Yes I'm gay, but only for you :)
Title: Yes I'm gay but only for you :)
Pairing: 2min/onkey
Genre: fluff, romance, comedy
Rating: PG-13
SHINee's apartment
7:30 pm
[Minho's POV]
I saw an angel, of that I'm sure.
The angelic face smiled at me with sparkling eyes, pink-ish cheeks and tender looking lips.
This person proved that beauty was so much more than the word itself.
Beautiful would be an understatement if you were to describe this figure in front of me.
This person is a product of perfection...
...and knowing that fact made me breathless.
Gazing at someone so God-like, I didn't even realize my need for air that moment.
I was in heaven, it felt like heaven... and I don't mind if I die while staring at this person's face, I would die happy if that's the case.
Sometimes I wonder why God gave me someone so distracting in my life. Is this to confuse me of what I really am?
If that's true then God must be so good at psychological games, because seriously, this person got me wondering almost everyday
Am I a man?
You see, I am competitive, I love sports and I'm damn good at it. I check out girls and I had relationships before, I do man stuffs but this person can confuse me sometimes.
No matter how hard I try, I can't shake the fact that I do like him. I even got to the point where I wanted him to call me 'oppa' not 'hyung'.
Damn, I must really really like him :D
Yes, you're not drunk and nothing's wrong with your eyes. You read it right.
It is a him.
I am a man and I like a 'him'.
I Choi Minho likes Lee Taemin... and I'm afraid, very afraid that if I don't stop my feelings now it would develop into something deeper, something more complicated.
but I can't make myself stop, not now. Not when he's looking at me like that.
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"Hyung! Hyung! Key umma did it again! He dressed me up as a girl again!" Taemin complained but he made it sound lovely to my ears.
He pouted his lips and crossed his arms, obviously irritated by the dress he's wearing.
It was a pink dress which fitted his body perfectly, exposing those long, flawless arms and legs. Very girl-ish for a growing boy like him.
"Awww stop complaining, you look cute,what do you think Minho?" Key winked at me
Aisssh, why do you have to ask me? I might freak him out if I tell the truth because Goddamnit! He's so alluring.
"He looks... girl-ish" I answered hoping it would be enough to cover what i truly think
I was unsure of those words, it's really hard to compliment him without freaking him out.
I'm always like this, I always hold back and limit myself when It comes to him.
How I wish I could tell him how attractive he is right now. How I wish I could flatter him and make him blush but...no.
Hell no.
I wouldn't do that. I'm his hyung right?
Brothers don't flatter each other, I would sound gay if I do that, and believe me, this four guys would go nuts if they find out about my secret.
Upon saying those words, Taemin walked away looking aggravated. I can see his reaction, that cute pout still remained on his face but now it was mixed with discontentment.
What did I do wrong? Is there something wrong about girl-ish?
"You know for a judge, you're really lame" Key spoke to me in a blaming tone. He then followed Taemin who headed for his room, our room by the way.
Yes, we share the same room and to add up to the tension, 'we' includes me and him.
Lee Taemin and Choi Minho sharing one room, isn't it great? T.T
Key decided to give Taemin a separate room because he needed a conducive place for studying, and since I'm a quiet person, I was the only one allowed to share the room with him. Key said I'm the only person who can't disturb his son.
Dang if only he knew how much psychological torture he caused me.
I've been living every night restraining myself from crazy thoughts and inappropriate acts. God knows how much patience I have mustered from sharing a room with him.
Good thing I have plenty of books to read at night, but it's never enough to distract me.
"Yah! Jinki! What is it all about? What happened to maknae? :o" I asked Jinki hoping for answers
"Well, hmmm. How do I say this...uhh maybe Tamin wanted to hear something different from you" Jinki was having a hard time explaining and dang I was also having a hard time understanding him =.='
"What do you mean?"I gave him a confused look
"Uhh maybe he wanted to hear you say that...he's pretty?"
WTH?? I mean, yes he is pretty but... wouldn't I scare him off if I say that? :o
"Why would I say that? Why would he want to hear that in the first place?" Now I gave him a more confused look, cause seriously he's not making sense
"Go figure out yourself!" Jinki tapped my shoulder. After that her headed for the kitchen maybe to check the kimchi Key was cooking a while ago
Sometimes, I really don't get it why Jinki would always help Key in cooking. When I first met Jinki, he said he hates cooking, but then observing him in the kitchen with Key, I can't help but doubt his words.
He looks like he's really enjoying Key's company, in fact he's with Key all the time. Wether it's shopping for our food or simply watching TV, Jinki would always stick with Key.
They're inseparable like that, and sometimes I really get suspicious of their relationship.
It's like there's something more in them, something way beyond brotherhood.
Hmmm is that even possible? :o
Urghh, whatever, now is not the time to solve the mystery between those two, I have much bigger things in my hand for me to solve.
I should figure out first what the hell happened to Taemin, cause maybe...just maybe, he has a thing for me too.
I headed to our room but then Key closed the door just before I could step inside. He almost slapped the door in my face, it was inches away from my nose. Damn, that was close!
"Key open the door! We need to talk!" I shouted loud enough for him to hear inside
"Yah tone down your voice! I am watching a good movie here!'' Jonghyun who was almost drooling in front of the laptop complained
"Go watch porn in the CR you maniac!" I retorted, he glared at me obviously pissed for revealing what he was so busy about
Before I could react, Key opened the door and grabbed me. He lead me outside our apartment and into the hallway.
"Key, where are you going?" Jinki asked just before he could step outside the main door
"I'll have a little talk with Minho, watch the food I'll be back" He replied with a smile
Dang it, this two lovebirds. T.T
"What?" I asked him
"What what?" He crossed his arms
"What was that all about? Why is maknae like that?" Now I was really into it, I really want to know and I'm making Key spill the beans
"Stop calling him maknae, he has a name, it's Taemin" He was trying to change the topic but I'm not falling for it, I really wouldn't let this go
When Choi Minho wants something, he gets it...but Taemin was the only exemption to that.
I can't have him, even if I die from liking him I still can't have him, not now or ever.
"Okay! Now tell me why is Taemin acting like that?"
"Can't you figure out yourself? Are you blind? Is that numb?" Key poked my chest, he was talking to my heart as numb.
What the hell!
Now I'm more than confused, my mind was in chaos. What was that suppose to mean? What should I figure out?
Gaaaah, my mind is too worked up to read between the lines. I hate this. I hate guessing games. Why can't he just spill it and tell it to me straight?
This is so frustrating.
I'm sure I can handle whatever secret he's hiding anyway.
"Key, tell me. What do I need to know? I was serious, and I know he can sense it too
Silence dominated the hall way. We were just staring, plainly staring at each other. I was waiting for him to speak, but his eyes were hesitant.
Dang, so much for suspense, I am totally hanging on the edge right now. I can die from the long wait.
"Taemin...he likes you" He was almost inaudible, but what the hell I heard it loud and clear
TAEMIN LIKES ME? Is this some kind of joke or what?
But..he wouldn't lie to his umma right? But... but.. seriously? O.o
I stood there startled and caught off guard.
The words took so much time to process in my brain.
I wanted to believe Key, but then I want to hear him say it, so without wasting seconds, I entered the apartment and then headed to our room.
He needs to know my feelings too, that I like him too. I just can't hide it anymore, definitely not now, not when I know he feels the same way.
It now or never, and I would gladly risk a second rather than regretting an eternity without letting him know.
With all the courage I have gathered, I entered the room and then locked the door.
This conversation would be between us and us alone.
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Inside our room I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed with his head bowed down. He was now dressed in ordinary clothes but that doesn't make him less attractive.
He can never be less, he's always something more.
"Taemin" I called him using my smooth calm voice
He looked up at me... I can see tears falling from his eyes.
Gawd, he's lovely even when he's crying, his crystal clear tears also added to his loveliness that moment.
Now I do believe that angels cry.
I went near him. I loathed seeing him cry. Was he crying over the stupid words I said a while ago? Dang if he only knew how I wanted to praise him like he's the God of my world, because seriously he deserves to be praised like that.
I cupped his face with my hands and wiped his precious tears using my thumb, I was more like caressing his face though, but I can't help it, his soft skin was irresistible.
"Don't cry, I didn't mean what I said a while ago, you're lovely Taemin, no words can fully describe how lovely you are" I gave him a sweet smile, hoping it would make him stop crying
But to my surprise, he cried harder. Tears were continuously flowing from his eyes and it wouldn't stop.
"Why are you crying Taemin?" I asked in worry
"Because, because... you're o-nly saying that because you're s-sorry and you w-want to make m-me feel b-better. Hyung, you don't h-have try s-so hard. This is n-nothing" He was shaking. His nose was red from crying but I find it cute though :)
Dang, he's such a cute innocent kid :)
"I mean it, I mean everything I said. Believe me when I say you're beautiful Taemin and I don't care If I'm gay or not or whatever I am right now, I don't care. I just want you to believe me when I say I like you, because I really do" I confessed right then and there
I chose to let go of the feelings I have locked up inside my heart for God knows how long. I managed to tell him what I really feel, I said it and whatever happens, I will not regret, ever.
"Y-you l-like me?" He stuttered, it was cute ;)
"Yes, Taemin, Choi Minho likes you" I re-assured him, giving him the sweet smile again.
He slowly stood up, leaving our face dangerously close to each other, we were inches apart.
He somehow stopped crying but I can still see his watery eyes up-close.
"You like me for real?" He blinked his eyes like he was dreaming or something
"Do you want me to repeat it again? or should I just prove it?"
Proving = skinship
After a split second, he jumped into me and hugged me, resting his head on my chest.
Yes it felt...heaven. Being able to touch him, hug him and hold him like this was pure heaven.
...and I don't care about the earth, I want to be with him, in heaven, forever.
"Now tell me you like me too. Tell me you like me as much as I like you" I murmured resting my chin on his head while running my fingers on his soft, silky hair.
It took minutes before I heard his answer, it was worth the wait though, he told me the exact words which could make me happy.
"I like you too Minho, I like you so much I think I'm having a heart attack" His voice was melody to my ears, I felt contentment upon hearing him say that.
"Don't die on me right now, not now, not ever" I chuckled
Now I'm sure he felt the same way too and God I can't really describe how happy I am right now.
If there's a word way beyond happiness then that would be the perfect word to describe what I'm feeling right now.
I am seriously floating on cloud 9 and this smile won't leave my face.
I was having the best time of my life, I hugged him tighter kissing his head as a sign of gratefulness.
I had to thank him for liking me ;)
He pulled away from our hug and gave me the sweetest smile I have ever seen in my whole 18 years of existence.
His cheeks were pink and his eyes were stunning.
I felt weak.
Oh god, don't smile at me like that.
You make me want to kiss you...badly.
Pairing: 2min/onkey
Genre: fluff, romance, comedy
Rating: PG-13
SHINee's apartment
7:30 pm
[Minho's POV]
I saw an angel, of that I'm sure.
The angelic face smiled at me with sparkling eyes, pink-ish cheeks and tender looking lips.
This person proved that beauty was so much more than the word itself.
Beautiful would be an understatement if you were to describe this figure in front of me.
This person is a product of perfection...
...and knowing that fact made me breathless.
Gazing at someone so God-like, I didn't even realize my need for air that moment.
I was in heaven, it felt like heaven... and I don't mind if I die while staring at this person's face, I would die happy if that's the case.
Sometimes I wonder why God gave me someone so distracting in my life. Is this to confuse me of what I really am?
If that's true then God must be so good at psychological games, because seriously, this person got me wondering almost everyday
Am I a man?
You see, I am competitive, I love sports and I'm damn good at it. I check out girls and I had relationships before, I do man stuffs but this person can confuse me sometimes.
No matter how hard I try, I can't shake the fact that I do like him. I even got to the point where I wanted him to call me 'oppa' not 'hyung'.
Damn, I must really really like him :D
Yes, you're not drunk and nothing's wrong with your eyes. You read it right.
It is a him.
I am a man and I like a 'him'.
I Choi Minho likes Lee Taemin... and I'm afraid, very afraid that if I don't stop my feelings now it would develop into something deeper, something more complicated.
but I can't make myself stop, not now. Not when he's looking at me like that.
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"Hyung! Hyung! Key umma did it again! He dressed me up as a girl again!" Taemin complained but he made it sound lovely to my ears.
He pouted his lips and crossed his arms, obviously irritated by the dress he's wearing.
It was a pink dress which fitted his body perfectly, exposing those long, flawless arms and legs. Very girl-ish for a growing boy like him.
"Awww stop complaining, you look cute,what do you think Minho?" Key winked at me
Aisssh, why do you have to ask me? I might freak him out if I tell the truth because Goddamnit! He's so alluring.
"He looks... girl-ish" I answered hoping it would be enough to cover what i truly think
I was unsure of those words, it's really hard to compliment him without freaking him out.
I'm always like this, I always hold back and limit myself when It comes to him.
How I wish I could tell him how attractive he is right now. How I wish I could flatter him and make him blush but...no.
Hell no.
I wouldn't do that. I'm his hyung right?
Brothers don't flatter each other, I would sound gay if I do that, and believe me, this four guys would go nuts if they find out about my secret.
Upon saying those words, Taemin walked away looking aggravated. I can see his reaction, that cute pout still remained on his face but now it was mixed with discontentment.
What did I do wrong? Is there something wrong about girl-ish?
"You know for a judge, you're really lame" Key spoke to me in a blaming tone. He then followed Taemin who headed for his room, our room by the way.
Yes, we share the same room and to add up to the tension, 'we' includes me and him.
Lee Taemin and Choi Minho sharing one room, isn't it great? T.T
Key decided to give Taemin a separate room because he needed a conducive place for studying, and since I'm a quiet person, I was the only one allowed to share the room with him. Key said I'm the only person who can't disturb his son.
Dang if only he knew how much psychological torture he caused me.
I've been living every night restraining myself from crazy thoughts and inappropriate acts. God knows how much patience I have mustered from sharing a room with him.
Good thing I have plenty of books to read at night, but it's never enough to distract me.
"Yah! Jinki! What is it all about? What happened to maknae? :o" I asked Jinki hoping for answers
"Well, hmmm. How do I say this...uhh maybe Tamin wanted to hear something different from you" Jinki was having a hard time explaining and dang I was also having a hard time understanding him =.='
"What do you mean?"I gave him a confused look
"Uhh maybe he wanted to hear you say that...he's pretty?"
WTH?? I mean, yes he is pretty but... wouldn't I scare him off if I say that? :o
"Why would I say that? Why would he want to hear that in the first place?" Now I gave him a more confused look, cause seriously he's not making sense
"Go figure out yourself!" Jinki tapped my shoulder. After that her headed for the kitchen maybe to check the kimchi Key was cooking a while ago
Sometimes, I really don't get it why Jinki would always help Key in cooking. When I first met Jinki, he said he hates cooking, but then observing him in the kitchen with Key, I can't help but doubt his words.
He looks like he's really enjoying Key's company, in fact he's with Key all the time. Wether it's shopping for our food or simply watching TV, Jinki would always stick with Key.
They're inseparable like that, and sometimes I really get suspicious of their relationship.
It's like there's something more in them, something way beyond brotherhood.
Hmmm is that even possible? :o
Urghh, whatever, now is not the time to solve the mystery between those two, I have much bigger things in my hand for me to solve.
I should figure out first what the hell happened to Taemin, cause maybe...just maybe, he has a thing for me too.
I headed to our room but then Key closed the door just before I could step inside. He almost slapped the door in my face, it was inches away from my nose. Damn, that was close!
"Key open the door! We need to talk!" I shouted loud enough for him to hear inside
"Yah tone down your voice! I am watching a good movie here!'' Jonghyun who was almost drooling in front of the laptop complained
"Go watch porn in the CR you maniac!" I retorted, he glared at me obviously pissed for revealing what he was so busy about
Before I could react, Key opened the door and grabbed me. He lead me outside our apartment and into the hallway.
"Key, where are you going?" Jinki asked just before he could step outside the main door
"I'll have a little talk with Minho, watch the food I'll be back" He replied with a smile
Dang it, this two lovebirds. T.T
"What?" I asked him
"What what?" He crossed his arms
"What was that all about? Why is maknae like that?" Now I was really into it, I really want to know and I'm making Key spill the beans
"Stop calling him maknae, he has a name, it's Taemin" He was trying to change the topic but I'm not falling for it, I really wouldn't let this go
When Choi Minho wants something, he gets it...but Taemin was the only exemption to that.
I can't have him, even if I die from liking him I still can't have him, not now or ever.
"Okay! Now tell me why is Taemin acting like that?"
"Can't you figure out yourself? Are you blind? Is that numb?" Key poked my chest, he was talking to my heart as numb.
What the hell!
Now I'm more than confused, my mind was in chaos. What was that suppose to mean? What should I figure out?
Gaaaah, my mind is too worked up to read between the lines. I hate this. I hate guessing games. Why can't he just spill it and tell it to me straight?
This is so frustrating.
I'm sure I can handle whatever secret he's hiding anyway.
"Key, tell me. What do I need to know? I was serious, and I know he can sense it too
Silence dominated the hall way. We were just staring, plainly staring at each other. I was waiting for him to speak, but his eyes were hesitant.
Dang, so much for suspense, I am totally hanging on the edge right now. I can die from the long wait.
"Taemin...he likes you" He was almost inaudible, but what the hell I heard it loud and clear
TAEMIN LIKES ME? Is this some kind of joke or what?
But..he wouldn't lie to his umma right? But... but.. seriously? O.o
I stood there startled and caught off guard.
The words took so much time to process in my brain.
I wanted to believe Key, but then I want to hear him say it, so without wasting seconds, I entered the apartment and then headed to our room.
He needs to know my feelings too, that I like him too. I just can't hide it anymore, definitely not now, not when I know he feels the same way.
It now or never, and I would gladly risk a second rather than regretting an eternity without letting him know.
With all the courage I have gathered, I entered the room and then locked the door.
This conversation would be between us and us alone.
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Inside our room I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed with his head bowed down. He was now dressed in ordinary clothes but that doesn't make him less attractive.
He can never be less, he's always something more.
"Taemin" I called him using my smooth calm voice
He looked up at me... I can see tears falling from his eyes.
Gawd, he's lovely even when he's crying, his crystal clear tears also added to his loveliness that moment.
Now I do believe that angels cry.
I went near him. I loathed seeing him cry. Was he crying over the stupid words I said a while ago? Dang if he only knew how I wanted to praise him like he's the God of my world, because seriously he deserves to be praised like that.
I cupped his face with my hands and wiped his precious tears using my thumb, I was more like caressing his face though, but I can't help it, his soft skin was irresistible.
"Don't cry, I didn't mean what I said a while ago, you're lovely Taemin, no words can fully describe how lovely you are" I gave him a sweet smile, hoping it would make him stop crying
But to my surprise, he cried harder. Tears were continuously flowing from his eyes and it wouldn't stop.
"Why are you crying Taemin?" I asked in worry
"Because, because... you're o-nly saying that because you're s-sorry and you w-want to make m-me feel b-better. Hyung, you don't h-have try s-so hard. This is n-nothing" He was shaking. His nose was red from crying but I find it cute though :)
Dang, he's such a cute innocent kid :)
"I mean it, I mean everything I said. Believe me when I say you're beautiful Taemin and I don't care If I'm gay or not or whatever I am right now, I don't care. I just want you to believe me when I say I like you, because I really do" I confessed right then and there
I chose to let go of the feelings I have locked up inside my heart for God knows how long. I managed to tell him what I really feel, I said it and whatever happens, I will not regret, ever.
"Y-you l-like me?" He stuttered, it was cute ;)
"Yes, Taemin, Choi Minho likes you" I re-assured him, giving him the sweet smile again.
He slowly stood up, leaving our face dangerously close to each other, we were inches apart.
He somehow stopped crying but I can still see his watery eyes up-close.
"You like me for real?" He blinked his eyes like he was dreaming or something
"Do you want me to repeat it again? or should I just prove it?"
Proving = skinship
After a split second, he jumped into me and hugged me, resting his head on my chest.
Yes it felt...heaven. Being able to touch him, hug him and hold him like this was pure heaven.
...and I don't care about the earth, I want to be with him, in heaven, forever.
"Now tell me you like me too. Tell me you like me as much as I like you" I murmured resting my chin on his head while running my fingers on his soft, silky hair.
It took minutes before I heard his answer, it was worth the wait though, he told me the exact words which could make me happy.
"I like you too Minho, I like you so much I think I'm having a heart attack" His voice was melody to my ears, I felt contentment upon hearing him say that.
"Don't die on me right now, not now, not ever" I chuckled
Now I'm sure he felt the same way too and God I can't really describe how happy I am right now.
If there's a word way beyond happiness then that would be the perfect word to describe what I'm feeling right now.
I am seriously floating on cloud 9 and this smile won't leave my face.
I was having the best time of my life, I hugged him tighter kissing his head as a sign of gratefulness.
I had to thank him for liking me ;)
He pulled away from our hug and gave me the sweetest smile I have ever seen in my whole 18 years of existence.
His cheeks were pink and his eyes were stunning.
I felt weak.
Oh god, don't smile at me like that.
You make me want to kiss you...badly.