Deary me, is that the time? I'm late for my LJ post!

[chunkyy]

[I wrote this on the train on the way to Sydney last Friday night. It sounds more depressing than I intended, but I still want to post it, as the sentiment continues to ring true in my mind. Consider this a little "talking out loud

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[fiery_ichor]

I like the reflective Chunky just as much as the happy-go-lucky one :) *hugs*

[chunkyy]

Haha, thank you :).

[magenta_babylon]

Actually you'd probably be surprised by how many people feel the same way that you do, if you asked them. I keep guilting lately that I rarely socialise, and when I do I either feel sick and don't stay anywhere near long enough or I get so excited that the night flies by in five seconds :P Since last november I've been buried in this Emerald Arts thing, making toys, origami, painting... luckily Ten doesn't get bored of me and drags me away from the easel sometimes.

So hard to strike a balance in life, but its not going to be this way forever, eventually (hopefully) you anc Vanessa will live in the same place which will make things a lot easier.

[chunkyy]

It's not just the social thing, it's also my inertia that is getting to me I guess. I think that if I was doing something really creative and constructive like Emerald Arts, I wouldn't feel so meh about it all.

By the way, it sounds like you are really kicking some butt with Emerald Arts. Congratulations! I hope it continues to go well for you!

[magenta_babylon]

Feel free to come around anytime and play with my paints or whatever if you feel like being creative :)

Quite right though, I was in a seriously bad place before I started EA. Hated my job, hated being so tired after work I could do nothing but watch TV.

[magenta_babylon]

Also, don't ever feel bad about writing this kind of stuff. From a purely literary perspective, its harder, but its so interesting to read something that isn't all bubbles. You have to have dark moments in life to appreciate the light. That may sound a little wanky, but hopefully you know what I mean.

[chunkyy]

I learned long ago (mainly from observing other people's aimless misery) that we simply are not designed to be happy all the time. I think that realising that can be a big help. But thanks for reminding me.

Hrm, that's two comments that imply that my writing reads nicely I'm miserable. Is there a trend here?

[magenta_babylon]

haha not miserable, just introspective.

Quite aside, I was reading an article about microboredom. The minutes that we used to spend thinking while we were waiting for a bus or appointment or whatever, we now spend fiddling with our phones or playing a games console. It theorised that because we're always doing something these days, cos we have so much technology, we never really sit still and have a good think. Which means we don't examine ourselves, our beliefs, we don't think about why we do or belive in something, bit sad to think of really.

Maybe we should have thinking time each day, or go for more long train trips ;)