Sex Sux
I hate having sex..... & I despise fucking. I can't stand rap music playing the background while I run my hands over the skin of a woman. I think "I wanna lick lick lick lick you from your head to your toes, then I wanna move from the bed down to the, down to the to to the floor" is some of the worst mood music you can have (though great dance music). One night stands leave you empty & feeling worse in the morning. Hard rock/metal on a boom box when you're about to enter your lover for the first time..... it simply ruins the mood.
There's no reason for all of this - it's just something I've wanted to state for a long time. Maybe I'm more of an emotionally/mentally bonded person than I should be, but sex should be about more than getting your rocks off. I've had sex more times than I'll ever be able to count & all but a handful of those times were with the same woman. That woman has had sex more than I'll ever be able to imagine (or want to for that matter). But...... I've only made love twice. Both times were incredible & better than all of the times of having sex put together.
I'm a hopeless romantic..... I'm an idealist, yet realist at the same time. I have ideas about what things should be like & I do everything possible to make those ideas real. My reality is different from most people's. I'll steal candy from your local gas station right in front of the owner & a state trooper, & they'll give me a happy little wave as I leave. If I have a purpose, I'll achieve it & have at least one person help me along the way. What does this have to do with sex? Everything.
Sex is when two or more people are sexually gratifying each other. I can't stand it. I need something more than my body to be gratified. I want to have my soul touched. I want to kiss the lips of my lover & forget a door to the hall exists. I want to look into her eyes as we make love & feel intimidated.... reassured.... like I'm the only person who's ever felt this way. I want the kind of love scenes you see in movies & can't help but catch your breath after watching. I want chills running down my spine when she looks at me & whispers "I love you." I want to believe her when the breathes those words. I want my doubtful nature to be tossed to the side. I want to be able to look at her & desire nothing but to hear her heartbeat get faster as she gets ready to climax. I want her to feel the same. If there's any music playing - I want it to be chosen by her & for it to be her favorite collection of love songs. I never want to hear the urban "bump bump bump" while we're in bed..... I don't want to hump hump hump like animals. Of course, I say all of these things now, but I'm sure if I just want to get a little booty, the P.Diddy & R.Kelly songs will do fine. I don't want to get to a point with someone where I feel the only thing we have in common is sex.
I said all of that to get to this point: I need a woman who's a romantic at heart. Someone who believes true love it possible. She can even believe it happens more than once in a lifetime. I don't want a nymphomaniac, because they'll have sex with anyone. Sex is over rated & it sucks elephant balls. Love can be painful when it hits rough spots; but overall, it's better than anything you'll ever experience. This is what I feel tonight. It may change by the morning, but at this moment, what I feel seems like something impossible. But all I need is to find the right person to change that. G`nite.
There's no reason for all of this - it's just something I've wanted to state for a long time. Maybe I'm more of an emotionally/mentally bonded person than I should be, but sex should be about more than getting your rocks off. I've had sex more times than I'll ever be able to count & all but a handful of those times were with the same woman. That woman has had sex more than I'll ever be able to imagine (or want to for that matter). But...... I've only made love twice. Both times were incredible & better than all of the times of having sex put together.
I'm a hopeless romantic..... I'm an idealist, yet realist at the same time. I have ideas about what things should be like & I do everything possible to make those ideas real. My reality is different from most people's. I'll steal candy from your local gas station right in front of the owner & a state trooper, & they'll give me a happy little wave as I leave. If I have a purpose, I'll achieve it & have at least one person help me along the way. What does this have to do with sex? Everything.
Sex is when two or more people are sexually gratifying each other. I can't stand it. I need something more than my body to be gratified. I want to have my soul touched. I want to kiss the lips of my lover & forget a door to the hall exists. I want to look into her eyes as we make love & feel intimidated.... reassured.... like I'm the only person who's ever felt this way. I want the kind of love scenes you see in movies & can't help but catch your breath after watching. I want chills running down my spine when she looks at me & whispers "I love you." I want to believe her when the breathes those words. I want my doubtful nature to be tossed to the side. I want to be able to look at her & desire nothing but to hear her heartbeat get faster as she gets ready to climax. I want her to feel the same. If there's any music playing - I want it to be chosen by her & for it to be her favorite collection of love songs. I never want to hear the urban "bump bump bump" while we're in bed..... I don't want to hump hump hump like animals. Of course, I say all of these things now, but I'm sure if I just want to get a little booty, the P.Diddy & R.Kelly songs will do fine. I don't want to get to a point with someone where I feel the only thing we have in common is sex.
I said all of that to get to this point: I need a woman who's a romantic at heart. Someone who believes true love it possible. She can even believe it happens more than once in a lifetime. I don't want a nymphomaniac, because they'll have sex with anyone. Sex is over rated & it sucks elephant balls. Love can be painful when it hits rough spots; but overall, it's better than anything you'll ever experience. This is what I feel tonight. It may change by the morning, but at this moment, what I feel seems like something impossible. But all I need is to find the right person to change that. G`nite.