Rant.
PEOPLE NEED TO GROW UP AND ACCEPT THAT I AM AN ADULT. I WILL DO WHAT I WANT WITH WHO I WANT, AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH RAY OR HOW HE IS FEELING.
Why can't people accept I have male friends, and I will hang out with them, and it doesnt mean I'm fucking them, or that we will be dating. And that Tony is NOT my boy. Seriously, he's like my little brother. I am NOT interested in him in that way, and it's mutual.
I'm so pissed right now aye. I've had a LONG HOT TIRING day, and now this shit.
If I wanna go be with someone, I would have done it by now. I am happy being single!! Happy NOT having a guy attached.
Seriously pissed off.
I'M NOT the one who FUCKED the relationship. I'm the one who just got fed up with having something called a relationship that obviously wasn't one! I was sick of being lied to, and having him going out behind my back. Seriously, how hard is it to just be honest with the person you've spent the last 4 years with?
I'm not a fucking Nazi!! I may not be the best girlfriend ever, but I put EVERYtHING into that relationship, and got walked all over!!
Just because I wasn't the one left crying, and desperately wanting the relationship back doesn't mean that I'm the bad one. I'm just the only one who seen that what we "had" wasn't worth the shit. Not anymore.
Seriously, you'd think someone that who actually cared about his children would TRY to see them. And once a week is not trying when you don't start work until 10 each day, have a three hour break during the day, still manage to see all your "mates" and that once a week is lucky to be 2 hours.
And for anyone interested, I have not had one cent from him since he left. I am still paying off the car, paying rent, my bills, and looking after the girls on my money alone.
I even LENT his mom $50 which he is still yet to give me back.
But yeah.. Rememeber, I am the bad one.. fucking dicks.