So I am still without a costume for Halloween. I am super busy this week and hopefully find time to find one. Joe decided to be a huge dick about the party and change it to Saturday. All of my friends took off for Sunday night to attend the party. F*ck Joe! The party is now at my house on Sunday ( Read more... )

Tuesday I went to the doctor about the depression that I have been living with. After a serious of questions about my anxiety, sleep patterns and self-esteem I was diagnosed with Cyclothymia. Its a milder from of bi-polar disorder. I don't experience and mania but I have depression for weeks at a time. The great ol doc put me on Zoloft. In all ( Read more... )

Today was another shitty day. I was depressed for the most part. I hate myself. I hate everything. I have this huge issue on my mind. Yet, I have no one to talk to. I got those flu symptoms from the shot. It sucks hardcore.

I went shopping the other day and bought two knew sweaters and a pair of jeans. Also tons of Clinique makeup. It made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Im so glad that shopping can fill that void inside of me. One of the sweaters is a pea green. There is something about it. I never were bright happy colors. Wearing it helped my mood. Anyways, I'll ( Read more... )

Between work, school, doctor appointments and other shit its been hectic. I am trying to meditate more but I am so damn lazy. I've been a little down because people who I thought were close to me don't ever call me. I have made a stance to never call them again. I don't want to be a hassle upon people. Well the first test week is over. I made a 99. ( Read more... )

I finally got my new computer!!! YAY!!! I hated using other people's computers. Plus, this one is the shit.

Its been awhile since i posted. I felt like getting some things off my chest ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a weird day. Lauren came over and cheered me up. She gives really great advice. She told me that i can't go back in time and say i meant to make a left there. So we went shopping. At wal-mart we did this little study to see how many men would stare at breast. It was rather funny. Two more days until katie is in town. I am so excited. ( Read more... )

MY BIRTHDAY IS ALMOST HERE!!! I can't wait until Friday... Katie is coming to visit. It's so exciting!!! I haven't seen her in forever. It will be great because we both will be sober. I know i haven't posted an entry in forever. I've been under a lot of stress. Lawyers and all that crap with my apt. people. I can't wait until that is off my ( Read more... )

MY BIRTHDAY IS ALMOST HERE!!! I can't wait until Friday... Katie is coming to visit. It's so exciting!!! I haven't seen her in forever. It will be great because we both will be sober. I know i haven't posted an entry in forever. I've been under a lot of stress. Lawyers and all that crap with my apt. people. I can't wait until that is off my ( Read more... )