Home for break -- Last night George and I spent the night together...and he was wonderful. He was all over me with kisses, kept giving me compliments. He gave me a full body massage that felt fabulous. And it was just great. Like laying together, kissing him...its those moments I want to live in. The next morning though I have to go back to the ( Read more... )

I'm happy. And i just want to bottle this emotion and save it for use for the rest of my life. Because nothing happened especially amazing. Because the little things are making me smile and I haven' achieved anything special. Its just contentment in life as it is and in the little things...in the taste of my Chai tea, in the conversation with an ( Read more... )

I'm feeling extremely lonely right now. (Thus the resurrection of the livejournal). I know I have friends again which is a nice feeling...and I just had an amazing weekend white water rafting. But George just knows how to destroy me. He says I'm negative but he doesn't know me anymore. He knows who I was when we were together but I'm not that ( Read more... )

God Ive got to get a grip on myself. Im just so god damn miserable. I hate my college...my sheltered little stuck up fucking college of religious sheltered kids and the party kids that i cant seem to find. I would give anything for 1 friends who i can get drunk with every night and make the pain of these next few months go away...Every day i just ( Read more... )

So, yeah, I havent updated this thing forever...not that I really haven't had time to, I've just put priority on experiencing stuff rather than detailing it. It's been a magnificent summer. I've spent every day with my darling except when I went to Mass and when he was at George Washington for his "inaguration" (sp) as they call it. But yeh, its ( Read more... )

So Im spending my day today being forced to clean this entire freaking house cuz peepl are coming down for graduation...bah humbug...Anyways, not what i intended to write about ( Read more... )

I miss Massachusetts -- what am I going to do when u all rnt in a 4 town Radius? Where will our friendships go that are already so stressed and menial...Im crying so hard and I cant cope cuz I need to see u all together again and I dont have the means...What do i do...My past is evaporating into the future and I cant see it in the present...Ahhh

My grandma's here...Yay :-D

Only problem is im so stressed out and ready to cry at every little thing im sure i must be a miserable companion right now...bah.

So i got the Teaching Fellows scholarship..and got one of the 25 coveted spots in Elons program...yay for 13000 dollars a year towards the 25000 yearly tuition (plus books)...But do i want it? I dont want to be stuck here for four years after college...i dont particularly want to sleep tonight ~ tho i already have a whole vicadin in my system and ( Read more... )

Okay so for those of you who care, the whole being kicked out of my house thing is resolved, for now, i guess...idk its quite tumultuous...So heres basically the whole story. My mom and i fight alll the time. She thinks im irresponsible and have an attitude and concentrate on George too much while I feel like her friggin sanity balances on her ( Read more... )