((IC Entry of No Specific Title))
Last night was... I am not even sure.
Odd?
Is that the right word?
Yes. Odd. Last night was odd.
I was called by Tara because she and Mollie needed help. Evidently, Boris had webbed them rather heavily because Tara had been getting ready to bite Mollie's uncle. So I tracked them down, and I cut them loose.
That was probably the single most sensible point in the evening.
A pile of those creepy magical spiders just popped up and started skittering around. I shrieked, and as Tara is blind, I explained. I am, for some reason, terrified of spiders. Not all spiders, as far as I can tell, however. It seems to be that magical spiders are the ones that really frighten me. The ship? The ship frightens me. Not as much as it had originally, but it frightens me. It is, after all, a huge, shape changing spider that people live inside.
How is that NOT terrifying?
Those little spiders that keep popping up and moving things around? Those terrify me. The just come up out of nowhere! And to make matters worse, mine keep stealing shit from other people! They're going to get me into trouble one of these days. I still don't know who's clothes they stole, or where they put my robe.
So now Tara wants me to have a chat with Carsson, for some reason. I do not know why. I've BEEN chatting with Carsson, letting him play dress-up, etc. ...I suppose I do that because I know it's helping him deal with the loss of his wife. But still. What does playing dress-up have to do with my spider problem?
And then she wants to go hunting together. So I can tame a spider. I do not want a spider, woman! But she says she doesn't care about me keeping the spider. So why does she want me to tame one? I have no idea. I mean, if it's a regular spider, I do not see any corelation to my problem in the first place. It is magical spiders that are creeping me out; not mundane spiders.
But, I can humor her in this. It's not as though it costs me anything more than time, and it will be nice to spend some time with my little sister (not by blood birth, obviously and not my only little sister. ...I wonder where little Joi is, now? And is she still so very little? ...I am less concerned about Cousin Bi-Bi. That shrieking harpy can choke on a cat.).
Of course, then Tara had to make things far more awkward by telling me, repeatedly, that she is a spider.
SHE IS CLEARLY NOT A SPIDER; SHE IS A TINY TROLL! Maybe a troll/gnome hybrid, even.
A trome.
She did not feel as though she were lying, or even joking.
She is mistaken, of course. That has to be it. She is not a spider (have you ever seen a spider that looked like a tiny troll?). She is a trome.
Then she made things more awkward, if possible, by climbing up me and... She licked my face! Why would you do that?!
...I suppose I'm not really in any position to ask that question, but still. Awkward.
Made only more awkward by the fact that Yue came by, grabbed her, and carried her to bed to snuggle against.
Yue tried to get me to climb into bed and go to sleep, but... Tara was there, and had already made things awkward. I mean, really now. I may do some odd things at times, but I do not climb people. Especially immediately after telling them I am a spider. Knowing that spiders have been freaking them out.
And then Ilu wanted to join in the snuggle-fest and... I admit that I was starting to feel a little jealous, despite knowing there was nothing sexual at hand. So I went to sleep in a tree. It wouldn't have been the first time, and it's unlikely to be the last time.
I suppose I hurt Tara and Ilu's feelings, because they went back to their own rooms. I hadn't intended that, really. And I can understand why Yue was a bit grumpy at that point. Yue essentially ordered me back to bed at that point.
I understand why she was angry. That bout of jealousy was petty, especially as it was over something as simple as drowsy hugs. I'm not normally the sort to get jealous over what I know are innocent things, so I do not know why it happened this time.
I wonder how much of it was my own jealousy, and how much of it was a result of the mind link? There are a number of other people sharing this link, who are highly jealous individuals themselves, after all. Or am I simply passing the buck, as it were? Am I suddenly faced with insecurities I do not know how to put down, brought up by thinking on those things in the past? I don't know. I wish the spiders had never found this damned book.
I am going to have to find a way to make apology to all three.
Still, the evening wasn't an altogether wash. Yue finally shut me up by just rolling over and burying my face in her fluff. That was an oddly pleasant way to sleep. With a panda sprawled out across me.
...I can't help but expect the other shoe to drop any day now. We've been tentatively involved for a couple of months, now, and properly involved for about a month. This is right about when it usually starts to happen. When I usually start to fuck things up.
I should show The Orc my new rocket; maybe take him for a ride. It's been a while since we've had a chance to hange out, and there's a great lava-filled trench right in the middle of the Barrens. That'd be a great place for some death-defying aerobatics. Or maybe we could go slinging around the chains in Blackrock Mountain.
He'll LOVE it!