they can't make you laugh, no they can't make you feel the way that i do

[chuckstaton]

how much shit do I have to walk through before it's okay for me to say "I'm done

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[bedtime_killers]

Chuckles I know the dead end seems like the easiest route to take. You are such a strong person, strong willed, strong minded, strong in general. I respect the person behind those sunglasses I always see you wearing because you show your face in any crowd no matter how bad the day or how shitty the circumstance. You've scraped the bottom of the barrel and no just how bitter it tastes. We've all had our down and outs and we all work them out differently but you always stay heads up even if only a little at a time. Others can run scared at the slightest cloud cover but I know that when days get grey I can always turn to see you fighting for sunlight. Don't give up just yet, you still have such a long way to go ya know. Giving up doesn't mean the problems or the mishaps or the disasters will just go away either, it just means they will only pile up outside your door till you feel ready to face them again

fall on your knees

[chuckstaton]

i appreciate it you know.
people forget that sometimes, i think. but i do appreciate it.
right now i'm just concentrating on the unimportant, because when i think about the things that truly matter, THAT is when I break down. my life now revolves around the fleeting and the meaningless. my social calendar is marked off day-by-day with the most useless distractions that could ever be.
it's just so weak. I HAVE to focus on distractions to stop myself from going insane.
last night was a cartoonishly ridiculous evening. i have a hangover right now and my wrist is broken for some reason. it was a fun night.
but it's not me.
a night like that is fine for Chuck Staton once in while.
but right now a night like that is what i look forward to the most, when what i used to look forward to most was a bed whose warmth was only matched by the lover inside it.
thats the problem....my whole life is based on distracting myself from what i care most about.
what is that?
not much of a life at all.

[neonconfetti]

hi chuck. this is allie.
i know i don't know you that well
& i'm not going to feed lines telling you that tomorrow will be better
or anything like that. but i just want you to know i am here
if you want to bitch or complain or talk to.
my ears are always open for you
without judgement.
you are a good person
& you deserve to be happy.
or happier. to say the least.
chin up.

[chuckstaton]

i appreciate that. and believe me - i NEVER get tired of bitching!
another ear is always welcome:)