Comments | chrisara: I Just Don't Know

chrisara

I Just Don't Know

Mar 24, 2010 07:26

I miss my mom and how she used to call me in the middle of the frigid night to get her a cup of ice. I used to think it terribly cruel that I had to go into her air-conditioned room, not that the house felt any different. Running tip-toed passed the harsh blows of the AC on my bare body, bare toes ( Read more... )

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aras_55555 March 24 2010, 23:26:36 UTC

I read through this, and it's hard to find something to say. Hopefully expressing yourself here on LJ helps a bit.

My own mom has incurable cancer, so I'll be dealing with a similar thing sooner or later. Right now she's in decent health, and getting treatment, but it's basically a matter of putting off the inevitable.

chrisara March 25 2010, 21:20:27 UTC

I'm really sorry to hear about your mom Aras. How are you dealing with the situation as it is now? How are you doing?

aras_55555 March 26 2010, 03:31:42 UTC

Um, I guess I'm doing okay. It's something that's been going on for a few years now, and so it stops being a crisis and is just something you deal with day-to-day. To be honest it's a bit hard to remember what it was like before this all started, or what I was like before.

One of the hardest things for me personally is probably that I can't really make any big changes with my life, like going off to live somewhere else for a change of pace. I never really decided 'what to do with my life', and I'm still kind of lost on that front.

chrisara March 26 2010, 23:04:04 UTC

I felt the same way and I felt that I couldn't really plan things for the future because I just didn't know where I was going to be, as far as my home and things like that. Didn't want to start something I probably couldn't or wouldn't be able to finish. And knowing what to do with my life, well, I guess we're both lost on that front. :(
I think you'd be a pretty good writer though. You seem to be well read I must say. =)

I have a hard time figuring out what to say... it's good that you're doing okay. I know it'll get harder eventually but I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

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oddishguy March 25 2010, 03:35:31 UTC

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I am here if you ever need someone to talk too.

chrisara March 25 2010, 21:24:20 UTC

Thanks Love :]