I feel bad when i turn down a homeless person. I don't know what it is... even if i do carry money i don't feel inclined to give it to them. I think this is pretty wrong for a girl that wants to spend her life in the pursuit of helping others. I don't know what makes it different? I am considering going on a trip that costs 2000 to volunteer in ( Read more... )

Big bear this weekend. Lots of boos and stufff. I didn't participate. Felt awkward and felt that I did not belong. Met great people. Got sick. Couldn't do my hw. Felt like everybody else was just amazing with what they could accomplish. Felt inadequate. Hungry. EXTREMELY Tired. Out of place(already said huh?) AMAZING SCENERY=have to come back with ( Read more... )

school started again. This quarter is my easiest quarter so I hope I don't screw it up. I need A's from here on out! Everything feels the same though; I thought I would start off energetically spirited ready to tackle the challenges, but I have been spending each day as if it were still summer(the heat isn't helping much). I am so anxious about my ( Read more... )

"...my intense need to feel the pain of these people. I guess I want to know why I am lucky. I guess I want to punish myself for being lucky. Why do I go to the best schools, and why do I get the nicest clothes, and despite this still feel awful..." This is what I am feeling right now... Edward Said's daughter... to lazy to look up her name.. said ( Read more... )

I just finished reading the book lost in translation. It's a memorable read to be sure, a memoir that compiles in great detail the journey of a young Miss Eva from Poland to Canada and finally to New York where she is able to find a sense of self and acceptance. Very intellectual book, and an even more intellectual woman. I realized that without ( Read more... )

So I am driving down Las Tunas, a lit up area, which makes it all the more difficult to realize that my headlights aren't turned on, when I hear blaring sirens, and colorful ---(and I must admit beautiful lights, even despite their portending promise of an ill-seated fate). And then the reality of the situation hits me and my God-I-hope-this-is-a- ( Read more... )

Here goes another one! all 19 of them... I spent yesterday watching celebrity interviews... It just astounds me how mature some people can be. I remember telling my friends how I wanted to go clubbing once to experience it... or course I wasn't talking about my birthday or anything but in general. This idea wasn't taken up very well with a few of ( Read more... )

Here's a question: What do you do when you know you just failed a midterm? Yeah, today was really the worst test I took by far. I just knew as i was guessing at nearly every answer that test was really going to screw me over. Now I don't really know what to do from here; I have no strength to study for the final anymore. So sad; can't wait for ( Read more... )

college is a lonely lonely place! I have been cramped up in my room for 3 days, sadly drowning in my own misery. Sorrow drips into my heart thru a pin hole...lalala... I can't wait to go home in a few weeks. I just know that I only have to feel like this for a few more weeks, but as I count down the days, it just seems as though time is taunting me ( Read more... )

Awful day... Lost my wallet :( Not that 30 dollars is a big deal but the fact that I have to cancel all of my credit cards and I lost all of my birthday/christmas gift cards really sucks. Not to mention how I got lectured once again about my carelessness. This weekend is so crazy,  I spent a day with the family, pre-mothers day, and watched a ( Read more... )