Comments | chokkkingvictim: this is to everyone....

chokkkingvictim

this is to everyone....

Aug 10, 2004 02:12

i come to face the fact that i hate everyone. i mean everyone. but at the same time i dont. no one understands me. even my closest friends.. few people show it if they care. i mean dont get me wrong, some show it more than others. but few actually make me feel good about myself. i wish i never got into my accident. people might actually understand ( Read more... )

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dc_kole August 9 2004, 23:40:52 UTC

wow dude, I'm not totally sure, but I think I know how you feel... and please, I hope you know I do care, I really do. I don't know what to say, but I love you, and I hope you know that

immortalxdreams August 10 2004, 09:59:20 UTC

whoa, well maybe you should start letting your friends to get to know the real aaron. or maybe you just haven't found the right friends. and about the whole fucking up thing, your not, really. EVERYONE makes mistakes. and they eventually learn from them. Cheer up Aaron :) I love you!!!!!!

chokkkingvictim August 10 2004, 10:15:03 UTC

i do let my friends get to know me. its just that ive been switching groups of friend for the past 4 years from my accident. and i dont wanna lose another group of friends. because then, until i find a new group.. im alone and i wanna kill myself. everytime its happened ive gone a step closer to... im not even gonna say it.

chokkkingvictim August 10 2004, 10:18:59 UTC

i do know you care. a lot of people care. but the amount they care goes with how much they know eachother. im not aying you dont care or you care a little bit or dont love me as much as another friend. but its just that people always say something along the lines of... "you dont know me". and it bothers me when people say that. becasue then why dont they get me to know them????

_strawberriez_ August 10 2004, 19:48:45 UTC

your right i dont understnad your thoughts and how you feel .. but i want to try and understand as well as try to help the best i can .. i heart you! *hugs*
<3

chokkkingvictim August 10 2004, 20:33:50 UTC

im not trying to point out anyone in specific that doesnt understand. if they dont understand it isnt always their fault. it would actually be my fault because i didnt explain to them how i feel. maybe people will now that i do.

spirit_lizz August 10 2004, 21:22:29 UTC

:-*

spirit_lizz August 10 2004, 21:22:53 UTC

you can do it.. i know you can. i<3you!

kias August 11 2004, 05:53:17 UTC

aaron your not worthless...how could you even think those things, i know that we don't hang out that much but i love you and i understand you maybe not as much as you would like to think,

i mean we have our differences but i'm sorry if i make you feel like shit but hey i mean come on...i shared a spot on the lawnmower with you i care, just lately i've been thinking only about me i love you

just hang in there sweety

chokkkingvictim August 11 2004, 09:54:54 UTC

your right. im not worthless. no one is ever worthless. but its just that i just want something to happen in my life. the past couple months have been so fucking boring. i mean i know we hung out a couple times, dont get me wrong.. i definetaly had fun hanging out. but just other than that i never get to see you.

and its no one in specific that makes me feel like shit. you probably understand that sometimes people are in a really bad mood. i was when i wrote this. im a little better now. but for some reason i was in a bad mood.