Strange feelings

[christyfire]

I don't know what is wrong with me today. Since this morning I have been feeling like an episode is coming on. Strange thoughts have been running through my head. Unfortunately she is back and talking alot in my head. Telling me that this is all I have to look forward to and that I should just end it. I hate trying to ignore Alex it seems the

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[gently_falling]

i don't know you very well and i dont really know what your issues are. you dont have to explain though i think i can relate to what is happening though i dont want to dump a lot of psycho babble on you if that really isn't the case and maybe i can't relate though i think if i understood, is alex a psychical person... god that sounded weird im sorry im just trying to understand , i have a form of psychosis not that you have that but i hear things that really in all reality isn't there, fuck im sorry if my comment upsets you in any way it wasn't my inteniton im going to stop now and shut up
*hugs* thinking of you though
meg

[gently_falling]

Alex is the voice in my head it is part of my schizoaffective disorder. No need to worry you didn't upset me in any way. How are you doing these days, have you been staying clean?

[gently_falling]

i have been clean since wednesday so whats that, a couple days. im happy that i didn't upset you. that certainly wasn't the intention i just wanted to see if i could relate from personal experience etc. etc. the past week has been difficult since i have been sober having to deal with affects of my going back to drugs, fuck i didn't think it was that big of a deal you know. i was convinced that i could just to a couple pills well a couple turned into to overdosing just trying to keep myself together and in the process almost killing myself though im not sure that it wasn't a bad thigns i shouldve died. 150 mgs of ambien should kill you. though the withdrawl at the moment is awful my anxiety has been so bad and have panic attacks constantly i wish i had more pills since the meds im on don't completly numb me, i hope you are feeling a bit better by the time you get this comment your too sweet to have to feel shitty
love
meg

[christyfire]

I know it sounds cliche but after a while the urge wont be so bad. Oct 1st will be one year for me. It took me years thought to get off of the herion. I went to rehab 7 times. I can never do anything the easy way thats for sure. I hope things get better for you soon. Hang in there. I was wondering if you would like to talk to aim. My handle is christyfire73 if you are interested.
Blessed Be,
Christy

[ada_byron]

My god Christy I hope this doesn't turn out horribly...please call me tomorrow? I missed your call tonight and I called you back I think but you weren't home. :(

Please call.