It was Christmas Eve and my brother got engaged. It was Christmas Eve and my brother bought a house. A house and a life and my brother was happiness. I wonder sometimes if my family know that a tea-towel, white-goods kind of girl I am not. Not a cook-a-roast-dinner-for-a-family-of-25, Freedom Furniture, pretty-matching-dinner-sets kind of person. ( Read more... )

Olive green is my favourite colour or maybe brown or gold or the shades in between. I had a friend called Carl who used to call me at 2:00am and say 'Let's go walking'. On one such walk he told me that he loved me and then I went on a holiday to Sydney with two of my gayest friends. Carl followed me to Sydney where he hoped to make me fall for him ( Read more... )

Tripping to hell in high heels and standing at the bakery, nursing a head with stabbing pains and sunburnt arms, back, legs. Taking a drag, a sip, stealing a smile, being around friends who sing ‘riders on the storm’ and then they talked about broken ‘w’s’. Luke told me about his limbo house, his limbo job, his limbo state-of-affairs. Luke sang to ( Read more... )

What’s wrong with small ideas? Posting a picture of a memory above your desk or writing a letter to the first person that pops into your mind or buying flowers every Sunday. What the hell is wrong with small ideas?
The only other time I was paralyzed was four or five months ago or maybe less when I woke up and couldn’t breathe and knocked on my ( Read more... )

The biggest compliment I got was at a party and I drank too much and smoked too fast and a dude said that I was the best interpretive dancer to Bjork he had ever seen. My routine in a living room sized bedroom where people were crawling through the window and sitting cross-legged on beds and bean bags doing weed, doing speed, doing anything white- ( Read more... )

The other weekend I met a trans-sexual at my friend Jamie’s house and she looked familiar and I realised she looked familiar because she had been on Denton’s Enough Rope. She also looked familiar because I’d met her before at another party at the same house and she had shown me how to roll a cigarette using an intricate machine made in China.
There’ ( Read more... )