okay so something really good happends..   then i fuck it up   why do i always do that   why cant i just believe him   I'm so sorry

      lets get dirty ( thats for all my lovers)                    

god don't you love it when stupid little faggots talk shit to you on live journal then say they didnt say it..:)

i can miss this whole week and it wont count aginst me so yeah im not so stressed out about school but its hard some people dont know how hard it is to go to school right now... blah blah blah yeah yeah yeah so this weekend i need to get away someone call and we will hang out.. me and erin need to i have not seen her in a long ass time i feel like ( Read more... )

tell me what i did to deserve this? why should i have to say goodbye to my dad at the age of 15? why do i have to watch him die like this? what did my mom ever do to see the one person that loved her so much that he gave her everyhing she ever wanted die? why why why?!?!

... things arnt going good they said it probably wont even be a month for my dad to live .. and this is so hard we have to do so many things tell so many people and all i do is think about my dad today at my grandads we were looking at pictures of him and i just wanted to cry. i feel so bad for all the mean things i have ever said if i could take ( Read more... )

i went to school today ehh.. and when i got home i found out my dad went back into surgery for internal bleeding .. things just keep getting worse and worse and right now all i want to do is be with my mom but i have to go to my grandads house i dont know things are just happening so fast and i hate it more then anything i want to leave san ( Read more... )

THANK                     YOU                                                                      Gabbie thanks for being there and for talking to me today I'm glad you let me in it means alot to me that we are friend i love you   ps. thank you erin for the picture you're the best ever i love you too

last night was really sad.. i dont think i have cryed so hard in my life .. I'm sorry to those i know that feel bad because they dont know what to do or what to say i know you guys cant possibly know what I'm going through but thanks for trying to help me .. thanks to michae and chels for walking with me last night even if yall didnt say anything ( Read more... )

why does god hate me why? how am i going to live the rest of my life without my dad how? how is my mom ever going to be happy again? how do i deal with losing my dad and everything else at the same time? god i dont know what to do i hate my life i hate everything i'm not going to school tomorrow I'm not no one can make me fuck it and if i go ( Read more... )