I'm kinda hyper. Too much sugar this morning. I tried convincing Vicki to skip so we didnt have to go to school. But it didnt work out. Hopefully we can all skip Friday. That would be kickass. I am determined to get everyone to skip ( Read more... )

So tomorrow is the "big" day. I turn 17. Scary if you ask me. Never used to be like this. I couldnt wait to grow up. Now it scares the hell outta me. And no matter what, you cant stop it. Its part of life. I hate how I cant control it. Next year I'm gonna be 18. Even scarier. Not only that, but I'll be graduating. I'm not ready to grow up. There ( Read more... )

I feel weird. First time in... 4 days that I've been alone and it feels weird. I hate that feeling ( Read more... )

We drive tonight ( Read more... )

I just home from work. It wasnt too bad I guess. Its really nice outside and makes me wanna go do something. I walked outside today and it really reminded me of Ohio. I dont know it felt weird. It also reminded me of the summer which made me happy. So happy ( Read more... )

Today was another good day. At least it was in my opinion. I went into the darkroom today and yeaaaah I got frustrated because of Calbeck. Its so hard to please him. Not like that guys. lol. Anyways got a few test strips done and I'm going back in tomorrow. 2nd I did my homework. I only missed 4 on the test! I was amazed. I was sure I was gonna get ( Read more... )

I'm happy ( Read more... )

I fucked things up...

My anger got the best of me.

How did I end up like this?

Sometimes I wonder if anythings really worth it.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

My mind scares me sometimes. Especially right now. I feel like screaming or hitting something. Anything to stop thinking. Thoughts are scary. Memories are scary. Sometimes I love sitting here thinking about everything, it makes me so freaking happy. But right now. I'm hating it. I remember how things were and compare them to now. It hurts. I still ( Read more... )

I'm feeling really lonely right now. I've felt like this all day, ever since last night when I got home from work. I dont want to explain why I feel like this, but you can prolly guess. Its not that hard. Its weird how there are billions of people out there, yet I feel like I'm alone. My moms even in the next room and I still feel like its just me ( Read more... )