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[chromatic_night]

Existence is so lovely isn't it? The air is crisp (with no humiditiy), the weather is beautiful and the birds are singing. And then you go to Relapse Prevention Group and get raped in the ass with a giant dildo. Thats exactly what happened last night (metaphorically speaking of course

Comments

[its_not_day]

hey i had to face some fucked up shit like that too, and it sucks so bad to not be able to run away from what youve done/who you are and i know 100% how you feel being at rehab and i'm totally here for you to talk to whenever, please call me :) i miss you dearly

[chromatic_night]

ya it sucks, but the more I work on it the better shit will be...yes and I do need to call you...but my parents changed my number (damn rehab advice) and so I do not have yours...you can email me chromaticnight@hotmail.com with you number...i miss you too! tonight it reminds me of boston (its cold and snowing) and everyone in it

[its_not_day]

and you DO have the strength and im so happy you know that :)

[onemoretoomany]

you are so strong.
i miss you insanely!

[chromatic_night]

one day...one day...this summer probably I will come home and we'll have a sober party! Or we can go eat Thai food like last time and share some juicy gossip...but I miss you too...and I hope everything is going well at home...but I'm sure it is because likewise you are a strong girl too

its nikki its been a while

[beloved_horror]

heyy matt, dont forget about me. im in a ressidental until im 18 (thats what it looks likes) sig shoved me back in these places. im almost 17. i hope your doing well, i can sneak on LJ now and again. ttyl

Beware of the others issue

[birthemusen]

Beware that you don't take on all others issues. What is your real problem?

Allowing yourself to accept what you are and live by it. You shouldn't be stuck in Idaho. You should seek out San Francisco and find a relationship there.

I think based on your previous entries that you should get on with your life and become independent of your parents, who are somehow judgmental. You don't need drugs and you are of course unlucky to live in a country with an all too high age limit on alcohol purchase (Here it is 16 years and every single responsible parent allows their kids to drink alcohol in their presence once they are confirmed aged 14 or 15).

You have to ask yourself why do you need to down your problems with something when you are a basically OK guy, who shouldn't bother even thinking about what people have of opinions about you.

Become independent and start a new life away from parents and your old neighborhood where you are in control and setting the standards.