I am somewhat thankful that my days are so filled up with work that I barely have time to think and when I do, I think of love, feminism, the hopelessness of the future vs. pretending I'm in 1969-1974, my anxiety, music, how to make music, how much I value my own cynicism, people who can spell/use proper grammar/be articulate without being ( Read more... )

Please tell people who I no longer talk to about what a bad friend I am (or is it am not?). Please call me and call me on it. Please pretend there was a friendship to uphold and that you valued it enough to say something to me about what a shithead I am. Yes, Natasha...my favorite part of our friendship was the eternal snubbing. No, it didn't exist ( Read more... )

Today was disposable. I woke up insanely late (by accident), and by the time I got back home I was starving. So, I over-ate and now all of the muscles in my entire body would prefer not to move. My mom was in a good mood today. It was strange ( Read more... )

I spent 8 luscious hours on my feet today. I have never been so tired. I worked! Worked! For the first time since my sit down computer job in Montreal, which I quit in mid-December. It's a coffee shop in the West End. Lots of smiley, wealthy looking middle-aged people.

Must go...too tired to type any longer.

On second thought, it appears that I have no jobs (aka places that hired me but then didn't call me in to work.)

I went to bed before 9 last night.

I think I might have 3 or 4 jobs.

ToomuchVODKA+no dinner, meagre lunch= No Sugar Coated Killers for me on Wednesday night+embarassment

I am going to be one sober motherfucker for the next couple of months

I'll be no-fun Nikkie

I had a little streak of bad luck/unfortunate events that lasted from about 10pm last night until about 6:30pm this evening. If I believed in God or fate, I would be thinking that some sort of lesson is being taught to me, or that I am going to die in a horrible accident soon. Here goes ( Read more... )

I keep waking up a lot at night. I think it's because I haven't been exercising (foot, then illness, then laziness). Because of my frequent wake-ups, my dreams and the people in them are revealed to me more oft than usual. I dream a lot of my sisters and I as children going places with my father, Lindsey, and Stephanie and I becoming friends again ( Read more... )

I am pleased to say that I again have the attention span to read non-fiction books! I know this, because I am at page 114 of a non-fiction book, and regardless of how many times I have to re-read the print, I am at page 114. Way to go. I can learn again. I think it's because I rarely watch television and never play video games ( Read more... )

Today, I woke up and got a phone call. The phone call confirmed my suspicion that Jaden only wanted to have coffee to potentially sleep with me. I told him I was seeing someone on Tuesday, and well, now it's Thursday and he has to garden with his mother. I was looking forward to incessant blabber, but I suppose I'll have to wait another day ( Read more... )