home for me is tree covered hills and water, they have been there in both places I have called home (upstate and downstate NY.) Here at college I have trees, but no mountains, the clouds when they are low on the horizon and dark often make me homesick for my mountains. Being surronded by the trees, and especially trees and mountains makes me feel safe, like I'm being shielded from anything that could hurt me.
I've had that experience, too--I drove down a random dirt road while on a solo road-trip out West, and ended up walking up a hill into a valley in SE Arizona, and suddenly felt... There. I don't know what it was--some combination of color and light and solitude, maybe--but I felt good and present in a way I hadn't before. Or maybe just hadn't in awhile.
Glasgow hurt me like no where else I can imagine, and yet in those 7 months, it rewrote my entire conception of joy, of freedom, of pure whole-ness. To be anonymous in a verdant, dirty, stone-built, vibrant city is, I discovered, my heaven... and I am a small-town girl from the middle of wheat country.
Right now, I still can't tell. I thought that it was TN, but now I think that it was because my loved ones are here. It's still true. That's why I'm going back to a place that I hate this weekend, to see my brother. Home, for the time being, is still with family. And that's not so bad. (Sorry, I know I'm blowing your point....)
I still call Austraaaaalia hoooome.. Oz gets into your soul, man.
But after Australia, Scotland. Because the lochs and mountains and castles and history and beauty do it for me. England too, to some extent. Maybe it appeals to my romantic sense, maybe it's genetic.
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But I wouldn't call it home.
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But after Australia, Scotland. Because the lochs and mountains and castles and history and beauty do it for me. England too, to some extent. Maybe it appeals to my romantic sense, maybe it's genetic.
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