misc

[cjqsg]

when the going gets tough, i often have this creeping urge to ord. i feel that i cannot take it much longer, even as my mind drifts away and forgets the hardship and the pain. i appear to be surprisingly calm, but in reality i can no longer concentrate. on the outside, i stare blankly at people and respond mechanically at orders. inside, i think

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[dnwq]

what's ord?

[hongyu]

the dream of every nsf.... Operationally Ready Date. Its the date when you finish your ns.

[dnwq]

then how do you have an urge to ord? o_O

[leonard_ho]

i guess the challenge now is to keep an open mind for the next 5 months. i'm not an authority on this, considering my vocation, but it helps me tide over the impossibly tedious times at work by focusing on the short term novelties / distractions. Like the latest issue of maxim for instance, or putting in the effort to train for AHM and even entertaining the prospect of training once more for stan chart at the end of the year.

[applecherrypipz]

Hi Jinquan,
If u are not considering it already, consider it fortunate (God's blessing ;p) to be able to confront your fragile, vulnerable and weak being. For if we do not acknowledge that (the living reality of ourselves), we fail to live up to our full potential. Humility is liberating =)

I believe that many people do know their incompetency and imperfection but many choose to ignore it, dismiss it, or deny it. I used to deny it so much I didn't even know i was denying it until God used suffering to reveal all that to me. Now that I am a lot more humble, I now see how truly liberated I am to be all that God has called me to be =)) which is who I truly am meant to be..

Hope that helps =)