In the end, we're all alone. People won't come through for you if it doesn't do them good. No one actually listens or puts themselves in your shoes. It doesn't matter what we've learned when we were five. When you're an adult the golden rule goes out the window. For a while, I'll live this way but then I'll forget and I'll get hurt again. and ( Read more... )

Fuinneamh.

 Fuck you, you manipulating murderer Self Doubt.

 I'm homesick. For a home that no longer exists.

 I am among the many who constantly compare themselves to others but let's face it, for so many of us, just breathing is hard enough.

 I finally watched that movie you told me about so long ago, knowing it was something I cared so much about. I wish I had watched it earlier. I wish I could talk to you about it now. I wish I had made what you wanted to watch a priority. I wish I made you my number one priority.

My stomach still flips when I see pictures of you.
How many times can a person be in love?

 I'm terrified of showing the bad parts of myself, even though they are parts of who I am, because that's how I lost you.

 I hope people don't think I'm arrogant and bragging about my life here, about finally feeling happy, when I share things I'm doing.
My intentions are pure.

I can feel Spring all around me even from my sick bed, that tangible sunny open fresh feeling ( Read more... )