It's been a really long time since normal.

I hate this shitty feeling I am left with that comes out of nowhere. I have no idea what happens half the time.

I used to write all the time. Don't know if it ever really helped me ( Read more... )

Today is a rare winter day for me. It snowed yesterday and everything is covered, looks like a winter wonderland. The sun is out too, which is a plus. Normally I hate winter. I hate the cold, the layers upon layers to wear, yet still feeling a chill. I hate not owning boots again this year. I also hate when the weather interferes with my plans. But ( Read more... )

OK! So I made a list at the start of the summer (see below)... let's see how many things I accomplished... shall we?????

"Things I want to do this summer, by Christiana (revised 5/24/09)

-see Coldplay live (my birthday gift from my guy)    I actually did this. The ex bought me another set of tickets after he took back the original set when we broke ( Read more... )

Holy snow ( Read more... )

It's almost the end of August. This summer has been the biggest fuckin' mess I've ever dealt with. In the end, everything I suffered through has been worth it. The end of my summer is the beginning of something better. I can honestly say I don't regret anything that happened, because I know it all happened how it was supposed to. I know I took some ( Read more... )

I roll the window down ( Read more... )

Oh no...

If you dig through the mix of pain, confusion, and bitterness... you would find this hole. This hole that has been left big and empty. Sometimes it's like one of those holes in a movie.. the kind in the middle of the woods with sticks and leaves over it, and then someone walks over the sticks and leaves and falls into the hole. Sometimes that place ( Read more... )