Comments | cjcandie: Can't talk about it....

cjcandie

Can't talk about it....

Dec 27, 2006 17:40

How can a family that started off so "normal" become such a complete mess ( Read more... )

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lauraleelong December 28 2006, 02:08:54 UTC

Chloe!

I miss you! I can't believe it's been over a year since I've seen you. I will be praying for you and your family.

If you need anything please call me I understand what you are saying about venting, gossip, and so forth, but I'm serious if I can help let me know.

I love you and I would love to see you soon,

Laura Lee

cjcandie December 28 2006, 08:46:08 UTC

thanks sweetie -- how are you fairing in all the snow??

lauraleelong December 29 2006, 05:51:14 UTC

It's crazy! How are you handling it? I had to get new tires just to get out of my street.

sarcasmosignis December 30 2006, 06:21:13 UTC

i'm sorry you're feeling so frustrated. i won't say i know how you feel, cause that's a generic, crappy answer as far as i'm concerned. however, i'll just offer this, something that i need to remind myself of on a daily basis ( ... )

cjcandie January 3 2007, 00:04:43 UTC

I didn't roll my eyes at you :) And I appreciate your prayers and thoughts on this. It really is so hard to let others keep going on seemingly without God. It is even harder when you try and talk to them about him being there, and them asking hard questions of "where?" when you have to admit you don't know what he is doing. My family say they are believers, but God just isn't their strength or in their decision making most of the time, so when crap keeps happening and stuff keeps disintegrating, I just don't know what to do when they come to me and ask questions or for help. I have backed away so much lately, they have even stopped doing that - which means they are just in their own little world of not knowing what to do next.

But thanks for the reminder that God is their God too, and I am not to try to take his place in their lives. I can come to him with my heart and lift them up in prayer, nothing more. Thanks :)

karne_asada January 1 2007, 23:20:14 UTC

Chloe that I love ( ... )

cjcandie January 3 2007, 00:16:27 UTC

Thanks lady :) I appreciate that. I heard Mark Darling say something similar at a Rock retreat, and it is indeed something I think is vital for my prayer life - to be completely honest with him. I did that right before and after my post. The thing was, I was crying to him cause I told him I knew he already knew it all, we had talked many times before, I knew he was powerful, I knew he wouldn't force them to come to him, that he had my back, etc... but I also told him I just wanted someone to talk back so I could hear them... someone he could audibly speak through with advice, someone who could listen physically - another person. I don't know why that was so incredibly important to my heart at that moment. I guess I just wanted someone to share with that wasn't already aware of everything I was and had been saying up to that point... maybe thinking that help would come from from God in that way -- but then I just bounce myself around with the argument that it was trusting other people more than God, and if the person couldn't ( ... )