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Oct 24, 2008 18:30

There is a part of me that isn't human. A part of me that aches to "go home." To wherever my soul comes from. I have never felt like a person. I've never really felt like I belonged on Earth. This makes me wonder if that part of me that isn't human had a purpose on the plane that I'm no longer on, like my soul wants to go back to work. But I'm here ( Read more... )

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veronique_k October 27 2008, 21:12:47 UTC

May I ask what the decision was?

No matter what it was, you explained it perfectly. I love your natural poetry.

cicada_scribble October 28 2008, 05:51:47 UTC

Well first off, thank you. I can't tell you how happy it makes me to hear that I am naturally poetic. That makes me feel as though my writing is worth something, I always wanted to be naturally good at something. So thank you a great deal.
The decision...hm. Well I'll put it in simple terms; you haven't met him but I decided to "mess around" with a guy I know but do not have feelings for. It was a manifestation of irritation and impatience and curiosity. But it ended badly and now I feel ashamed and dirty. I'm not proud of it, and I wish it would just go away but because he's friends with my friends I can't just tell him to not come over. He's planning on bringing a girl he likes over tomorrow, a girl from class. I plan to be out of the house because even with her and Toby I will still feel this horrid awkwardness that I hate so much. So I'll just remove myself from the situation altogether.
On the plus side, I'm writing a novel.

veronique_k October 28 2008, 13:12:09 UTC

I can understand you wanting to leave altogether, and I think it's a good idea. It's unfortunate that the awkwardness was created in the first place, but it's obvious that you have made a decision and quickly reaped its lesson/wisdom. Best of luck on that front.

And best of luck with your novel. I am excited! I hope I am given special access (aka pre-reads) like before. ;)

cicada_scribble October 29 2008, 06:34:31 UTC

Of course!
And if you're interested; the awkwardness has been taken care of. We had a talk today and figured it out, got some stuff aired out and now it's much better and I'm happy again.