today i worked from 3 to 730. wow a whole four hours.. baha well tomorrow i get to work on my day off thats pretty ghey and its from 2 to 1030.. now tahts a long day but the pay check will be wonderful. so far i have aboot 14 hours in and im working 9 tmorrow thursday i have 5 hours and saturday another 9 hours.. so yeah thats pretty good ( Read more... )

today i went to court.. everything was pretty esay.. all i had to do was talk to a P.O. and that was it.. hes sending me to a shopplifting class for one day and thats it.. everything is done with.. i had to pay 65$.. wow thats like nothing. at first it said i had to pay 250$.. but nope it was only 65$ that was great.. yesterday brent and liz came ( Read more... )

i talked to sammi and brittany tonight..

things are a little better i guess.

they seem to think it's not all that bad..

but it just hasnt hit me yet..

in my mind things are still for the worst..

i just wish none of this wood have ever happened in the first place.

i still cant believe what i have done.

i need a way to forget?

sometimes ( Read more... )

right now i am watching the butterfly effect.. heh i watched that yesterday ( Read more... )

REGRET

well i have had an adventureous past couple of days. im going to write almost every detail down because i have notihng better to do rihgt this moment ( Read more... )

WHY SHOULD I....

Hope, care, wish, Try, Trust, breathe, Feel, Love, Believe, understand, explian, Live, When no one cares to hear me or when everyone listens with def ears?

Like a fenceing sword, where's the point?

your desperate mind that paints the world in these hopeless lies, illistrate yourself, and kill your scene, you are your own worst enemy. romanticize the alibi. rebuid something new to fantisize. on gaze from a dancing eye, burns their infatuation intoyour mind. set yourself up for the desire of the pill, forget the addiction for the complexity to ( Read more... )

i went shopping and bought 2 new pairs of pants one for w/e and the other for work. and i bought a new belt. and toni hair dye. im stoked to see it.. by the way toni the transfer thing never went threw so hun you owe me 16 big ones. heh. well i only work 2 days this week and that suck. means i dont get much money. i have to come up with 250$ by the ( Read more... )

today was horibble. i got a paper in the mail telling me i have to go to court now. geez that sucked so many butts. so my dad and i talked aboot it and i started to make him cry. i dont understand why but he was getting all teary eyed. wow that hurt. ive never dissapointed my folks before, so it hurt me like tons. i have to go to court on aug 2nd. ( Read more... )