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I hate letting other peoples statements affect me.. .even if they aren't meant towards me directly. I don't want to feel shitty about myself because someone else is (nonintentionally) using the bad points of my life to compare to theirs to make themselves feel better about their own.
I need to learn to ignore these little things that so affect me.

I'm sitting here, in my mom's store.. .passing time... she's out with Dad doing last minute Christmas shopping so I'm taking her place as shopkeeper until 4. And then I am heading to Palmer to pick Nathan up at the bus stop so he can spend Christmas eve here... and then I'll be driving him back. Tomorrow is Christmas. I miss the magic of being a ( Read more... )

I've figured it out. Well, I've had it figured out. I just found a very simple and to the point way of summing it up;

I need a man who appreciates me as much as my friends do.
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Ha. So much fun tonight. :) I love Northampton and I love those guys...

...and some things never change.

In this moment...
Right now. In this moment... i feel used. I feel chewed up and spit out. I feel like I have been misunderstood and judged unfairly. I feel misused and resentful. I feel angry... irratated and frustrated. I feel like i have been taken for a ride, taken advantage of and not thought of sometimes at all.

This is how I am feeling in ( Read more... )

Exhaustion and my headache are kind of making me depressed... I feel too shitty to do anything. It's like all the stress I've been dealing with is taking it's toll...and I really want to be getting some Christmas projects done.... but I just feel like shit.

Gahhhh.

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I love the song Dig by Incubus. It's awesome. Well, there's really no point to this entry. I'm trying my best to not get consumed by thoughts and feelings... I know if I do then I will slip into that little world of mine that I've spent far to much time in so far. I want to stay HERE. I like it better... :) Well...tomorrow I go out with Tony...we' ( Read more... )