Comments | christiain: Hmmm

christiain

Hmmm

Oct 26, 2005 21:47

blew so I got back from New Jersey today. It was insane seeing Ali again. I cant believe my parents let me go vist a teenage girl whos mom works all day (parents divorced) by myself before ever meeting the parent or the kid... Very interesting. Anyway it was fun we were good kids. But im really here to just talk to myself ( Read more... )

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_lastxgoodbye October 26 2005, 22:37:54 UTC

We should talk, but I don't really get on AIM anymore. I've lost intrest until it's established in my room with my own computer. But people never mean no strings attached. Because once emotions have been hit, you'll always be attatched. Whether you like it or not.
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christiain October 27 2005, 04:29:48 UTC

Yeah but the problem is that im not feeling emotions anymore. Even when i was writing that I felt onl mild intrest I dont even know if I meant half the stuff I said I was angry about. The point I was trying to get across is im missing being able to miss things. Like you know when you wake up from a really good dream and you cant remember what its about and you dont feel particularly good but you remember it WAS good. Thats how I feel now.

_lastxgoodbye October 28 2005, 02:04:14 UTC

So technically, you miss being able to feel life actually happening. You miss experiencing it no matter what type of time it was because it gave you something. Something you forgot to hold onto and now you don't know if you can get it back.

christiain October 28 2005, 03:45:57 UTC

Sorta. I didnt forget to hold onto it. I think ive just slowly been letting it go. I mean. I think thats just part of it. I mean. Its hard to explain i guess or long and pointless ( ... )