Life stuff.

[choffman]

So, what's going on with me? It's hard to say. I'm at an odd period in my life where everything seems to be unfolding and coming together at the same time. I'm at the crux of many different changes. Some make me sad, others confused, others hopeful for the future

Comments

[phaseonehundred]

I'd never expect you to compromise to be my friend. I wouldn't want you as my friend if you would.

I'm behind you with what you're going through, and if there's more, I'm behind you on that.

Just do what you have to do. I know you will but that's the only thing I can say that expresses my feelings toward you and everything going on.

[choffman]

Thanks. I'm not even sure how we managed to get to know each other as well as we do, but you were never one of the people I thought I might have to cut ties with because of the aforementioned big sekrit.

[ariseishirou]

the knowledge at a very young age that I only have one life to live is a powerful factor in the equation of relationships vs. experience

On the flip side, everyone only has one life to live - I suppose that's the difference between existentialism and humanism: the knowledge of said one shot makes the former try to make things the least shitty as possible for themselves, the latter strives to make things the least shitty as possible for all involved.

But then you've said many times that you have little to no regard for humanity as a whole, so... humanism would definitely be out, I suppose.

[choffman]

I have much regard for humans as individuals, and about zero for humanity as a whole, yeah.

It's a weird juxtaposition, and it still ends up making me want to help people in their time of need... I just don't have a very optimistic opinion of them.

[amberoid]

That's me in a nutshell. I freely admit to being a misanthrope.

And I, too, have lost friends over the years, mainly due to just drifting apart. Sometimes I wonder if I'm on the verge of losing more in the near future.

[choffman]

I've come to expect it, really. I think my view of people pretty much went down the hole when I was a kid because I had absolutely no real friends to speak of when I was 6... until I was 12. Yeah.

And the reason they hated me, not even shitting, was because they thought I was a "brain" for liking reading. You can imagine how much that impressed me.

Overall I suppose, when you get right down to the person inside, people are all just lonely, insecure and sad and they just want to be respected and liked- so by themselves I try to give that to them. But when they act with herd mentality toward me or treat me with callous and unthinking cruelty I don't feel I owe them more courtesy than is due.

[tengukun]

Ya know... it's weird, but I think you've worded something I've been feeling for a while now but couldn't quite express. I've tried before, but it never seems to come out right, or maybe the recipients just didn't understand it.

I guess what I'm saying is, I know how you feel... and I hope the changes to come are good ones for you. :)

[choffman]

Thanks. For the record, you're not one of the people I've ever been worried about offending.

...But then we happened to meet over shared depravity and weirdness, so my opinion of you might be a little "colored". ;P

[tengukun]

Hehe, true that... You'd have to work pretty hard to offend me. I wasn't worried about that either, just offering my support. :)

(good icon for it, too. XD)

[choffman]

I think you'd like it because it would turn you on, Dave. DON'T DENY IT.

[choffman]

Sorry Dave, we'd have to do it in the style of a BL.

There would be flowers and sparkling and you'd be all iyaaaaaa~an, so bold.

[choffman]

It's a curse as much as it is a blessing I guess. Most people would consider me too closed off and emotionally unavailable.