windedblinkey (7:04:49 PM): right now i have to write 2 pages about a relationship between me and a piece of artwork
Sjerusalem00 (7:05:37 PM): oh how nice of you to put it that way

This makes me very happy

Miss you

I have had enough of this ( Read more... )

As was to be expected, I forgot all my resolutions and pretty much my pride. I need to know what is going to happen and need to know that everything is okay, but I'm afraid bringing that up will not have a good effect. The one time I mentioned school today, he threw my leg off of him.

I could have brought it all up...it's not like I didn't have a ( Read more... )

When will I learn? Will I ever learn? Will I ever change? Will you ever change? Did you already change? Have I actually learned? Will I remember when I need to?
I'm not sure I can do this for much longer. It's not fair, and I don't deserve this shit. I care too much about you to accept the way this is. I have never done anything to hurt you, and if ( Read more... )

I need a beginning again
I want to feel how I used to feel
When everything was in the palm of my hand
And you were here with me
Ya know I just don't get it
Ya know I really don't get it at all
That you would leave so sudden
Well did you know you would leave me all alone?
I think we've fallen apart
I don't know where I should start
You left me here to be ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't question everything. I wish I didn't have the compulsive need to know. I wish I could be satisfied with how amazingly things have turned out. I wish I could explain this in some way that would make sense. But it is irrational, and I know that, so there is no point trying. I think and plan too far ahead instead of taking things a day ( Read more... )

I hate feeling powerless and completely out of control. I wish there was something I could do to fix all this shit. He doesn't deserve this all, especially not now. Everything is falling apart, and I'm helpless with no way to keep it all together. There is nothing I can really do, but because of his fucking pride and shit he doesn't want my help, ( Read more... )

Who would have expected things to turn out this way? It's not what I had planned-it's so much better. I'm sorry I'm insane. I'm sorry I'm a bitch. I'm sorry I'm a control freak, self-centered, paranoid, needy, insecure. I'm sorry I've never told you I'm sorry for the way I am, but please don't hold it against me. It doesn't matter when I'm with you ( Read more... )

I can only stay strong for so long. Although it wasn't that I was being strong, I wasn't being anything or feeling anything at all. So I've been broken by something other than you. I guess that's a good thing. You just add to the misery. I was numb because there was just too much, and I always had to keep going ( Read more... )

Confused. So confused. But happy. I suppose this is happy, I'm not really sure anymore ( Read more... )