just a little update.

[chubanychink]

not sleeping at home is strangely nice. not being around my parents is also kinda nice. i'm sure that if either situation took place for too long i'd miss it.. but as of now.. it's just so damn... nice

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[seeds_of_peace]

I give good massages :)

[chubanychink]

nuh-uh. prove it! haha

[anonymous]

Inside I think you still want to give him another chance. Your just scared that your heart will get broken again. Maybe he won't break it this time. Maybe he has found peace with himself, the part of him that he was fighting so hard with the first time that caused him to push you away. Maybe that guy you saw in him that made you say yes the first time you can see once again if you just open you eyes. He's there, you just have to let yourself see. Give him a chance to prove himself. Don't get attached, just watch from a distance. Maybe go to his work and just pop in or where ever he is. Go out with him and pay close attintion to his actions and how he reacts to somethings you do. I think you'll see that he is truely different. You'll see that he is truely changed but yet, is still that guy you fell for in the begining.....With time.....

[chubanychink]

no, i dont think i do. i put too much time and effort and work into us for the first year. i dont want to "pop" up or investigate his actions or whatever you want to call it. it's too much work on MY part. he never worked too hard on us, why should i ever again? i think it's time for someone else to have a chance.

i'll figure things out. i'm a smart girl :)