Depression is something I'm familiar with...you might say even comfortable- I've spent quite a bit of time in that state in my life. My advice? Fuck em all- if they are still around when the smoke clears and the dust settles, then you can be friends again. For me at least depression always contains an element of selfish not giving a shit, so it makes being friends difficult. Its generally much better that I shun company until it passes.
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anonymous
September 9 2008, 05:01:46 UTC
Look on the mildly bright side- I care, even if I am really little more than a techno-blip. Just lay low, sleep as much as possible, and just as day follows night and spring follows winter, so too will this all pass. It just sucks that it takes so long.
I've been dealing with depression for a long time. At least since college, if not well before that (to a lesser degree). You should know, the fact that you're pushing forward with grad school applications, even though it's "fucking terrifying," says an awful lot.
Most depressed people I know or have known, including myself, would completely give up in the face of something like that. I've always wanted to go to grad school, but just can't bring myself to go through with it. You're doing an awful lot better than I ever did.
I spent years in therapy and on Effexor to get over the bulk of my depression, but it's come back lately. I just can't afford to do anything about it this time but soldier on.
Oh, my dear. I know how hard it is. When things are good, sometimes you think they'll never be bad again. And then when they're bad, it seems they'll never get better. Life is scary. School can be scary. Growing up and needing to do more, to work harder, to push for more- all of it is scary. But being scared doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. In fact, I think it means that you fully appreciate exactly what it is that you're doing, that you feel everything a little more deeply, and isn't that better than feeling nothing at all? Than not being scared? The friends you have, the real ones, don't need to know everything that frightens you to love you anyway. And from the looks of it, here, it seems like a lot of the people in your life know exactly what you're going through. <3
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My mother will surely read this. I don't mean you, mom. You're always there for me. But sometimes it seems like you're the only one.
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Most depressed people I know or have known, including myself, would completely give up in the face of something like that. I've always wanted to go to grad school, but just can't bring myself to go through with it. You're doing an awful lot better than I ever did.
I spent years in therapy and on Effexor to get over the bulk of my depression, but it's come back lately. I just can't afford to do anything about it this time but soldier on.
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I know how hard it is. When things are good, sometimes you think they'll never be bad again. And then when they're bad, it seems they'll never get better. Life is scary. School can be scary. Growing up and needing to do more, to work harder, to push for more- all of it is scary. But being scared doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. In fact, I think it means that you fully appreciate exactly what it is that you're doing, that you feel everything a little more deeply, and isn't that better than feeling nothing at all? Than not being scared?
The friends you have, the real ones, don't need to know everything that frightens you to love you anyway. And from the looks of it, here, it seems like a lot of the people in your life know exactly what you're going through. <3
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