i want to wake up and feel alive.

Aug 04, 2006 01:01

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bratsunderrated August 4 2006, 05:34:18 UTC
oh, jennie.
i wish i could make things better.
i love you.

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citizenfrank August 4 2006, 11:49:07 UTC
i know, i do too =[
thanks, i love you too ♥

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rockthecorner August 4 2006, 05:41:47 UTC
but you have so many people who LOVE and NEED you.

..like me.

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rockthecorner August 4 2006, 06:21:46 UTC
i really don't know what to say, other than this.

the only way to truely honor someone's life is by bettering your own.

no one is okay right now. as much as we try to claim we're okay now, it's only been a month. and some of us are not as okay as others because of the lack of support at home. and the fact that other problems are only piling on top of this tragedy. what i'm trying to get at is, i know you're not okay. because of a lot of reasons. don't be so hard on yourself for mistakes. it's how we learn. everything happens for a reason and it will all work out in the end. you can't run away from it, and you can't leave us because i cannot handle that. and all i can do is be here. my home is your home, and you are loved. i need you, and i care about you so much more than you know.

if i could, i would say "let's get the fuck out", and we could hop the next plane to london. or somewhere. i guess we can't right now, but please just remember that i love you and i will do anything for you. including trying to fix you..

PLEASE hang in

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citizenfrank August 4 2006, 11:53:10 UTC
this isn't about Tommy. although I cannot lie and say my emotional overload is not at all contributed to losing him.

It's a culmination of everything. I guess everyone's had their chance to break down, and now is my turn. I've held it in long enough and supported everyone through their break downs .. why am I not allowed?

I know. I know.
Everything you stated, I know.
Thanks for reaffirming ... I'm sorry. I'll be okay.

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rockthecorner August 4 2006, 16:11:43 UTC
i know it's not just about tommy. but it's the tragendy that is bringing everything else to the surface.

you can break down. you have been strong through all of it. you and i have been calm and composed through everything, so i'd say it's about time we get a chance to break down.

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orchid_violet August 7 2006, 09:30:44 UTC
I want out...but I don't
Sometimes I feel as though opposites are not really that opposite...I mean that would explain why it gets so indeed difficult to distinguish between the two.
Wanting two entirely opposite things at once sounds absurb and completely not logical, but is most definately apparent in my life.
I can never make sense of any of it.

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