighed. “The model that you are paired with today had a car accident. She’s not badly injured but she needs to rest in the hospital for a week. They’re currently looking for a substitute from the houses near the area. Why don’t you sleep for some more in the car while waiting.”
“I’m not that sleepy anymore. I’ll go for a walk.” Yunho said and went out of his trailer. He stretched his arms and legs and headed towards the forest. He’s always been fond of nature. He’s always lived in the city but ever since he was a kid he loved it when they’re having their field trips in the province.
He then saw footprints on the ground and because of his adventurous personality, he trailed and followed it. He’s aware that what he’s doing is not safe because for all he knows, it might be his stalker luring him someplace. But his curiosity defeated his reasoning. Yoochun will definitely kill him when he finds out what he’s currently doing.
As he was nearing the falls he heard a strange sound. A sound of a man shovelling.
“Am I about to witness a crime scene wherein a criminal buries the person he killed in the middle of nowhere? This is so exciting!” Yunho thought as he hid behind the tree with his heart thumping from nervousness and excitement.
His breath was taken away by the person he already labelled as a murderer. The most beautiful person his eyes had ever laid upon on is currently shovelling the ground with all of his might, face covered with mud but despite that looking absolutely stunning. Heck, the guy could say that he’s an angel and Yunho with no doubt, would believe him.
But Yunho would prefer it if the pretty man will tell him he’s a stalker and is here to kidnap him. Yunho will willingly go, no questions asked.
“Come out and stop hiding. I can feel your presence you know.”
Man, the pretty guy doesn’t only have an angelic face, he also had to have a heavenly voice. What did he do to get so lucky?
Yunho revealed himself and flashed the flirtiest smile he can manage.
“Hi, I didn’t mean to startle you, I happened to pass by and was curious as to what a beautiful guy like you is doing. I’m Jung Yunho by the way.” Yunho offered his hand to the man in front of him who only gazed at him and didn’t stop digging. He stared for a while and then noticed Yunho’s face getting redder by the minute. He finally shook his hand and introduced himself.
“Kim Jaejoong.” He eyed Yunho’s face again. “Have we met before?”
Yunho was slightly surprised that Jae didn’t recognize him. There goes his dream of having a hot stalker.
Jaejoong continued digging and completely ignored him. Yunho, not being used at being snubbed, tried to make a conversation.
“What are you doing?”
The pretty guy rolled his eyes. “Isn’t it obvious?”
Whoa, what a total jackass! This guy’s face is the total opposite of his personality.
“I’m just asking you know, you don’t have to be so rude. How deep are you digging? Maybe I can help.”
“Six feet. Thanks but I can handle it myself.”
Yunho laughed. “Six feet? What, you’re digging a grave or something?”
The sad look on Jaejoong’s face made him feel like an asshole. “I am sorry for making a joke out of it. I offer my sincere condolences.”
This time, Jaejoong was the one who laughed. He dropped his shovel and laughed so hard tears started to form in his eyes. Yunho frowned at him, not happy at being made fun of.
“You didn’t have to make a joke like that just to make me leave you know. You just have to nicely ask and I will leave on my own.”
Jaejoong stopped laughing but was still smiling at him. “I wasn’t lying. I really am digging a grave, a grave for myself.”
The taller man scowled. Jaejoong is definitely making fun of him again. He’s not going to fall for it this time.
“Whatever. I should go. You obviously don’t want my company.”
Jae smiled at him. “Nice meeting you Yunho-ssi. I hope to see you soon.”
Ω
“I can’t believe that it’s been a week and you still haven’t forgotten that guy at the forest.”
Yunho was surprised by the sudden appearance of Yoochun. “What nonsense are you talking about? I don’t think about him at all!”
Yoochun just smirked. “Yeah you don’t. It’s totally normal for you to stare into space and mutter that guy really has the shittiest personality.”
“You said it yourself, I despise that guy. If you’re there, you’ll understand why I feel like this.”
“Well I guess what they say is true, the more you hate, the more you love.”
Yunho scoffed. “I’m pretty sure it’s the other way around for me. The more I love his face, the more I hate his personality.”
The manager sighed. “Yunho, I think you’re overreacting. You told me the whole story after you return and I don’t think that he has done anything wrong to make you hate him so much.”
“I told you, you weren’t there, you didn’t-“
“I think I know what this is about.”
Yunho raised his eyebrows at him.
“You hate him because he didn’t fall for your charm didn’t he? Ha! The first breathing person that is not affected by Jung Yunho’s sexy charisma. I like this Jaejoong guy already.”
“I am not arguing with you anymore. Just know that you’re wrong. Very wrong!” Yunho shouted as he slammed the door of the dressing room and left the laughing Yoochun.
Ω
The next time he saw Jaejoong, he was a stunt double for Kim Hyunjoong, his partner in an action movie. He doesn’t have one because he likes doing the hard and delicate scenes by himself. That’s the reason why he’s one of the most respected person in the acting industry.
Jaejoong is currently being oriented of what he would be doing. He is just listening and nodding his head.
“Please wipe that disgusting drool of yours.”
Yunho jumped out of his chair. “Stop sneaking up on me Chun! And I’m not drooling!”
Yoochun looked at where his friend’s eyes were and smirked. “You like the stunt double dude huh? Can’t blame you though, this dude’s really pretty. It’s a shame he’s a double, his face is prettier than most celebrities.”
All celebrities you should say. Yunho thought. Well it’s true, no matter how much he hates him, he couldn’t argue that he really has a unique attractive appearance.
All of a sudden, their eyes met. Jaejoong smiled at him and he found his face getting warmer. A flash snapped him out of his thoughts and he found his manager, laughing with a camera in his hand.
“Jung Yunho blushing like a bride. Who wouldn’t take advantage of such great opportunity.”
Ω
Jaejoong is currently in a hospital. After perfecting the dangerous stunt that stupid Kim Hyunjoong should be performing, Jaejoong fainted. He doesn’t know what’s gotten into him. He panicked carried Jaejoong out of there and brought the unconscious guy to his car while glaring at Hyunjoong the whole time.
“He has a weak stamina. Running and then being ran-over by a car over and over again is too much for him. I don’t think he’s done this kind of job before.”
Yunho listened to the instructions of what Jaejoong should do and eat. He doesn’t know why he’s doing this, he even wrote it down just in case he forgot.
“The result of the tests will be given to him later. I’m sorry but we can’t allow you to read the results since you are not a family member.”
After the doctor left, Yoochun came in and looked at his friend. “Romeo o Romeo, is this thy love at first sight?”
Yunho glared at him. “He fainted Chun, what did you expect me to do? Just stand there and not do anything?”
“Your actions are not that of what a fellow co-worker would do. The whole crew is talking about the relationship of the two of you.”
Yunho sighed. “This is not our first meeting but we don’t have that kind of relationship. We’re not even friends.”
Then he gets it. “That is Jaejoong isn’t it?”
The silence of his friend confirmed it. Wow, he didn’t expect that Yunho had already fallen this hard. He thought it was just a crush or a little infatuation.
“Anyway, I’ll give you ten more minutes then we’ll leave. You still have a scene to shoot.”
Jaejoong opened his eyes after Yoochun left. The two of them stared at each other for a while until Jaejoong broke the silence.
“Thank you for bringing me here. I’m sorry for delaying you in the shoot. You should go now, I’m feeling better.”
The other man did not answer. He just looked at Jaejoong like he was trying to figure something out.
“Why do you want to do a dangerous stunt? I doubt it’s because of money because the pay is not that big. And most of the stunt double does that as a stepping stone into entering acting world but I also doubt that that’s your reason.”
He became silent and Yunho doesn’t think that Jaejoong is going to answer him.
“If you don’t want to tell me, it’s fine. Just, never do that again. The doctor says that your stamina is weak and here is the list of the things that you should eat to increase your-”
“I have a bucket list.” Jaejoong murmured.
“You have a what?”
“A bucket list. Things I want to do before the end of the year.”
Yunho processed what he said for a while. “I’m guessing that that list has a kill myself in doing a dangerous thing written on it.”
Jaejoong chuckled. “You’re almost right. The list has a ‘do a dangerous stunt’ and then it also has a ‘have yourself appear in a blockbuster movie’. And then I thought, why not kill two birds in one stone? I’m smart aren’t I?”
Yunho also chuckled. “Be thankful that you’re cute, it’s the only reason I’m putting up with your corny jokes.”
The cute guy smirked. “So you think I’m cute? Thank you Mr. handsome.”
Yunho blushed and then cleared his throat. “Anyway, I have to go now, remember to drink the vitamins listed there ok. Here is my calling number. Call me if you need anything.”
Jaejoong nodded and Yunho left the room, he saw Yoochun waiting outside the door, smiling. Yunho frowned at him.
“What are you so happy about?”
Yoochun only shook his head. “You are so whipped my friend, so whipped.”
Ω
Two days later, while he was taking a break from the shoot, his cellphone rang with an unknown number calling. His eyes widen in shock and he just stared at the ringing phone.
Yoochun was irritated. “Why the hell are you freaking out? Just answer the damn phone!”
Yunho glared at him and answered his phone. “Hello? This is Yunho speaking. Who is this?”
Yoochun rolled his eyes. “As if you didn’t know who is calling.”
“Jae! I’m surprised you called.”
“I’m sorry, are you busy right now?”
“No, I’m not doing anything today. How are you?”
“Haha, thanks for the concern, I’m fine now thanks to you.”
“Nah, I am not much of a help. Anyway, can I do anything for you?”
“I just wanted to ask if you know a person who owns a yacht, since you know a lot of rich people. We can negotiate for a reasonable amount.”
“This is part of your bucket list isn’t it?”
Jaejoong laughed. “You got me smarty pants. I just wanted to tour around Seoul in a yacht. If you don’t know anyone it’s okay. The primary reason I called is to thank you anyway.”
“Luckily for you, I have a yacht.”
He heard Jaejoong gasp. “Wow! I didn’t know you’re that rich! So, how much for a ride?”
Yunho didn’t know why that sounded so wrong. He didn’t know that he is this perverted. “I can give you a free ride anytime you want.” It wasn’t intentional that his voice got lower and huskier.
Yunho felt the awkwardness of his sentence and he took it back right away. “I mean, I don’t use that a lot so you can freely use it.”
“Thank you so much Yunho-ssi. Can I have one more request?”
“Sure, what is it? Oh, and just call me Yunho.”
“If you’re free this weekend, I want you to join me in the yacht. I want to repay you by cooking the meals.”
He is not free at all. But the sound of that suggestion is so appealing that he can’t afford to disagree. “Good timing, I’m free that time. So, see you on Saturday?”
Jaejoong chuckled. “Thank you again Yunho. See you!”
After he ended the call, he felt a smack on his head.
“Are you out of your mind? The commercial shooting for Samsung is on Saturday! And when did you have a fucking yacht?!”
“Move it to Monday please! I don’t care if I will not sleep because of that. And yes, I don’t have a yacht. That’s why you’re accompanying me in buying one today.”
Yoochun face-palmed himself. It’s the first time he saw his friend obsessing over someone like this. That’s why he couldn’t help but allow him. Maybe it’s time for Yunho to settle down. He doesn’t know Jaejoong that much but maybe he really is the one destined to his friend.
“All right, finish the shoot early cause we have a yacht to purchase.”
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Yunho had a wonderful time cruising with Jaejoong in the yacht. Jaejoong is nice, funny, smart, sneaky, playful and an amazing cook. He literally had three servings per meal and that’s not very good for his fit body, he needs to go to the gym as soon as possible.
Jae is also easily pleased. Yunho showed him a lame magic trick with the coin and his eyes widen, begging Yunho to tell him how he did trick. It’s the first time that he didn’t have to make any effort to entertain a person. Everything he say or did appears to be very funny and amusing to Jaejoong.
“I can’t tell you how much grateful I am to you for this wonderful opportunity.”
Yunho isn’t listening and is just longingly gazing at Jaejoong. His pale face looks so peaceful and warm and beautiful that he wants to kiss the expression out of him. He is so screwed, definitely screwed.
He snapped out of his thoughts and he saw Jaejoong waving his hands in front of his face.
“Are you okay?” Jae asked worriedly.
“Yeah! Yeah, I’m fine. Sorry about that, I was thinking something, uh, personal.”
The beautiful man chuckled. “Well, I only wanted to thank you for letting me borrow your yacht.”
“It’s nothing, I’m not using it that much anyway so it’s you whom I have to thank.”
Jae smiled. “I owe you for this. If you need anything, feel free to ask.”
Yunho averted his eyes from Jae. “There’s one thing I want you to do for me.”
“What is it?”
The taller man cleared his throat. “I uh, asked Yoochun for a vacation leave after finishing the promotions for the movie and he gave me uhm, a three-month break so… can you… go on a trip with me while I’m on vacation? I know it’s weird because we just met and you don’t know me yet that well. It’s just that I don’t have a friend to go with, I have a lot of friends but I’m not that close to them and Yoochun-”
Jaejoong stopped his babbling and gave him a sad smile. “I will be glad to join you in that trip Yunho but I’m going to have to decline your request.”
Yunho looked like a child that was prohibited from eating a candy. “But why? Are you busy this month? I can move it if you want.”
Jaejoong sighed. “Remember the thing that I talked to you about in the hospital?”
He saw Yunho trying but having a difficulty recalling. “The list that I told you about? I need to finish that before the year ends and it’s only three months to go before January. So I’m really sorry I can’t accompany you in your trip. This is very important to me.”
Yunho wanted to ask what that list is all about but he can tell that Jaejoong is not ready to tell him yet. He’ll just wait for him to open up himself.
He’s disappointed with Jae’s answer though. He really thought he can hang out with him during his given vacation. Wait, maybe he can.
“What if I join you in completing the things that’s written in that list?”
Jae was surprised with what he suggested.
“I mean, I also want to do things other than act or be a ken doll in front of a camera.”
Jaejoong laughed. “You sure you want to waste your vacation doing weird stuff with me?”
Yunho smirked. “Trust me, I will enjoy doing weird stuff to you.” Grammar typo alert. “I mean, with you! Let’s uh, do weird stuff with each other.” Another grammar alert. “I mean, together! I should just stop talking shouldn’t I?”
This time, Jae laughed hysterically.
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The next thing on Jaejoong’s list was plant one hundred trees in a mountain. He said that people here are in danger from a landslide because greedy illegal loggers are cutting up all the trees, therefore what they can do is help them replant.
Yunho was expecting that list to contain crazy stuff like sky diving, surfing, cliff diving, or other dangerous stuff normal people would put on their ‘bucket list’. But what he and Jaejoong had been doing are none of those things. They’ve been helping to build churches, houses, volunteering in charity work for people in rural areas, being a parent of an orphan for a whole day and entertaining old people in the house for the elderly.
Yes, he did charity work once but there were cameras everywhere and that was to increase his popularity. This time, when he saw the grateful eyes and smiles of the people who thanked him for giving them his time and making them feel that somebody still cares, he couldn’t help but shed a tear and hug them.
Now, they’re helping in planting seeds and Jaejoong is humming.
“That song is nice. What is the title?”
“You don’t know Heaven Knows by Price Rick?”
“You prefer old western songs?”
Jaejoong shrugged his shoulders. “Maybe I do, it helps me relax when I’m stressed.”
Yunho became silent afterwards. His vacation with Jae is almost over but he doesn’t want them to part ways. Every single day he’s with him, he knows that he’s falling deeper and deeper. The man is too beautiful, too kind, too perfect. He wants to ask him to go out with him and be his boyfriend, but he’s really nervous. What if Jaejoong only sees him as a friend? What if they become awkward with each other? He’ll be risking their friendship if he confesses.
And then he felt mud being thrown at him. “Earth to Yunnie, what are you thinking about? Your expression is funny, looking all serious like that.”
But Yunho didn’t laugh or have revenge by also throwing mud. He seriously looked into Jaejoong’s eyes and said, “I love you.”
Jaejoong stopped laughing and Yunho saw the saddest expression form on the beautiful man’s face.
He knows from Jae’s expression that he’s going to be rejected. But he couldn’t give up. He needs Jaejoong so much. “I love you. Please be my boyfriend.”
Then tears slowly fall from Jae’s eyes. Yunho immediately ran to him and hugged him. Jae hugs him back but he started crying out loud. He cried and wept while Yunho rubs his back, trying to calm him down. He wasn’t expecting this kind of reaction from Jae. He can’t think of a reason of why Jaejoong would be this sad from his confession. He can be sad if he doesn’t feel that way because he thinks that it will ruin their friendship but not to the point where he will be this devastated. He has a lot of questions right now but Jae is still crying so he’s going to have to wait for him to settle down first. He carried him to their tent and then Jae kissed him and whispered thank you. It was just a peck on the lips but Yunho was too shocked to react. He also pecked Jaejoong’s lips and they cuddled until they fall asleep. Yunho slept with a wonderful feeling and a smile on his face.
Ω
When he woke up, he was alone at the tent. He checked his phone and it was already four pm. He went out and stretched his arms and legs and scanned the surroundings to see if Jaejoong started planting without him.
He couldn’t find Jae anywhere. He tried calling him but only the voice mail answered him. He scanned the tent and Jaejoong’s backpack wasn’t there. He grabbed his bag to search for Jae and saw a paper under it. He opens it and there is a note with Jaejoong’s handwriting.
Yunho,
Thank you for putting up with me for these past few months, I really appreciate it. My list is complete and I couldn’t have done it without you.
I still have one more request… forget about me. If you plan on finding me, just don’t. It’s a waste of effort because you never will. I know it’s unfair of me to tell you this but just know that I love you too. You’re the only person who made me feel this way. Thank you for everything. I wish you live a healthy and happy life.
Jae
Yunho didn’t even realize that he’s crying. He dropped his bag, ran out of the tent straight through the forest while yelling out Jaejoong’s name. He kept running and running until he tripped, fall and roll on the ground. He didn’t stand up and just lie there, he was panting and out of his breath. He stared at the sky and he cried. He knows he has injuries from tripping but he doesn’t care about the physical pain, what he only cares about is that he needs to find Jae. He needs to see him and tell him it’s fine being friends, he can live with that. What he can’t do is forgetting about him and not being by his side. It’s painful even imagining it.
He stood up and went back to their tent. He packed his things and went to his car. He shouldn’t mope around like this. He will find Jaejoong and he can only do it with a clear mind.
Ω
Two years later…
“Will you smile a little bit? This is going to be your first concert and you don’t look like a singer who sold out all the tickets in mere seconds at all!”
After Jaejoong left, Yunho used all of his resources to find him but he had no luck. He’s drinking almost every night until Yoochun punched the hell out of him and wake him up, telling him that he’s already ruining his life and career.
He tried to move on but there were times where he will remember some memories with Jae and will become really depressed. He will sometimes go back to the places they’ve been to, wishing that he will find Jaejoong there but he didn’t. Because of that, he created really heart breaking songs which became a really big hit, even beating Hollywood singers in topping the billboard.
Now, he is a successful singer and composer and richer than before but he doesn’t feel complete at all. He will never feel complete again.
There was a knock on the door and Yoochun opened it, revealing Xiah Junsu waiting outside.
Xiah Junsu is a very popular theatre actor in Broadway. Yoochun is a really big fan of him.
Junsu offered his hand to a stunned Yoochun. “Hi, I’m Kim Junsu, I’m looking for Mr. Jung Yunho. Is he available at the moment?”
“Uh, yes, yes come in. He’s not doing anything but forgive me if he’ll act a bit rude, he woke up from the wrong side of the bed today so” he cleared his throat and Yunho looked at them. “Yunho, this is Xiah Junsu-ssi, one of the most respected person in Broadway, Junsu-ssi, this is Jung Yunho.”
Yunho took Junsu’s hand and they sat down. Yoochun went out to get some tea.
Junsu was the first one who broke the silence. “How are you?”
That was unexpected. “Excuse me?”
Junsu sighed. “How are you these past few years?”
Yunho looked confused. “Do we know each other?”
“We don’t, but you and my brother do.”
Yunho was surprised for a moment, he felt like all of his hidden emotions came out all at once. He stood up and kneeled in front of Junsu. “Where is he? Is he doing okay? Can you bring me to him?” Then tears fall from his eyes and he bowed his head and begged. “I really want to see him… please…”
Junsu was shocked at the man kneeling before him. After Jaejoong left him, Yunho became famous for being cold and not having any emotions at all and that’s why he quit the acting world and focused on singing instead.
He couldn’t help but cry with him.
He held Yunho’s arm and made him sit beside him, he stroke his head and looked into his eyes.
“I will tell you everything and you will listen until I’m finished okay?”
Yunho wiped his tears and nodded.
And Junsu told him everything. His first sentence made Yunho’s breath hitch.
Jaejoong was diagnosed with cancer three years ago.
“He started to change and was always angry at everything. He throws things when he’s irritated and will cry for hours for no reason. We understand why he’s acting that way, but we were really very worried. And then one day he asked our parents’ permission to allow him to go back to our old house here in Korea. They let him and that’s the only time that we saw Jaejoong smile again. They allowed him to stay there but the condition was he will go back after a year to start his chemotherapy. Jaejoong agreed and left.”
Junsu wiped his eyes before continuing. “When he returned, he looked happy. He hugged us and said that he will do all his best to fight his sickness. We cried but he didn’t. Jae returned a much stronger person.”
Junsu smiled. “And then you started making songs. Jae always asked me to buy an album every time it’s been released. He will listen to it after his treatment and the songs will make him calm down, smile and relax.”
“At first I thought he is just one of your admirer and a fan but…”
Junsu stopped talking and cried for a few minutes. Yunho is just staring at him the whole time, not showing any kind of emotion.
He wiped his tears and continued. “Last week, when he passed away, mom saw this scrapbook under his bed.”
Yunho reached for the book. The book is entitled, The Bucket List.
He opened the first page and it has a picture of a smiling Jaejoong, and behind him is a house. The caption of the picture is Number One: Go to my favorite place in the world.
He then turned to the next page and this time, the pictures were smaller. There were Jaejoong skateboarding, fishing in a boat, flying a kite, riding a horse, and many other activities. He turned page after page and he stopped at the next one.
It was Jaejoong showing a thumbs up, presenting the grave that he proudly dug by himself. The caption is Number 40: Dig my own grave
And he turned on the next page. From that page up to the last one, his face was there. Number 41: Cruise in a yacht. He was there, laughing with Jae. Number 42: milk a cow and drink it. They were toasting their hard-earned milk. Number 57: Make someone happy for a day. And there they were, Yunho frowning because Jaejoong sneakily ate his ice cream and Jaejoong with their adopted kid, laughing at the sulking Yunho.
And then came final page. Number 60: Become the lover of the greatest man in the world. And there was a picture of Jaejoong in the tent, slyly stealing a kiss from a sleeping Yunho.
Yunho laughed. He found the last picture very funny. That was so like Jaejoong to do something like that.
And then a crew knocked on his door. “Mr. Jung, the show will start in 10 minutes.”
Junsu worriedly looked at Yunho. “Maybe I shouldn’t have brought this to you today, will you still be able to perform?”
“Where is he buried?”
“We buried him yesterday to the place where he first saw you.”
Yunho nodded and lifted the book. “Can I keep this?”
Junsu hugged him. “It was always yours from the very start.”
He thanked Junsu and went out of the door, he saw Yoochun crying outside. He immediately went and hugged his friend.
“It’s fine if you can’t perform tonight, I can make arrangements-“
Yunho looked at him and wiped his tears. “I’m fine Chun. I promise.” And then walked to the stage.
The fans shouted when the spotlight was focused on him. He went towards the piano and all became very quiet when he started to play.
He pressed in the first note and it was not one of his composed songs. The fans all knew the song but they were confused as to why that is the introduction song that Yunho will sing.
He's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
He's everywhere I go
He's all I know.
And though he's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger, everyday
And even now he's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let him go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.
The fans have no idea what’s happening. All they know is that their idol is crying while singing and he sounded like he was in a lot of pain. All of them cried with him.
Yunho stopped playing and broke down. It finally gets to him that Jaejoong is gone, forever. He will never see his Jaejae again.
The lights went out and the stadium was filled with the sound of everyone crying.
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A/N: My first angst T_T. It's also the first time that I wrote a long story in one sitting. Please pardon the mistakes :D Here is the link for the song if you don't know it :D. Heaven Knows
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Angst
Length: Oneshot
Summary: It was the weirdest day of Yunho’s life when he saw the most beautiful person his eyes had ever laid upon on digging his own grave, literally.
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“Is it really necessary for the photoshoot to be this early? I only slept for like five hours this week, one for each day.” Yunho wearily said as he tried to get some sympathy from his friend slash manager and let him rest some more.
“Is it my fault that you have to be so fucking famous? Bear with it a little longer and you’re going to get the vacation break you badly needed.”
Yunho closed his eyes and tried to sleep. He desperately tried but he couldn’t, and not being able to sleep in moving cars is very frustrating especially when you are an artist. The theme of the photoshoot is nature, so they’re going to a forest that is a six hour drive from the city. He just stared outside the window and watched the beautiful view to relax himself.
When they arrived at the place they were amazed by the lovely scenery. There is a falls nearby and there were beautiful trees and flowers everywhere. It’s definitely a place to go to when you want to relax and relieve some stress.
“The shoot will start in two hours.”
Yunho looked at his manager like he’s grown another head. “Are you kidding me Chun? Two hours? I woke up so fucking early and we’ll start in two hours?”
Yoochun sighed. “The model that you are paired with today had a car accident. She’s not badly injured but she needs to rest in the hospital for a week. They’re currently looking for a substitute from the houses near the area. Why don’t you sleep for some more in the car while waiting.”
“I’m not that sleepy anymore. I’ll go for a walk.” Yunho said and went out of his trailer. He stretched his arms and legs and headed towards the forest. He’s always been fond of nature. He’s always lived in the city but ever since he was a kid he loved it when they’re having their field trips in the province.
He then saw footprints on the ground and because of his adventurous personality, he trailed and followed it. He’s aware that what he’s doing is not safe because for all he knows, it might be his stalker luring him someplace. But his curiosity defeated his reasoning. Yoochun will definitely kill him when he finds out what he’s currently doing.
As he was nearing the falls he heard a strange sound. A sound of a man shovelling.
“Am I about to witness a crime scene wherein a criminal buries the person he killed in the middle of nowhere? This is so exciting!” Yunho thought as he hid behind the tree with his heart thumping from nervousness and excitement.
His breath was taken away by the person he already labelled as a murderer. The most beautiful person his eyes had ever laid upon on is currently shovelling the ground with all of his might, face covered with mud but despite that looking absolutely stunning. Heck, the guy could say that he’s an angel and Yunho with no doubt, would believe him.
But Yunho would prefer it if the pretty man will tell him he’s a stalker and is here to kidnap him. Yunho will willingly go, no questions asked.
“Come out and stop hiding. I can feel your presence you know.”
Man, the pretty guy doesn’t only have an angelic face, he also had to have a heavenly voice. What did he do to get so lucky?
Yunho revealed himself and flashed the flirtiest smile he can manage.
“Hi, I didn’t mean to startle you, I happened to pass by and was curious as to what a beautiful guy like you is doing. I’m Jung Yunho by the way.” Yunho offered his hand to the man in front of him who only gazed at him and didn’t stop digging. He stared for a while and then noticed Yunho’s face getting redder by the minute. He finally shook his hand and introduced himself.
“Kim Jaejoong.” He eyed Yunho’s face again. “Have we met before?”
Yunho was slightly surprised that Jae didn’t recognize him. There goes his dream of having a hot stalker.
Jaejoong continued digging and completely ignored him. Yunho, not being used at being snubbed, tried to make a conversation.
“What are you doing?”
The pretty guy rolled his eyes. “Isn’t it obvious?”
Whoa, what a total jackass! This guy’s face is the total opposite of his personality.
“I’m just asking you know, you don’t have to be so rude. How deep are you digging? Maybe I can help.”
“Six feet. Thanks but I can handle it myself.”
Yunho laughed. “Six feet? What, you’re digging a grave or something?”
The sad look on Jaejoong’s face made him feel like an asshole. “I am sorry for making a joke out of it. I offer my sincere condolences.”
This time, Jaejoong was the one who laughed. He dropped his shovel and laughed so hard tears started to form in his eyes. Yunho frowned at him, not happy at being made fun of.
“You didn’t have to make a joke like that just to make me leave you know. You just have to nicely ask and I will leave on my own.”
Jaejoong stopped laughing but was still smiling at him. “I wasn’t lying. I really am digging a grave, a grave for myself.”
The taller man scowled. Jaejoong is definitely making fun of him again. He’s not going to fall for it this time.
“Whatever. I should go. You obviously don’t want my company.”
Jae smiled at him. “Nice meeting you Yunho-ssi. I hope to see you soon.”
Ω
“I can’t believe that it’s been a week and you still haven’t forgotten that guy at the forest.”
Yunho was surprised by the sudden appearance of Yoochun. “What nonsense are you talking about? I don’t think about him at all!”
Yoochun just smirked. “Yeah you don’t. It’s totally normal for you to stare into space and mutter that guy really has the shittiest personality.”
“You said it yourself, I despise that guy. If you’re there, you’ll understand why I feel like this.”
“Well I guess what they say is true, the more you hate, the more you love.”
Yunho scoffed. “I’m pretty sure it’s the other way around for me. The more I love his face, the more I hate his personality.”
The manager sighed. “Yunho, I think you’re overreacting. You told me the whole story after you return and I don’t think that he has done anything wrong to make you hate him so much.”
“I told you, you weren’t there, you didn’t-“
“I think I know what this is about.”
Yunho raised his eyebrows at him.
“You hate him because he didn’t fall for your charm didn’t he? Ha! The first breathing person that is not affected by Jung Yunho’s sexy charisma. I like this Jaejoong guy already.”
“I am not arguing with you anymore. Just know that you’re wrong. Very wrong!” Yunho shouted as he slammed the door of the dressing room and left the laughing Yoochun.
Ω
The next time he saw Jaejoong, he was a stunt double for Kim Hyunjoong, his partner in an action movie. He doesn’t have one because he likes doing the hard and delicate scenes by himself. That’s the reason why he’s one of the most respected person in the acting industry.
Jaejoong is currently being oriented of what he would be doing. He is just listening and nodding his head.
“Please wipe that disgusting drool of yours.”
Yunho jumped out of his chair. “Stop sneaking up on me Chun! And I’m not drooling!”
Yoochun looked at where his friend’s eyes were and smirked. “You like the stunt double dude huh? Can’t blame you though, this dude’s really pretty. It’s a shame he’s a double, his face is prettier than most celebrities.”
All celebrities you should say. Yunho thought. Well it’s true, no matter how much he hates him, he couldn’t argue that he really has a unique attractive appearance.
All of a sudden, their eyes met. Jaejoong smiled at him and he found his face getting warmer. A flash snapped him out of his thoughts and he found his manager, laughing with a camera in his hand.
“Jung Yunho blushing like a bride. Who wouldn’t take advantage of such great opportunity.”
Ω
Jaejoong is currently in a hospital. After perfecting the dangerous stunt that stupid Kim Hyunjoong should be performing, Jaejoong fainted. He doesn’t know what’s gotten into him. He panicked carried Jaejoong out of there and brought the unconscious guy to his car while glaring at Hyunjoong the whole time.
“He has a weak stamina. Running and then being ran-over by a car over and over again is too much for him. I don’t think he’s done this kind of job before.”
Yunho listened to the instructions of what Jaejoong should do and eat. He doesn’t know why he’s doing this, he even wrote it down just in case he forgot.
“The result of the tests will be given to him later. I’m sorry but we can’t allow you to read the results since you are not a family member.”
After the doctor left, Yoochun came in and looked at his friend. “Romeo o Romeo, is this thy love at first sight?”
Yunho glared at him. “He fainted Chun, what did you expect me to do? Just stand there and not do anything?”
“Your actions are not that of what a fellow co-worker would do. The whole crew is talking about the relationship of the two of you.”
Yunho sighed. “This is not our first meeting but we don’t have that kind of relationship. We’re not even friends.”
Then he gets it. “That is Jaejoong isn’t it?”
The silence of his friend confirmed it. Wow, he didn’t expect that Yunho had already fallen this hard. He thought it was just a crush or a little infatuation.
“Anyway, I’ll give you ten more minutes then we’ll leave. You still have a scene to shoot.”
Jaejoong opened his eyes after Yoochun left. The two of them stared at each other for a while until Jaejoong broke the silence.
“Thank you for bringing me here. I’m sorry for delaying you in the shoot. You should go now, I’m feeling better.”
The other man did not answer. He just looked at Jaejoong like he was trying to figure something out.
“Why do you want to do a dangerous stunt? I doubt it’s because of money because the pay is not that big. And most of the stunt double does that as a stepping stone into entering acting world but I also doubt that that’s your reason.”
He became silent and Yunho doesn’t think that Jaejoong is going to answer him.
“If you don’t want to tell me, it’s fine. Just, never do that again. The doctor says that your stamina is weak and here is the list of the things that you should eat to increase your-”
“I have a bucket list.” Jaejoong murmured.
“You have a what?”
“A bucket list. Things I want to do before the end of the year.”
Yunho processed what he said for a while. “I’m guessing that that list has a kill myself in doing a dangerous thing written on it.”
Jaejoong chuckled. “You’re almost right. The list has a ‘do a dangerous stunt’ and then it also has a ‘have yourself appear in a blockbuster movie’. And then I thought, why not kill two birds in one stone? I’m smart aren’t I?”
Yunho also chuckled. “Be thankful that you’re cute, it’s the only reason I’m putting up with your corny jokes.”
The cute guy smirked. “So you think I’m cute? Thank you Mr. handsome.”
Yunho blushed and then cleared his throat. “Anyway, I have to go now, remember to drink the vitamins listed there ok. Here is my calling number. Call me if you need anything.”
Jaejoong nodded and Yunho left the room, he saw Yoochun waiting outside the door, smiling. Yunho frowned at him.
“What are you so happy about?”
Yoochun only shook his head. “You are so whipped my friend, so whipped.”
Ω
Two days later, while he was taking a break from the shoot, his cellphone rang with an unknown number calling. His eyes widen in shock and he just stared at the ringing phone.
Yoochun was irritated. “Why the hell are you freaking out? Just answer the damn phone!”
Yunho glared at him and answered his phone. “Hello? This is Yunho speaking. Who is this?”
Yoochun rolled his eyes. “As if you didn’t know who is calling.”
“Jae! I’m surprised you called.”
“I’m sorry, are you busy right now?”
“No, I’m not doing anything today. How are you?”
“Haha, thanks for the concern, I’m fine now thanks to you.”
“Nah, I am not much of a help. Anyway, can I do anything for you?”
“I just wanted to ask if you know a person who owns a yacht, since you know a lot of rich people. We can negotiate for a reasonable amount.”
“This is part of your bucket list isn’t it?”
Jaejoong laughed. “You got me smarty pants. I just wanted to tour around Seoul in a yacht. If you don’t know anyone it’s okay. The primary reason I called is to thank you anyway.”
“Luckily for you, I have a yacht.”
He heard Jaejoong gasp. “Wow! I didn’t know you’re that rich! So, how much for a ride?”
Yunho didn’t know why that sounded so wrong. He didn’t know that he is this perverted. “I can give you a free ride anytime you want.” It wasn’t intentional that his voice got lower and huskier.
Yunho felt the awkwardness of his sentence and he took it back right away. “I mean, I don’t use that a lot so you can freely use it.”
“Thank you so much Yunho-ssi. Can I have one more request?”
“Sure, what is it? Oh, and just call me Yunho.”
“If you’re free this weekend, I want you to join me in the yacht. I want to repay you by cooking the meals.”
He is not free at all. But the sound of that suggestion is so appealing that he can’t afford to disagree. “Good timing, I’m free that time. So, see you on Saturday?”
Jaejoong chuckled. “Thank you again Yunho. See you!”
After he ended the call, he felt a smack on his head.
“Are you out of your mind? The commercial shooting for Samsung is on Saturday! And when did you have a fucking yacht?!”
“Move it to Monday please! I don’t care if I will not sleep because of that. And yes, I don’t have a yacht. That’s why you’re accompanying me in buying one today.”
Yoochun face-palmed himself. It’s the first time he saw his friend obsessing over someone like this. That’s why he couldn’t help but allow him. Maybe it’s time for Yunho to settle down. He doesn’t know Jaejoong that much but maybe he really is the one destined to his friend.
“All right, finish the shoot early cause we have a yacht to purchase.”
Ω
Yunho had a wonderful time cruising with Jaejoong in the yacht. Jaejoong is nice, funny, smart, sneaky, playful and an amazing cook. He literally had three servings per meal and that’s not very good for his fit body, he needs to go to the gym as soon as possible.
Jae is also easily pleased. Yunho showed him a lame magic trick with the coin and his eyes widen, begging Yunho to tell him how he did trick. It’s the first time that he didn’t have to make any effort to entertain a person. Everything he say or did appears to be very funny and amusing to Jaejoong.
“I can’t tell you how much grateful I am to you for this wonderful opportunity.”
Yunho isn’t listening and is just longingly gazing at Jaejoong. His pale face looks so peaceful and warm and beautiful that he wants to kiss the expression out of him. He is so screwed, definitely screwed.
He snapped out of his thoughts and he saw Jaejoong waving his hands in front of his face.
“Are you okay?” Jae asked worriedly.
“Yeah! Yeah, I’m fine. Sorry about that, I was thinking something, uh, personal.”
The beautiful man chuckled. “Well, I only wanted to thank you for letting me borrow your yacht.”
“It’s nothing, I’m not using it that much anyway so it’s you whom I have to thank.”
Jae smiled. “I owe you for this. If you need anything, feel free to ask.”
Yunho averted his eyes from Jae. “There’s one thing I want you to do for me.”
“What is it?”
The taller man cleared his throat. “I uh, asked Yoochun for a vacation leave after finishing the promotions for the movie and he gave me uhm, a three-month break so… can you… go on a trip with me while I’m on vacation? I know it’s weird because we just met and you don’t know me yet that well. It’s just that I don’t have a friend to go with, I have a lot of friends but I’m not that close to them and Yoochun-”
Jaejoong stopped his babbling and gave him a sad smile. “I will be glad to join you in that trip Yunho but I’m going to have to decline your request.”
Yunho looked like a child that was prohibited from eating a candy. “But why? Are you busy this month? I can move it if you want.”
Jaejoong sighed. “Remember the thing that I talked to you about in the hospital?”
He saw Yunho trying but having a difficulty recalling. “The list that I told you about? I need to finish that before the year ends and it’s only three months to go before January. So I’m really sorry I can’t accompany you in your trip. This is very important to me.”
Yunho wanted to ask what that list is all about but he can tell that Jaejoong is not ready to tell him yet. He’ll just wait for him to open up himself.
He’s disappointed with Jae’s answer though. He really thought he can hang out with him during his given vacation. Wait, maybe he can.
“What if I join you in completing the things that’s written in that list?”
Jae was surprised with what he suggested.
“I mean, I also want to do things other than act or be a ken doll in front of a camera.”
Jaejoong laughed. “You sure you want to waste your vacation doing weird stuff with me?”
Yunho smirked. “Trust me, I will enjoy doing weird stuff to you.” Grammar typo alert. “I mean, with you! Let’s uh, do weird stuff with each other.” Another grammar alert. “I mean, together! I should just stop talking shouldn’t I?”
This time, Jae laughed hysterically.
Ω
The next thing on Jaejoong’s list was plant one hundred trees in a mountain. He said that people here are in danger from a landslide because greedy illegal loggers are cutting up all the trees, therefore what they can do is help them replant.
Yunho was expecting that list to contain crazy stuff like sky diving, surfing, cliff diving, or other dangerous stuff normal people would put on their ‘bucket list’. But what he and Jaejoong had been doing are none of those things. They’ve been helping to build churches, houses, volunteering in charity work for people in rural areas, being a parent of an orphan for a whole day and entertaining old people in the house for the elderly.
Yes, he did charity work once but there were cameras everywhere and that was to increase his popularity. This time, when he saw the grateful eyes and smiles of the people who thanked him for giving them his time and making them feel that somebody still cares, he couldn’t help but shed a tear and hug them.
Now, they’re helping in planting seeds and Jaejoong is humming.
“That song is nice. What is the title?”
“You don’t know Heaven Knows by Price Rick?”
“You prefer old western songs?”
Jaejoong shrugged his shoulders. “Maybe I do, it helps me relax when I’m stressed.”
Yunho became silent afterwards. His vacation with Jae is almost over but he doesn’t want them to part ways. Every single day he’s with him, he knows that he’s falling deeper and deeper. The man is too beautiful, too kind, too perfect. He wants to ask him to go out with him and be his boyfriend, but he’s really nervous. What if Jaejoong only sees him as a friend? What if they become awkward with each other? He’ll be risking their friendship if he confesses.
And then he felt mud being thrown at him. “Earth to Yunnie, what are you thinking about? Your expression is funny, looking all serious like that.”
But Yunho didn’t laugh or have revenge by also throwing mud. He seriously looked into Jaejoong’s eyes and said, “I love you.”
Jaejoong stopped laughing and Yunho saw the saddest expression form on the beautiful man’s face.
He knows from Jae’s expression that he’s going to be rejected. But he couldn’t give up. He needs Jaejoong so much. “I love you. Please be my boyfriend.”
Then tears slowly fall from Jae’s eyes. Yunho immediately ran to him and hugged him. Jae hugs him back but he started crying out loud. He cried and wept while Yunho rubs his back, trying to calm him down. He wasn’t expecting this kind of reaction from Jae. He can’t think of a reason of why Jaejoong would be this sad from his confession. He can be sad if he doesn’t feel that way because he thinks that it will ruin their friendship but not to the point where he will be this devastated. He has a lot of questions right now but Jae is still crying so he’s going to have to wait for him to settle down first. He carried him to their tent and then Jae kissed him and whispered thank you. It was just a peck on the lips but Yunho was too shocked to react. He also pecked Jaejoong’s lips and they cuddled until they fall asleep. Yunho slept with a wonderful feeling and a smile on his face.
Ω
When he woke up, he was alone at the tent. He checked his phone and it was already four pm. He went out and stretched his arms and legs and scanned the surroundings to see if Jaejoong started planting without him.
He couldn’t find Jae anywhere. He tried calling him but only the voice mail answered him. He scanned the tent and Jaejoong’s backpack wasn’t there. He grabbed his bag to search for Jae and saw a paper under it. He opens it and there is a note with Jaejoong’s handwriting.
Yunho,
Thank you for putting up with me for these past few months, I really appreciate it. My list is complete and I couldn’t have done it without you.
I still have one more request… forget about me. If you plan on finding me, just don’t. It’s a waste of effort because you never will. I know it’s unfair of me to tell you this but just know that I love you too. You’re the only person who made me feel this way. Thank you for everything. I wish you live a healthy and happy life.
Jae
Yunho didn’t even realize that he’s crying. He dropped his bag, ran out of the tent straight through the forest while yelling out Jaejoong’s name. He kept running and running until he tripped, fall and roll on the ground. He didn’t stand up and just lie there, he was panting and out of his breath. He stared at the sky and he cried. He knows he has injuries from tripping but he doesn’t care about the physical pain, what he only cares about is that he needs to find Jae. He needs to see him and tell him it’s fine being friends, he can live with that. What he can’t do is forgetting about him and not being by his side. It’s painful even imagining it.
He stood up and went back to their tent. He packed his things and went to his car. He shouldn’t mope around like this. He will find Jaejoong and he can only do it with a clear mind.
Ω
Two years later…
“Will you smile a little bit? This is going to be your first concert and you don’t look like a singer who sold out all the tickets in mere seconds at all!”
After Jaejoong left, Yunho used all of his resources to find him but he had no luck. He’s drinking almost every night until Yoochun punched the hell out of him and wake him up, telling him that he’s already ruining his life and career.
He tried to move on but there were times where he will remember some memories with Jae and will become really depressed. He will sometimes go back to the places they’ve been to, wishing that he will find Jaejoong there but he didn’t. Because of that, he created really heart breaking songs which became a really big hit, even beating Hollywood singers in topping the billboard.
Now, he is a successful singer and composer and richer than before but he doesn’t feel complete at all. He will never feel complete again.
There was a knock on the door and Yoochun opened it, revealing Xiah Junsu waiting outside.
Xiah Junsu is a very popular theatre actor in Broadway. Yoochun is a really big fan of him.
Junsu offered his hand to a stunned Yoochun. “Hi, I’m Kim Junsu, I’m looking for Mr. Jung Yunho. Is he available at the moment?”
“Uh, yes, yes come in. He’s not doing anything but forgive me if he’ll act a bit rude, he woke up from the wrong side of the bed today so” he cleared his throat and Yunho looked at them. “Yunho, this is Xiah Junsu-ssi, one of the most respected person in Broadway, Junsu-ssi, this is Jung Yunho.”
Yunho took Junsu’s hand and they sat down. Yoochun went out to get some tea.
Junsu was the first one who broke the silence. “How are you?”
That was unexpected. “Excuse me?”
Junsu sighed. “How are you these past few years?”
Yunho looked confused. “Do we know each other?”
“We don’t, but you and my brother do.”
Yunho was surprised for a moment, he felt like all of his hidden emotions came out all at once. He stood up and kneeled in front of Junsu. “Where is he? Is he doing okay? Can you bring me to him?” Then tears fall from his eyes and he bowed his head and begged. “I really want to see him… please…”
Junsu was shocked at the man kneeling before him. After Jaejoong left him, Yunho became famous for being cold and not having any emotions at all and that’s why he quit the acting world and focused on singing instead.
He couldn’t help but cry with him.
He held Yunho’s arm and made him sit beside him, he stroke his head and looked into his eyes.
“I will tell you everything and you will listen until I’m finished okay?”
Yunho wiped his tears and nodded.
And Junsu told him everything. His first sentence made Yunho’s breath hitch.
Jaejoong was diagnosed with cancer three years ago.
“He started to change and was always angry at everything. He throws things when he’s irritated and will cry for hours for no reason. We understand why he’s acting that way, but we were really very worried. And then one day he asked our parents’ permission to allow him to go back to our old house here in Korea. They let him and that’s the only time that we saw Jaejoong smile again. They allowed him to stay there but the condition was he will go back after a year to start his chemotherapy. Jaejoong agreed and left.”
Junsu wiped his eyes before continuing. “When he returned, he looked happy. He hugged us and said that he will do all his best to fight his sickness. We cried but he didn’t. Jae returned a much stronger person.”
Junsu smiled. “And then you started making songs. Jae always asked me to buy an album every time it’s been released. He will listen to it after his treatment and the songs will make him calm down, smile and relax.”
“At first I thought he is just one of your admirer and a fan but…”
Junsu stopped talking and cried for a few minutes. Yunho is just staring at him the whole time, not showing any kind of emotion.
He wiped his tears and continued. “Last week, when he passed away, mom saw this scrapbook under his bed.”
Yunho reached for the book. The book is entitled, The Bucket List.
He opened the first page and it has a picture of a smiling Jaejoong, and behind him is a house. The caption of the picture is Number One: Go to my favorite place in the world.
He then turned to the next page and this time, the pictures were smaller. There were Jaejoong skateboarding, fishing in a boat, flying a kite, riding a horse, and many other activities. He turned page after page and he stopped at the next one.
It was Jaejoong showing a thumbs up, presenting the grave that he proudly dug by himself. The caption is Number 40: Dig my own grave
And he turned on the next page. From that page up to the last one, his face was there. Number 41: Cruise in a yacht. He was there, laughing with Jae. Number 42: milk a cow and drink it. They were toasting their hard-earned milk. Number 57: Make someone happy for a day. And there they were, Yunho frowning because Jaejoong sneakily ate his ice cream and Jaejoong with their adopted kid, laughing at the sulking Yunho.
And then came final page. Number 60: Become the lover of the greatest man in the world. And there was a picture of Jaejoong in the tent, slyly stealing a kiss from a sleeping Yunho.
Yunho laughed. He found the last picture very funny. That was so like Jaejoong to do something like that.
And then a crew knocked on his door. “Mr. Jung, the show will start in 10 minutes.”
Junsu worriedly looked at Yunho. “Maybe I shouldn’t have brought this to you today, will you still be able to perform?”
“Where is he buried?”
“We buried him yesterday to the place where he first saw you.”
Yunho nodded and lifted the book. “Can I keep this?”
Junsu hugged him. “It was always yours from the very start.”
He thanked Junsu and went out of the door, he saw Yoochun crying outside. He immediately went and hugged his friend.
“It’s fine if you can’t perform tonight, I can make arrangements-“
Yunho looked at him and wiped his tears. “I’m fine Chun. I promise.” And then walked to the stage.
The fans shouted when the spotlight was focused on him. He went towards the piano and all became very quiet when he started to play.
He pressed in the first note and it was not one of his composed songs. The fans all knew the song but they were confused as to why that is the introduction song that Yunho will sing.
He's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
He's everywhere I go
He's all I know.
And though he's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger, everyday
And even now he's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let him go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.
The fans have no idea what’s happening. All they know is that their idol is crying while singing and he sounded like he was in a lot of pain. All of them cried with him.
Yunho stopped playing and broke down. It finally gets to him that Jaejoong is gone, forever. He will never see his Jaejae again.
The lights went out and the stadium was filled with the sound of everyone crying.
Ω
A/N: My first angst T_T. It's also the first time that I wrote a long story in one sitting. Please pardon the mistakes :D Here is the link for the song if you don't know it :D. Heaven Knows