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Title: You Could Have it All
Author: Kat ;; bey0nd_reapirx3
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama/Angst
Warnings: Suicide
Spoilers: None
Pairings: Ulrich and Samantha [Omgsh NEW!]
Summary: I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.
Notes: I have no idea why I wrote this, to be honest. :D~
Disclaimer: I don’t own Code Lyoko and I don’t own the song Hurt [by Johnny Cash]
I’d like to thank my friend fal13n_ang31 for sending me the song to inspire this. :)
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I stared at the blade I fiddled with in my hands. It was stained with dried blood.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I couldn’t take it. I threw the old, rusted blade against the mirror, listening to it crack.
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything.
I hear mom and dad screaming at each other downstairs. I hear the crashing of tables against the hard wood floors. I hear the knocking of bodies slamming against walls. I pressed my back to the wall of the bathroom and slid down until my body touched the floor.
I looked into the broken mirror and analyzed the reflection. My eyeliner and mascara were running, creating black swirls underneath my eyes. My cheeks were red, as were my eyes. “What have I become?” I whispered hoarsly. I started sobbing, slamming my fist angrily against the tiles of the bathroom.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
I dragged my body off of the ground after a long hour. I made my way to my room and sat down on my bed. I could hear mom crying and dad screaming. I brought my knees to my chest, holding them close. I just want you to be here again. I need you.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here.
My mind rattles with broken memories of us. Walking up and down the shore with no intention of ever resting, chasing each other in the park.. Where did those memories go, darling? Where?
You left me when I needed you most, Ulrich. Just saying your name gives me mixed emotions. I reached underneath my bed where I kept my extra razor. I rested it against my wrist and pressed it to me skin, gliding it across. The oh-so familiar smell of blood rose and filled the air. Soon, I had about nine or ten cuts on my right arm.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
I threw the razor back under my bed and grabbed the towel that sat on my desk. Why? Why did you leave? I thought we were happy! I pressed the towel against my dark red arm. I winced and let a tear escape my eye. It stung; it hurt, but not as much as it did when I saw you walk away.
Then it became impossibly quiet. I looked out the window; it’s thundering and raining outside. I looked to the driveway to see dad climbing into his car and slamming the door. He turned on the car and backed out of the driveway. He sped down the road with no intention of ever coming back.
I sat down and cried. Cried, and cried, and cried. Every time I thought I had no more tears left, they managed to come back.
“Note to self: I miss you terribly, Sam,” I whispered before I fell into a slumber.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.
Author: Kat ;; bey0nd_reapirx3
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Drama/Angst
Warnings: Suicide
Spoilers: None
Pairings: Ulrich and Samantha [Omgsh NEW!]
Summary: I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.
Notes: I have no idea why I wrote this, to be honest. :D~
Disclaimer: I don’t own Code Lyoko and I don’t own the song Hurt [by Johnny Cash]
I’d like to thank my friend fal13n_ang31 for sending me the song to inspire this. :)
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I stared at the blade I fiddled with in my hands. It was stained with dried blood.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I couldn’t take it. I threw the old, rusted blade against the mirror, listening to it crack.
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything.
I hear mom and dad screaming at each other downstairs. I hear the crashing of tables against the hard wood floors. I hear the knocking of bodies slamming against walls. I pressed my back to the wall of the bathroom and slid down until my body touched the floor.
I looked into the broken mirror and analyzed the reflection. My eyeliner and mascara were running, creating black swirls underneath my eyes. My cheeks were red, as were my eyes. “What have I become?” I whispered hoarsly. I started sobbing, slamming my fist angrily against the tiles of the bathroom.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
I dragged my body off of the ground after a long hour. I made my way to my room and sat down on my bed. I could hear mom crying and dad screaming. I brought my knees to my chest, holding them close. I just want you to be here again. I need you.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here.
My mind rattles with broken memories of us. Walking up and down the shore with no intention of ever resting, chasing each other in the park.. Where did those memories go, darling? Where?
You left me when I needed you most, Ulrich. Just saying your name gives me mixed emotions. I reached underneath my bed where I kept my extra razor. I rested it against my wrist and pressed it to me skin, gliding it across. The oh-so familiar smell of blood rose and filled the air. Soon, I had about nine or ten cuts on my right arm.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
I threw the razor back under my bed and grabbed the towel that sat on my desk. Why? Why did you leave? I thought we were happy! I pressed the towel against my dark red arm. I winced and let a tear escape my eye. It stung; it hurt, but not as much as it did when I saw you walk away.
Then it became impossibly quiet. I looked out the window; it’s thundering and raining outside. I looked to the driveway to see dad climbing into his car and slamming the door. He turned on the car and backed out of the driveway. He sped down the road with no intention of ever coming back.
I sat down and cried. Cried, and cried, and cried. Every time I thought I had no more tears left, they managed to come back.
“Note to self: I miss you terribly, Sam,” I whispered before I fell into a slumber.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.