this is about the closest thing to a "blog" as i'll ever have. i just feel like writing. so sue me. anyways, waking up from last night makes me feel confused. call it a hangover but i didn't even drink that much, it's just the state of everythingtoday is enough to drive a person crazy, there is nothing to do and nowhere to go, so most people ( Read more... )

todd's party last night was pretty cool. i haven't gone out much lately, i have been losing my mind. i feel like i am finally at peace but i still feel lost so i don't really know. i was really depressed all day at work and that may interefere with me doing a good job but i really just don't know anymore. which is sort of weird. i feel like i ( Read more... )

today i was really angry. i thought my brother had taken money out of my bank account. turns out i had more money than i thought i did. awesome! now i only need to save about twice as much as i already have to get back into school in the fall. then who knows what? this making money thing is a bitch. I also played frisbee golf and hung out on ( Read more... )

i have too much energy and nothing to do. i also have to go to my last class at 9, work at 2, sleep...... i can't fall asleep in the class or i won't get credit for it... i should sleep now.

damn you brady. not really, but i have been looking for records and shit on ebay lately. i want a really good record collection. i am looking at two mars volta lps right now, some dead kennedys, and i have a bootsy collins record that should be coming anyday now. i need to save money though. i raelly need some headphones. i have yet to start ( Read more... )

the classes just made me feel like all this class shit is karma catching up to me. i walked down the stairs which lead to the back of the medical facility and opened the door for a girl and her mother. then i smoked a cigarette butt out of the ash tray and stared up at the moon. crescent moons make me a sad panda.

i would be really fucking good at it.

that is how much money i've made working the last two weeks. 23 hours both weeks. i have to pay 175 for the classes and 95 to finish off what i have to pay to my probation officer. i busted my ass for this money and i can't even enjoy it. my pay stub says i have made 800 dollars this year. i have no clue where it is all going. i don't do shit ( Read more... )

this time last year i was asleep probably. i slept so much. it was great. hard to believe it is already 2006. everything feels like it is coming together.

so i scheduled my alcohol abuse classes. weeeeeeeeeeeee for wasting money. i love how part of my probation is to work faithfully. so i am free to work. yay! i am tryingg to quit cigarettes again because i read in the emperor wears no clothes that by law farmers are required to grow their tobacco in radioactive soil. yay for cancer and ( Read more... )