its fathers day

[chvy_bab_alwys]

n i had a terrible night last night n i didnt sleep hardly @ all. things with johnny are absolutely awful n it hurts me alot remembering the way we were n comparing it 2 what ever the heck we r now. i dun think he really understands how much i hurt like i mean i dont believe he does bc if he did i dont believe he could keep doing it yeah know? i

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aww babe!

[belistik_chik22]

girlie i knw exactly how u feel..u knw..lol...well the only advice i can giv u is to leav it alone..leav him...i knw it felt lik it would last foreva but look where that got me...cheatd on 5 times b/c i was too stupid to realize n w/ a hope for a new day b/c i let go...evryday is sooo great b/c i dont hav him in my life nemore...i wish u understood n could let go b/c we both knw he's just draggin u down n i lov u, all ur friends do n the reason u wont let go is the same reason ricky wont let go of kristen..b/c u dont want to lose that feeling n b/c u'v lived w/ it for sooo long u dont knw wat ur gonna do w/o it. well look at me...look how much better i am..sure i miss him evry so often but that's b/c he was my first lov n ur gonna miss johnny just lik ricky's gonna miss kristen but u need to let go. i knw u say our relationship's r completely diff but they rnt...mine just went more down hill than urs has so far..u need to let go n mov on n i knw that's hard to hear but believe me..would i steer u in a wrong direction...(thinkin)....i