because we're human and such .. we long for someone to touch...

[citizenfrank]

//EDIT: just got the mail and low and behold LOUDER NOW was in my mailbox!!!!! AHHHHHHFKshjalkhsdkhsd! It's amazing..holy crap. My day just went from blah to AHHHHHHYAY!

I've felt so out of touch with myself recently

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[empressginny]

the da vinci code is one of my favorites.. make sure you carry a notebook everywhere you take it though.. because youre definitely going to want to take notes and look shit up while you read it.
its SO good.
♥

[citizenfrank]

I've been meaning to read it forever but the size intimidated me ;) I will definitely remember to take notes ..thanks much for the advice! I think I am going to tackle that one first. ♥

[rockthecorner]

damn boys. though i think i'm starting to become immune to getting my heart broken. or at least i'm used to it now, haha.

anyway, 2 weeks until OUR summer of rock n' roll, and then things will be a lot better because we'll have more to do. everyone will be home for the summer, which is cause for rejoicing in itself.

ps: i think i see something working for you and a certain new boy maybe??

[rockthecorner]

haha I'm trying to build up my immunity as well.

I cannot wait!!! Holy geez ...

ps- I'm scared =[

[citizenfrank]

yeah that was me.

[bratsunderrated]

i am glad you are seeking help.
i'm proud of you.
♥

[citizenfrank]

ty =) ♥

[orchid_violet]

Oh, my mother I think has some special powers over me. She knows EVERYTHING

[citizenfrank]

Haha Moms are freaky like that.
I won't say ANYTHING and she can just look at me a detect a change.

I know what you mean.
I've been trying to put the blame on everyone BUT myself .. but when it comes down to it, it's me that needs to improve and change. I always avoid asking for help because it makes me feel powerless and not in control. Control is my main issue. I get anxious if I am not in control of any situation, hence this problem. But thanks ..hopefully I made the right decision this time and can start in a new direction this time.

Ahhh I've avoided The DaVinci code for the same reason! The hype and sheer volume of the book has intimidated me ... but I want to read it before the movie comes out. I used to read alot more than I do now as well, I think all the pressures of growing up [haha] have kept me from reading as much as I want.

& I know EXACTLY what you mean. Sometimes I just feel so lost and I don't know where to begin. But I know I HAVE to move or I will perish .. so here I go again ;)

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[orchid_violet]

oh control is an issue of my own also. I need everything to go perfect, and so I think we have control over everything... but reality speaking, I know it's quite the opposite, and our success is dependent on how well we adapt to what is thrown at us. I just don't want to adapt at all.

It's funny how everything interrelates in life. I was going to add about my reading that I am so occupied with other thoughts of life and troubles that I just can't do it the way I used to, I mean that's how I feel, but I was not sure if it was classified as a valid reason. ergh, but who judges validity other than ourselves these days.

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[citizenfrank]

"our success is dependent on how well we adapt to what is thrown at us. I just don't want to adapt at all." SERIOUSLY! Exactly. Ah. I hate that, but it's so true.

I think we are the only ones who can control what is and is not valid in our own lives. Sometimes I have difficulty prioritizing, however =/

[cuban_curlz]

poisonwood=great.

[citizenfrank]

That's what I've heard =)