from stocisism to sunny bliss to overburdened weariness

[cihuateteo]

The last three days, all I have wanted to do is sleep. If I didn't understand that, in part, I'm fighting off extreme depression, in part, I'm just worn out from the events of the year, and in part I am more than likely still trying to recover from my bout with strep throat - I'd say I had mono again. Just when things seem like they might get

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[phronesis]

extreme depression - sometimes I just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling - it's hermetic capacity is amazing. I probably would have spent the better portion of the day doing just that had I not been motivated to sit on a bench for an hour waiting to no avail - but how should I know an better?

[cihuateteo]

funny - I spent an hour doing just that...

[phronesis]

Did it help any? I usually either fall asleep or end up getting drunk. Falling asleep is better - waking up is not. It's an interesting experience falling asleep this way - it feels like evrything is okay when you nod off - but of course I usually wake up in a something like a panic with the sudden realization that I was merely dreaming. The same thing happens when I am drunk - but the anxiety and derpression (physically effected) is worse and the crash of "reality" is difficult to deal with. In anycase - pseudoreality prevails.