Some junk
No one reads or comments on this anymore so I dont really know why I'm writing, for myself I guess, thats the purpose of this thing anyways. So its been an pretty good week, but I sat back and thought about who my real friends are lately, and I did nt come up with much. Its good and bad I guess. Good cuz, I dont really like many people anyways. I m kinda mean. Bad cuz, I wish I had a few more that I was REALLY close to.
I m mostly talking about girls. Janelle and Lauren, sure, they are probably the best two girl friends I ve ever had, I ve said that a few times already, but in all honesty, thats it as far as girls go. Sure I talk to Ashley some times, shes nice, and theres Anna, but shes just an online friend, Kristin is pretty much out of the picture, I noticed that one of her previously good friends luke took her off his friends list and I m about to follow suit, probably for the same reasons he did. I think the last honest to god conversation I had with her was over a month and a half ago. We used to talk on the phone a couple nights a week for hours, much like Janelle and I still do, and I can pretty much say I enjoyed those talks. No more of those I guess, and that kinda blows.
Then I pissed off Michelle on thursday by asking for my key back, which honestly, I dont give a shit if shes pissed off about that, I should have had that fucking key back to my place months ago. If ANY friend of mine should have a key to my house, guy OR girl, it would be Janelle, thats IT. Michelle had no right to have a key to my house and even LESS of a right to bring some weird ass frat guy mutherfucker here last friday when I was nt even here. Does she not realize how much cool shit I have, cool, EASILY STOLEN shit? That was the last straw and I ll stick to that, but I m pretty sure she wont be coming back around anymore.
Then I still have hopes that Rick and Rachel will move in at the end of august when Travis moves out, not just because it saves me a place to live, but because I think thats gonna be a good friendship again. I was really bothered when I talked to him tonight and he was really pissed about the whole ashley situation, which in all honesty I should nt have made a big deal about it, and it should nt be an issue for anyone anymore. I m a stupid, jealous, somewhat crazy idiot when it comes to a girl that I really like, or even just care about extremely, and I reacted badly about the whole thing, and people got pissed off at me. I tend to do that alot. What can I say, I suck.
But anyways, so thats kinda been bothering me lately, oh then theres the whole me not going to Rachael Sargents wedding because she never gave me an invitation thing, so I m pretty sure that was the final nail in the coffin known as our friendship, we wont be talking anymore. I dont know, I mean the people who are pissed off at me or people I may not talk to anymore (I m talking about Michelle, Rachael, and Kristin here) I was nt really all THAT close to anymore, except Kristin, but like I said, that was a month and a half ago since we ve had a legitimate conversation, I ve been dealing with that loss for a while anyways, but it just sucks that I dont have all that many friends. I d like to have a nice awesome SINGLE girl friend that I can talk to about all kinds of stuff, and if something happens, that d be pretty great too. I just dont know when its gonna come around again, last shot I had was in february, and I certainly blew that (heres a hint she was one of the three girls I just mentioned). I m tired of being alone, is what this whole fucking rant boils down to.
On a lighter, entertainment note, I bought the Rescue Me box set, and I gotta say, its some damn good stuff. Dennis Leary is the man and I ll pretty much buy anything he puts out, but this show has, to be cheezy, its got heart. Sure, its hillarious and offensive (Knit Pussy, BWAHAHA), but its also got a great story and really good characters. It has arguably the best written dialogue of any show you ll find on TV these days. Yes, Dawsons Creek is still my favorite, but Rescue Me is a damn good show, and totally worth its rather hefty price for a box set (40 bucks for three dvds). And War of the Worlds, I saw that on the day it came out with big Dave and Kim, and HOO MAN, WEE DOGGIE, that movie was KERAZY. I mean HOO. I was honestly totally freaked out in a few parts and more than a few times me and Dave were BOTH squirming in our chairs, it was just that suspenseful. It was DAMN good, and honestly, between that, Batman Begins, and Star Wars Episode III, I dont know whats the best movie of the summer. Thats right, I went there. War of the Worlds had a rushed ending, but hey, so does the real story, so I can deal with it. Still got the Island coming up end of this month, and that movie has SO MUCH STUFF BLOWING UP that it could top them all, I saw this preview today where it shows all these like, big dumbells n shit flying all over the expressway and BIG HUMMERS N SHIT ARE GETTING FLIPPED OVER AND THEN THIS ONE TRUCK TAKES A DUMBELL RIGHT IN THE ENGINE AND IT FUCKIN EXPLODES IN A BILLION PIECES. It was SWEET. I ve actually seen that commercial three times and everytime I yell "SWEET!" really loud a couple times because it is FUCKING HARDCORE. So that movie is gonna be fuckin bad.
Then there was the Sounds of the Underground tour on tuesday. This was the best day of the summer so far, hands down. I cant believe my neck still does nt hurt from jamming out to Lamb of God, Chimiara, Opeth, Unearth, Everytime I Die, Norma Jean, All that Remains, Poison the Well, Throwdown, Strapping Young Lad, Devil Driver, and I think like two more bands that were awesome, and only Clutch and this crap band called High on Fire, which I could ve told you would have sucked from their name, sucked, and it was freakin crazy awesome. I did nt even think about being lonely, any problems I had, nothing, all day, except maybe getting White Castle afterwards. It was by far the best all day concert I ve been to, and Lamb of God is right up there with Mars Volta (although certainly two completely different types of experiences) as the best performers I have seen on stage. They rocked the house down. I got me an Everytime I Die shirt too, my vote was cast to buy their shirt when they busted out "Floater" which is easily one of my top three favorite songs of all time, its a song about a guy that drowns himself in the river because a girl does nt love him, and I was SCREAMING the lyrics to it and did nt realize I was the only one who was yelling and people were staring at me until halfway through the song. I fucking LOVE that song. Maybe I ll post the lyrics sometime, because its a classic. But yeah, hangin out with big Nick and Brian all day was cool too, it was just a great day and definately made to make this week probably the best of the summer, although again, thats not saying a whole lot, this summer gets a big 4/10 so far. For gods fucking sake, I still have nt even seen a girl in bikini. Not ONE. ITS SUMMERTIME FOR CHRISSAKE. I m still running and shit so maybe someday soon girls will be attracted enough to me to WANT to go swimming with me, but that will be long after summertime has come and gone that I will look decent with swim shorts on. Just one hot, skinny girl in a bikini, all summer. Thats all I ask. Just one. I m a simple man.
Speaking of me being simple, I was talking to Jessica, who is another girl that lives far away and is an online only friend but is still awesome and I REALLY wish she lived down the street, but I told her tonight, my plans for life right now, I d like to get myself a 52" plasma screen TV, and I d like to have sex sometime. Thats it. I m a simple man. She makes me smile alot too and shes been a damn good friend for about sixish or so years now, so I m glad shes still around and I dont appreciate her enough, so I ll tell her to read this so she can read about how awesome she is. Anyways, I think thats all I got, well shit, this was a fuckton of stuff, so I guess its not like I did nt have much to say. Thats my rant for this week, I ll lj cut this beeotch so it does nt clutter up all of your friends page. No one will read it all anyways. Oh yeah, and Stephanie, shes awesome too. We need to hang out sometime dammit, because I like talking to you online and you have ALSO been a friend forever, so we should hang out more god dammit. Ok now I m done.
I m mostly talking about girls. Janelle and Lauren, sure, they are probably the best two girl friends I ve ever had, I ve said that a few times already, but in all honesty, thats it as far as girls go. Sure I talk to Ashley some times, shes nice, and theres Anna, but shes just an online friend, Kristin is pretty much out of the picture, I noticed that one of her previously good friends luke took her off his friends list and I m about to follow suit, probably for the same reasons he did. I think the last honest to god conversation I had with her was over a month and a half ago. We used to talk on the phone a couple nights a week for hours, much like Janelle and I still do, and I can pretty much say I enjoyed those talks. No more of those I guess, and that kinda blows.
Then I pissed off Michelle on thursday by asking for my key back, which honestly, I dont give a shit if shes pissed off about that, I should have had that fucking key back to my place months ago. If ANY friend of mine should have a key to my house, guy OR girl, it would be Janelle, thats IT. Michelle had no right to have a key to my house and even LESS of a right to bring some weird ass frat guy mutherfucker here last friday when I was nt even here. Does she not realize how much cool shit I have, cool, EASILY STOLEN shit? That was the last straw and I ll stick to that, but I m pretty sure she wont be coming back around anymore.
Then I still have hopes that Rick and Rachel will move in at the end of august when Travis moves out, not just because it saves me a place to live, but because I think thats gonna be a good friendship again. I was really bothered when I talked to him tonight and he was really pissed about the whole ashley situation, which in all honesty I should nt have made a big deal about it, and it should nt be an issue for anyone anymore. I m a stupid, jealous, somewhat crazy idiot when it comes to a girl that I really like, or even just care about extremely, and I reacted badly about the whole thing, and people got pissed off at me. I tend to do that alot. What can I say, I suck.
But anyways, so thats kinda been bothering me lately, oh then theres the whole me not going to Rachael Sargents wedding because she never gave me an invitation thing, so I m pretty sure that was the final nail in the coffin known as our friendship, we wont be talking anymore. I dont know, I mean the people who are pissed off at me or people I may not talk to anymore (I m talking about Michelle, Rachael, and Kristin here) I was nt really all THAT close to anymore, except Kristin, but like I said, that was a month and a half ago since we ve had a legitimate conversation, I ve been dealing with that loss for a while anyways, but it just sucks that I dont have all that many friends. I d like to have a nice awesome SINGLE girl friend that I can talk to about all kinds of stuff, and if something happens, that d be pretty great too. I just dont know when its gonna come around again, last shot I had was in february, and I certainly blew that (heres a hint she was one of the three girls I just mentioned). I m tired of being alone, is what this whole fucking rant boils down to.
On a lighter, entertainment note, I bought the Rescue Me box set, and I gotta say, its some damn good stuff. Dennis Leary is the man and I ll pretty much buy anything he puts out, but this show has, to be cheezy, its got heart. Sure, its hillarious and offensive (Knit Pussy, BWAHAHA), but its also got a great story and really good characters. It has arguably the best written dialogue of any show you ll find on TV these days. Yes, Dawsons Creek is still my favorite, but Rescue Me is a damn good show, and totally worth its rather hefty price for a box set (40 bucks for three dvds). And War of the Worlds, I saw that on the day it came out with big Dave and Kim, and HOO MAN, WEE DOGGIE, that movie was KERAZY. I mean HOO. I was honestly totally freaked out in a few parts and more than a few times me and Dave were BOTH squirming in our chairs, it was just that suspenseful. It was DAMN good, and honestly, between that, Batman Begins, and Star Wars Episode III, I dont know whats the best movie of the summer. Thats right, I went there. War of the Worlds had a rushed ending, but hey, so does the real story, so I can deal with it. Still got the Island coming up end of this month, and that movie has SO MUCH STUFF BLOWING UP that it could top them all, I saw this preview today where it shows all these like, big dumbells n shit flying all over the expressway and BIG HUMMERS N SHIT ARE GETTING FLIPPED OVER AND THEN THIS ONE TRUCK TAKES A DUMBELL RIGHT IN THE ENGINE AND IT FUCKIN EXPLODES IN A BILLION PIECES. It was SWEET. I ve actually seen that commercial three times and everytime I yell "SWEET!" really loud a couple times because it is FUCKING HARDCORE. So that movie is gonna be fuckin bad.
Then there was the Sounds of the Underground tour on tuesday. This was the best day of the summer so far, hands down. I cant believe my neck still does nt hurt from jamming out to Lamb of God, Chimiara, Opeth, Unearth, Everytime I Die, Norma Jean, All that Remains, Poison the Well, Throwdown, Strapping Young Lad, Devil Driver, and I think like two more bands that were awesome, and only Clutch and this crap band called High on Fire, which I could ve told you would have sucked from their name, sucked, and it was freakin crazy awesome. I did nt even think about being lonely, any problems I had, nothing, all day, except maybe getting White Castle afterwards. It was by far the best all day concert I ve been to, and Lamb of God is right up there with Mars Volta (although certainly two completely different types of experiences) as the best performers I have seen on stage. They rocked the house down. I got me an Everytime I Die shirt too, my vote was cast to buy their shirt when they busted out "Floater" which is easily one of my top three favorite songs of all time, its a song about a guy that drowns himself in the river because a girl does nt love him, and I was SCREAMING the lyrics to it and did nt realize I was the only one who was yelling and people were staring at me until halfway through the song. I fucking LOVE that song. Maybe I ll post the lyrics sometime, because its a classic. But yeah, hangin out with big Nick and Brian all day was cool too, it was just a great day and definately made to make this week probably the best of the summer, although again, thats not saying a whole lot, this summer gets a big 4/10 so far. For gods fucking sake, I still have nt even seen a girl in bikini. Not ONE. ITS SUMMERTIME FOR CHRISSAKE. I m still running and shit so maybe someday soon girls will be attracted enough to me to WANT to go swimming with me, but that will be long after summertime has come and gone that I will look decent with swim shorts on. Just one hot, skinny girl in a bikini, all summer. Thats all I ask. Just one. I m a simple man.
Speaking of me being simple, I was talking to Jessica, who is another girl that lives far away and is an online only friend but is still awesome and I REALLY wish she lived down the street, but I told her tonight, my plans for life right now, I d like to get myself a 52" plasma screen TV, and I d like to have sex sometime. Thats it. I m a simple man. She makes me smile alot too and shes been a damn good friend for about sixish or so years now, so I m glad shes still around and I dont appreciate her enough, so I ll tell her to read this so she can read about how awesome she is. Anyways, I think thats all I got, well shit, this was a fuckton of stuff, so I guess its not like I did nt have much to say. Thats my rant for this week, I ll lj cut this beeotch so it does nt clutter up all of your friends page. No one will read it all anyways. Oh yeah, and Stephanie, shes awesome too. We need to hang out sometime dammit, because I like talking to you online and you have ALSO been a friend forever, so we should hang out more god dammit. Ok now I m done.