just to add... ex-chris has been sorting out his problems with me since he's been here- it's about time that i used his help of an outside perspective to sort through some things i'm confused about.
and I keep having dreams about Seattle Andrew, another last night. In them we never get along, no conversation possible. The dreams are entirely awkward.
i'd like to hear anyone's opinion on all of this, even if it's to tell me to get a grip. thank you.
one thing that i don't understand is "at least now i can tell him he's barking up the wrong tree". what tree is he barking up exactly, and why is it wrong? and in what manner does he bark up this tree, exactly? sounds like you need a new love interest because whatever you have going on here isn't doing you any good.
aie. i had to get up and pour myself a glass of wine.
actually, it's probably good chris moved in. but make sure he does the dishes and makes you dinner a couple times. seriously. tell him it's a new condition. tell him at 1am after you've slashed his tires (if he has a car/bike), so he'll be forced to accept (otherwise you'll kick him out right then), and he'll think you're a total psychopath, but he'll have a newfound respect for you, probably, because boys are stupid that way.
i worry about the andrew thing. when he said he was going to visit, did you respond with excitement? I'm just wondering if he's the type that can't handle a committment but can't handle you not being interested either. you know, the stringalong type. cause you're stupid that way. =) no offense. and you're probably a bit that way too. as in, maybe not really the guy for you, but he's not quite interested enough, which makes him so intriguing. which is normal enough. i have been guilty of that many times. but once the challenge is over, so is
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yes, i did respond with excitement, and i am stupid that way. he's been telling mutual friends that we are all going to meet up here in victoria for halloween again, like last year, and i've talked to these friends but not him. strange. i'm starting to realize how ridiculous it all is.
christa, i did the uneven parallel bars forever and i always had that dream too. i loved the bars. i felt like every time i would practice on them, that i would work something out inside of me. like i was actually growing as a person. it was such a good mental workout as well as physical. but alas, i don't do any gymnastics anymore and i don't know that i even care about it. well, that is unless there's a trampoline around. then i enjoy doing front flips. but yeah, something about those bars is amazing.
be with someone who pursues you, because you deserve to be romanced. it is not your responsibility to go after a guy. be with someone who has balls, christa; who can make a decision that he WANTS YOU above everyone else. you are to be cherished, because you are valuable. that is the truth.
I have never actually seen a set of uneven parallel bars in real life. I saw them once watching the olympics or something on tv and just was blown away, I guess. That's awesome that you actually used to be able to do that! Maybe you still could a bit, i guess you won't know till you come across it again.
And yes, being pursued is sure nice. I guess the reason why this has been bothering me for so long is because, looking back at our last encounter, he DID put himself out there, and I told him I didn't believe him.
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ex-chris has been sorting out his problems with me since he's been here- it's about time that i used his help of an outside perspective to sort through some things i'm confused about.
and I keep having dreams about Seattle Andrew, another last night. In them we never get along, no conversation possible. The dreams are entirely awkward.
i'd like to hear anyone's opinion on all of this, even if it's to tell me to get a grip. thank you.
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sounds like you need a new love interest because whatever you have going on here isn't doing you any good.
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i agree with you, absolutely, as far as new love interests go.
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i had to get up and pour myself a glass of wine.
actually, it's probably good chris moved in.
but make sure he does the dishes and makes you dinner a couple times. seriously. tell him it's a new condition. tell him at 1am after you've slashed his tires (if he has a car/bike), so he'll be forced to accept (otherwise you'll kick him out right then), and he'll think you're a total psychopath, but he'll have a newfound respect for you, probably, because boys are stupid that way.
i worry about the andrew thing. when he said he was going to visit, did you respond with excitement? I'm just wondering if he's the type that can't handle a committment but can't handle you not being interested either. you know, the stringalong type. cause you're stupid that way. =) no offense. and you're probably a bit that way too. as in, maybe not really the guy for you, but he's not quite interested enough, which makes him so intriguing. which is normal enough. i have been guilty of that many times. but once the challenge is over, so is ( ... )
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he's been telling mutual friends that we are all going to meet up here in victoria for halloween again, like last year, and i've talked to these friends but not him. strange. i'm starting to realize how ridiculous it all is.
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be with someone who pursues you, because you deserve to be romanced. it is not your responsibility to go after a guy. be with someone who has balls, christa; who can make a decision that he WANTS YOU above everyone else. you are to be cherished, because you are valuable. that is the truth.
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And yes, being pursued is sure nice. I guess the reason why this has been bothering me for so long is because, looking back at our last encounter, he DID put himself out there, and I told him I didn't believe him.
oi.
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