conversations...
my lovey and i were out and about today running errands and whatnot.
pulling out of target he randomly brings up the conversation of something i said a while back and
him: so remember the conversation we had in which you told me that people stay together for a long time because they find new ways to fall in love all over again?
me: ya
him: so i was wonder [gets distracted by a car waiting for our spot, as he pulls out] sorry, didn't mean to interrupt our conversation.
me: [shakes my head at his habit of pointing out, and/or missing, the obvious] was kinds expecting you'd need to pay attention, but anyway, as to your question, we haven't been together long but [hesitates a while to formulate a coherent thought... 1 minute later..] i'd say it was being the same responsible i presumed you always were. [insight: it's HOT when i get to know a guy and he is as he was, essentially, when i met him. it's so rare i've not met many of those guys, never dated any of them any way.]
him: [breaks off into other small subjects]
me: [interrupts] so are you trying to buy time to think of a response?
him: [laughs] no, what i found was the initial admiration i have for you and the fact that you're not dependent on me and vice versa.
that was a huge compliment and made me happy. i've been grumpy and all-around difficult lately since the issues of alisa and tight financial situation this month have been front and center in my daily thoughts.
we may not be married but it sure as hell feels like it. in my utopia this is what a marriage should be; a functional partnership with wide range of communication and lotsa passion thrown in the mix. i said it was my utopia, didn't say it had to work for everyone.
time to go snuggle up to my dream guy. [waves]
pulling out of target he randomly brings up the conversation of something i said a while back and
him: so remember the conversation we had in which you told me that people stay together for a long time because they find new ways to fall in love all over again?
me: ya
him: so i was wonder [gets distracted by a car waiting for our spot, as he pulls out] sorry, didn't mean to interrupt our conversation.
me: [shakes my head at his habit of pointing out, and/or missing, the obvious] was kinds expecting you'd need to pay attention, but anyway, as to your question, we haven't been together long but [hesitates a while to formulate a coherent thought... 1 minute later..] i'd say it was being the same responsible i presumed you always were. [insight: it's HOT when i get to know a guy and he is as he was, essentially, when i met him. it's so rare i've not met many of those guys, never dated any of them any way.]
him: [breaks off into other small subjects]
me: [interrupts] so are you trying to buy time to think of a response?
him: [laughs] no, what i found was the initial admiration i have for you and the fact that you're not dependent on me and vice versa.
that was a huge compliment and made me happy. i've been grumpy and all-around difficult lately since the issues of alisa and tight financial situation this month have been front and center in my daily thoughts.
we may not be married but it sure as hell feels like it. in my utopia this is what a marriage should be; a functional partnership with wide range of communication and lotsa passion thrown in the mix. i said it was my utopia, didn't say it had to work for everyone.
time to go snuggle up to my dream guy. [waves]