,laying on the floor wishing this could last but knowing that it cant and soon you will leave and i will be on the floor watching the tv trying hard to find a reason to move im frozen in one place staring at the screen listening to the rain falling on the street some days go on too long and no one can hang out tonight here where the carpet is cold ( Read more... )

thursday-sunday i spent with erin we went to a show, toco cabana made some pimp easter eggs, drank .. rootbeer floots, threw the ugly eggs into the pool haha that shit was funny ...and i talked to andy I'm sure yall all know how that went (hes to perfect).. but now my weekends over and its hard to be home.. but whatever

i feel like shit again today .. and my mom told me to stay home because she didnt get any sleep last night either.. i really really really need to go to school.. but it doesnt look like I'm going

I have not been able to sleep in forever people say its going to easy well shit when? i wake up crying and feeling sick because of the dreams  i have of my dad i cant stop thinking about everything hes going to miss and it makes me sick to my stomach .. i just wish he never got sick ..

so my internet on MY computer stoped working so now I'm on my brothers we have to get a new cable or some shit like that gay gay gay gay gay ... well ill probably get on AIM with my dads computer till I get it fixed witch should be soon

I need to party... i cant wait till this weekend i hate school and me and erbear are hanging out shes the best and thursdays her mommys b-day!! I LOVE HER MOM TOO!!! I cant wait to see them!

okay so friday i went to friday school it was gay i got in trouble but me alyssa wrote notes about how horny we were? haha
so I got home and well.. the internet didnt work haha it was gay my brother was about to die i swear
then he called me.. and it was great and i mean great because hes great! my weekend was the best i got new panties and ( Read more... )

i want to mean something to someone for once

p.s andy has a big penis (no joke)

  I like how if you really cared about me you would understand and not be so fucking immature   today it felt good out side I love pretty days I love death cab for cutie I love ____ ( the person that goes in the blank knows who he is)

I'm not pretty
I'm not smart
I'm not worth it
I fuck up everything in my life