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Mandatory Questions
1. What about you is heroic? My idealism, I suppose.
2. What about you is social? What do you like about people? As long as they have a decent sense of humor and justice, we'll probably get along all right.
3. Invent an adventure/plot that your character would actively undertake (as opposed to just tagging along)? Any quest involving the gaining of freedom from tyranny, for anyone.
Personal Questions
1. What is your real, birth name? What name do you use? Yuan, Yuan Ka-Fai
2. Do you have a nickname? What is it, and where did you get it? Del calls me 'Thunder'. And Kratos on that loss called me 'dragonfly'.
3. What do you look like? About six feet tall, average build. Long blue hair with bangs hanging down to cover my right temple. Bright green eyes, pale skin, ears that aren't quite pointed, as much as I wish they were.
4. How do you dress most of the time? Somewhat baggy white pants, a dark undershirt with intricately patterned fitted leather armor on top, in red and navy blue with gold trim. Fingerless gloves and greaves that match my armor. Covering all of this is a navy-blue cloak that reaches almost to the ground.
5. How do you "dress up?" A fancy dress uniform, mostly white, with decorations in red, dark blue and gold, and a swallowtail cape.
6. How do you "dress down?" I take off the cloak and armored bits.
7. What do you wear when you go to sleep? Loose cotton pants
8. Do you wear any jewelry? An engagement ring on one finger and a locket around my neck
9. In your opinion, what is your best feature? My eyes
10. What's your real birth date? I don't know
11. Where do you live? Describe it: Is it messy, neat, avant-garde, sparse, etc.? In a spacious room in a magical castle. The ghosts keep it cleaner than I normally would bother with, but there's usually a bit of clutter around. The decor is a mix of bits taken from Renegade bases, from backstage at a high school theater in Japan, and from the Halliwell Manor. Even the ghosts can never quite get rid of all the cat hair, and their toys are usually scattered about.
12. Do you own a car? Describe it. No.
13. What is your most prized mundane possession? Why do you value it so much? My engagement ring to Martel. ...I don't think I need to explain that.
14. What one word best describes you? Renegade.
Familial Questions
1. What was your family like? I never knew them.
2. Who was your father, and what was he like? No one knows.
3. Who was your mother, and what was she like? Her name was Tiena, and I was told that she was very sad after they took me from her.
4. What was your parents marriage like? Were they married? Did they remain married? Slaves weren't allowed to marry.
5. What were your siblings names? What were they like? I don't believe I ever had any blood siblings. Kratos and Mithos have both been like brothers to me in the past, though. Kratos with his well-meaning ignorance, and Mithos with his enthusiasm and eagerness to please...
6. What's the worst thing one of your siblings ever did to you? What's the worst thing you've done to one of your siblings? Manipulated Kratos into little more than a clinging puppet. Tried to kill his son.
7. When's the last time you saw any member of your family? Where are they now? The last I saw of Mithos, he'd just teleported out after ruining all my plans; he's probably frozen in time on Derris-Kharlan waiting for me to return to the world. Kratos is in Paradisa with me.
8. Did you ever meet any other family members? Who were they? What did you think of them? I wish I could have.
Childhood Questions
1. What is your first memory? Being taken from somewhere and brought to a new home.
2. What was your favorite toy? There was a pretty rock that I found by the well one day. It looked like a beetle if you held it just right.
3. What was your favorite game? I liked to climb trees and zap bugs.
4. Any non-family member adults stick out in your mind? Who were they, and how did you know them? Why do they stick out? Nana was my surrogate mother-figure when I was very young. She was a fellow slave, maybe a hundred, but she looked much older. When I was hurt or sick, she would take a moment to help me, and sometimes brought me a cookie from the kitchen.
5. Who was your best friend when you were growing up? Melina was a girl about my age. We played together sometimes when we had time.
6. What is your fondest, childhood memory? Getting cookies from Nana.
7. What is your worst childhood memory? Large humans - the overseer and his friends - dumping a bucket of cold water on me just to watch me squirm because I couldn't control my magic yet.
Adolescent Questions
1. How old were you when you went on your first date? Dating isn't a concept that really applies, but Melina and I would sneak away now and then to escape work starting when we were thirteen or so.
2. It is common for one's view of authority to develop in their adolescent years. What is your view of authority, and what event most affected it? Authority should be exercised cautiously and kept in check by decency. When I was fifteen, the overseer raped Melina, who then hung herself from the tree behind the slave quarters. I was the one who found her.
3. What were you like in high school? What "clique" did you best fit in with? Not applicable.
4. What were your high school goals? Still not applicable.
5. Who was your idol when you were growing up? Who did you first fantasize about in your life? I remembered old stories and legends Nana had told me before she died. More than anything, I wanted to be like Briar of the Forest, who took from the rich and gave to the poor.
6. What is your favorite memory from adolescence? The day Melina and I first had sex.
7. What is your worst memory from adolescence? Finding Melina's body and knowing there would be no justice for her.
Occupational Questions
1. Do you have a job? What is it? Do you like it? If no job, where does your money come from? Back home, money comes from stealing from the countryside and Church donations. I'm a Seraph and the leader of the Renegades. In the castle, I don't generally have much money on hand, because the castle feeds us just fine.
2. What is your boss or employer like? (Or publisher, or agent, or whatever.) Sadistic, manipulative, insecure, power-mad, and childish.
3. What are your co-workers like? Do you get along with them? Any in particular? Which ones don't you get along with? Kratos and I get along...distantly, back home, but we're there when we need each other. I hate the Grand Cardinals, except possibly Forcystus. Botta and my Renegades are some of the finest, most loyal soldiers I could ask for.
4. What is something you had to learn that you hated? Being constantly in charge of other people. I know, it doesn't seem likely, but I'm only in charge because there's no one else who can do it right. I don't relish being responsible for more lives than my own.
5. Do you tend to save or spend your money? Why? I save whenever I can, for fear of running out.
Likes & Dislikes Questions
1. What hobbies do you have? Reading, flying, debating. I should learn to play chess, maybe I can make Kratos teach me, since Lelouch is gone.
2. Who is your closest mundane friend? Describe them and how you relate to them. ...I don't think anyone I know could be described as 'mundane'.
3. Who is your worst mundane enemy? Describe them and why you don't get along. Same answer here.
4. What bands do you like? Do you even pay attention? I used to prefer classical ballads, but since the memory swap occasionally I find myself humming 'J-rock' and 'classic metal'.
5. What tape or CD hasn't left your player since your purchased it? Why? Not applicable.
6. What song is "your song?" Why? Sylvia's come up with a whole playlist of them, but if I had to pick just one... Best of You, by the Foo Fighters
7. What's been your favorite movie of all time? I haven't actually seen any movies, but I have been informed that I would like Die Hard.
8. Read any good books? What were they? Are you asking for a list of every good book I've ever read? ...Les Miserables was quite good, at least in the abridged form. The unabridged had a tendency to go off on chapter-long tangents.
9. What do you watch on the Television? I don't. I'm told I'd like House, though, and I can't disagree, since I've met the man and found him quite interesting to talk to.
10. When it comes to mundane politics, do you care? If so, which way do you tend to vote? If not, why don't you care? The only election I ever had the opportunity to vote in, I voted for the man who was not The Master.
11. What type of places do you hang out in with your mundane friends? There's that 'mundane' word again.
12. What type of places do you hang out in with your normal friends? ...Wherever we happen to be at the time? Usually I talk to them over the journals. The roof is a favored spot, too.
13. What annoys you more than anything else? People who refuse to be helped.
14. What would be the perfect gift for you? Some kind of hobby, I suppose. I could always use something more to occupy my time.
15. What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? Martel dancing in a field of moonflowers.
16. What time of day is your favorite? Twilight
17. What kind of weather is your favorite? Thunderstorms
18. What is your favorite food? What is your least favorite food? Pasta, fish
19. What is your favorite drink? (Coffee, Coke, Juice, Beer, Wine, etc.) Orange juice
20. What's your favorite animal? Why? Dragons. Majestic, graceful, intelligent, powerful and protective beings
21. Do you have any pets? Do you want any pets? What kind? Two cats, a longhaired calico female and a shorthaired grey tabby male, a Bellossom, a rainbow floating fish, and a white Tribble are quite enough of a zoo for me. And then there's Kratos' Arshis pup.
22. What do you find most relaxing? (Not as in stress relief, but as something that actually calms you down.) Having my hair stroked. Tell anyone this, and you will die.
23. What habit that others have annoys you most? Unneccessary and excessive guilt.
24. What kind of things embarrass you? Why? Showing weakness of any kind. It probably has to do with my upbringing.
25. What don't you like about yourself? I don't really know how to interact well with normal people.
26. How would you like to look? I'd like to have pointed ears and large, feathery white wings. Or at least for my normal wings to not be pink.
Sex & Intimacy Questions
1. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why? Bisexual, leaning straight. ...I don't think that requires explanation.
2. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? What was it like? How well did it go? Melina, the week after I managed to chase the overseer off her the first time. It was...fast, we didn't have much time, but very enjoyable.
3. Have you ever had a same-sex experience? Who with, what was it like, and how did it go? Yes, repeatedly. I'm not laying out the details of every time.
4. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it? I think I'd like to experiment a bit more with pain tolerances, if Kratos won't run and hide from the concept of talking things out beforehand.
5. What was the wildest thing you've ever done, sexually? Who was it with and when did it happen? Electricity play with Kratos. A few weeks ago.
6. Is there any sexual activity that you enjoy and/or practice regularly that can be considered non-standard? (Bondage, Fantasy Play, etc.) Why do you like it? Bondage plays a role on a fairly regular basis. We both like being able to give up control now and then to someone trustworthy.
7. Is there any sexual activity that you will not, under any circumstances, do? Nothing that involves deliberately cutting the skin or body fluids not normally associated with sex.
8. Do you currently have a lover? What is their name, and what is your relationship like? What are they like? Why are you attracted to them? Yes, Kratos, we're very much in love. He's...Kratos. I couldn't summarize him. ...We understand each other.
9. What is the perfect romantic date? Wine and pasta under an open-air canopy while watching and listening to the thunderstorm outside.
10. Describe the perfect romantic partner for you. Someone strong and stable enough to balance out my worse mood swings, and keep me stable when I start taking on projects. Someone who I can count on to be there, safe and warm, at the end of a long day. Someone who can remind me why I keep fighting.
11. Do you ever want to get married and have children? When do you see this happening? I used to, but that path died with Martel.
12. What is more important - sex or intimacy? Why? Intimacy. Sex is just empty unless there's some connection there.
13. What was your most recent relationship like? Who was it with? (Does not need to be sexual, merely romantic.) I'm in a relationship with Kratos. Right now. We've been through this.
14. What's the worst thing you've done to someone you loved? Kept her suspended between life and death for four thousand years.
Drug & Alcohol Questions
1. How old were you when you first got drunk? What was the experience like? Did anything good come out of it? Did anything bad come out of it? Kratos snuck a bottle of wine from the kitchen when we were seventeen. We were very silly for a few hours until we fell asleep, and had terrible headaches in the morning.
2. Do you drink on any kind of regular basis? A glass of wine with Kratos over dinner now and then.
3. What kind of alcohol do you prefer? Mostly I prefer wine.
4. Have you ever tried any other kind of "mood altering" substance? Which one(s)? What did you think of each? I have had thousands of years, most of which were unhappy, to experiment with. I've tried a little bit of nearly everything, but mostly I feel like I prefer to be in control of my own mind, thanks.
5. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Are there any people should not do? Why or why not? I think people should know their limits, be sensible, and not do anything stupidly brain-rotting.
Morality Questions
1. What one act in your past are you most ashamed of? What one act in your past are you most proud of? Standing guard while the mother of the first Chosen was essentially raped. Proving to a large number of angry knights that a village of half-elves had nothing to do with local livestock theivery.
2. Have you ever been in an argument before? Over what, with who, and who won? Many times, usually with Kratos, and we've both won our share. Sometimes with Mithos; he always won those because I wasn't willing to risk my life defying him.
3. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won? I spent most of my first thousand years of life fighting, usually over my right to survive, with various humans. Seeing as I'm still here, I think it's clear I won in the end.
4. What do you feel most strongly about? Freedom
5. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people? ...I can't think of anything.
6. What trait do you find most admirable, and how often do you find it? Intelligence, and not as often as I'd like.
7. Is there anything you think should not be incorporated into the media or art (sex, violence, greed, etc.,)? If so, what and why, and if not, why not? ...No, I generally have better things to worry about than what people are entertaining themselves with.
8. Do you have any feelings in general that you are disturbed by? What are they? Why do they disturb you? If someone or something angers me deeply enough, I tend to want to lash out violently and mercilessly. The temptation to give up control and respond out of proportion is distressing.
9. What is your religious view of things? What religion, if any, do you call your own? No.
10. Do you think the future is hopeful? Why? Yes. Lloyd has proved his ability to take care of the world.
11. Is an ounce of prevention really worth a pound of cure? Which is more valuable? Why do you feel this way? I'm not sure of the purpose of the exact measurements, but yes. Prevention ensures that the spread is stopped, which is the most important thing.
12. What's the worst thing that can be done to another person? Why? Keep them ignorant and indoctrinated with hate and fear of anything different, enslaved to a victim's mindset, stripping them of the ability to choose their destiny. Without freedom of thought, we are no better than beasts.
13. What's the worst thing you could actually do to someone you hated? It would start with injecting chemicals into their veins that would cause excruciating pain...
14. Are you a better leader or follower? Why do you think that? If you think the whole leader-follower archetype is a crock of shit, say so, and explain why? I'm a better leader than a follower because I hate taking orders. Mostly I work best with equal partners of my own choosing, though.
15. What is your responsibility to the world, if any? Why do you think that? My personal responsibility to the world is to survive until the damage Cruxis did is well on the way to being repaired, and help wherever I can. We're the ones who created the mess in the first place.
16. Do you think redemption is possible? If so, can anyone be redeemed, or are there only certain circumstances that can be? If not, why do you think nothing can redeem itself? Not for anything that matters. If you break someone's nose on accident, that's one thing. But anything that can't be fixed as good as new, there's no redemption for it. Because you can't go back and make that choice again. Life is a series of choices, and choosing to do good in the present doesn't outweigh choosing to do evil in the past. It just keeps you from adding more evil onto the list. Because if you fail to do good when you have the chance, then by definition you are allowing evil to spread, even if you're not actively taking part.
17. Is it okay for you to cry? When was the last time you cried? Not usually. ...After the Marker was destroyed and I realized what I'd done.
18. What do you think is wrong with MOST people, overall? Most people don't bother to look outside their own lives.
Miscellaneous Questions
1. What is the thing that has frightened you most? Do you think there is anything out there that's scarier than that? What do you think that would be? Losing myself to the Marker's madness, and realizing that no part of myself is ever safe from the castle. I don't think there's anything more frightening.
2. Has anyone or anything you've ever cared about died? How did you feel about it? What happened? Yes. Martel. I broke, and helped her brother take over the world.
3. What was the worst injury you've ever received? How did it happen? A greatsword cut open my midsection, and it got infected because Martel and Kratos were too drained to heal me much right away. If not for the enhancements of the Cruxis Crystal, I doubt I'd have survived.
4. How ticklish are you? Where are you ticklish? My feet, but not very.
5. What is your current long term goal? Bring Vergil back to the state of morality he had before he left.
6. What is your current short term goal? Convince Vergil I'm not a threat.
7. Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they, and do you plan to get rid of them? I brood too much sometimes, but I don't feel like bothering to break that one.
8. If you were a mundane person, what would you do with your life? What occupation would you want, and how would you spend all your time? ...I liked being a freelance reporter when the castle turned into New York. And the 'Internet' is a wonderful source of information, I'm sure I'd spend a lot of time researching there.
9. What time period do you wish you had lived in? Why? (Looking at this as an attempt to change history doesn't count.) What appeals to you about this era? ...It's probably not applicable if I've lived in all the time periods currently remembered by history.
10. How private of a person are you? Why? Very. It protects my weaknesses.
11. If you were to gain an obscenely large sum of money (via an inhertiance, a lawsuit, a lottery, or anything else) what would you do with it? Give it to Allen, probably.
12. What would you wish for if you found a genie? A way to bring Kratos back to Aselia.
13. What do you do when you are bored? Read, usually.
14. What is the most frightening potential handicap or disfigurement you can conceive of? What makes it so frightening? I did not like being blind at all. Being blind and deaf would be terrifying, to be that isolated from the outside world...
1. What about you is heroic? My idealism, I suppose.
2. What about you is social? What do you like about people? As long as they have a decent sense of humor and justice, we'll probably get along all right.
3. Invent an adventure/plot that your character would actively undertake (as opposed to just tagging along)? Any quest involving the gaining of freedom from tyranny, for anyone.
Personal Questions
1. What is your real, birth name? What name do you use? Yuan, Yuan Ka-Fai
2. Do you have a nickname? What is it, and where did you get it? Del calls me 'Thunder'. And Kratos on that loss called me 'dragonfly'.
3. What do you look like? About six feet tall, average build. Long blue hair with bangs hanging down to cover my right temple. Bright green eyes, pale skin, ears that aren't quite pointed, as much as I wish they were.
4. How do you dress most of the time? Somewhat baggy white pants, a dark undershirt with intricately patterned fitted leather armor on top, in red and navy blue with gold trim. Fingerless gloves and greaves that match my armor. Covering all of this is a navy-blue cloak that reaches almost to the ground.
5. How do you "dress up?" A fancy dress uniform, mostly white, with decorations in red, dark blue and gold, and a swallowtail cape.
6. How do you "dress down?" I take off the cloak and armored bits.
7. What do you wear when you go to sleep? Loose cotton pants
8. Do you wear any jewelry? An engagement ring on one finger and a locket around my neck
9. In your opinion, what is your best feature? My eyes
10. What's your real birth date? I don't know
11. Where do you live? Describe it: Is it messy, neat, avant-garde, sparse, etc.? In a spacious room in a magical castle. The ghosts keep it cleaner than I normally would bother with, but there's usually a bit of clutter around. The decor is a mix of bits taken from Renegade bases, from backstage at a high school theater in Japan, and from the Halliwell Manor. Even the ghosts can never quite get rid of all the cat hair, and their toys are usually scattered about.
12. Do you own a car? Describe it. No.
13. What is your most prized mundane possession? Why do you value it so much? My engagement ring to Martel. ...I don't think I need to explain that.
14. What one word best describes you? Renegade.
Familial Questions
1. What was your family like? I never knew them.
2. Who was your father, and what was he like? No one knows.
3. Who was your mother, and what was she like? Her name was Tiena, and I was told that she was very sad after they took me from her.
4. What was your parents marriage like? Were they married? Did they remain married? Slaves weren't allowed to marry.
5. What were your siblings names? What were they like? I don't believe I ever had any blood siblings. Kratos and Mithos have both been like brothers to me in the past, though. Kratos with his well-meaning ignorance, and Mithos with his enthusiasm and eagerness to please...
6. What's the worst thing one of your siblings ever did to you? What's the worst thing you've done to one of your siblings? Manipulated Kratos into little more than a clinging puppet. Tried to kill his son.
7. When's the last time you saw any member of your family? Where are they now? The last I saw of Mithos, he'd just teleported out after ruining all my plans; he's probably frozen in time on Derris-Kharlan waiting for me to return to the world. Kratos is in Paradisa with me.
8. Did you ever meet any other family members? Who were they? What did you think of them? I wish I could have.
Childhood Questions
1. What is your first memory? Being taken from somewhere and brought to a new home.
2. What was your favorite toy? There was a pretty rock that I found by the well one day. It looked like a beetle if you held it just right.
3. What was your favorite game? I liked to climb trees and zap bugs.
4. Any non-family member adults stick out in your mind? Who were they, and how did you know them? Why do they stick out? Nana was my surrogate mother-figure when I was very young. She was a fellow slave, maybe a hundred, but she looked much older. When I was hurt or sick, she would take a moment to help me, and sometimes brought me a cookie from the kitchen.
5. Who was your best friend when you were growing up? Melina was a girl about my age. We played together sometimes when we had time.
6. What is your fondest, childhood memory? Getting cookies from Nana.
7. What is your worst childhood memory? Large humans - the overseer and his friends - dumping a bucket of cold water on me just to watch me squirm because I couldn't control my magic yet.
Adolescent Questions
1. How old were you when you went on your first date? Dating isn't a concept that really applies, but Melina and I would sneak away now and then to escape work starting when we were thirteen or so.
2. It is common for one's view of authority to develop in their adolescent years. What is your view of authority, and what event most affected it? Authority should be exercised cautiously and kept in check by decency. When I was fifteen, the overseer raped Melina, who then hung herself from the tree behind the slave quarters. I was the one who found her.
3. What were you like in high school? What "clique" did you best fit in with? Not applicable.
4. What were your high school goals? Still not applicable.
5. Who was your idol when you were growing up? Who did you first fantasize about in your life? I remembered old stories and legends Nana had told me before she died. More than anything, I wanted to be like Briar of the Forest, who took from the rich and gave to the poor.
6. What is your favorite memory from adolescence? The day Melina and I first had sex.
7. What is your worst memory from adolescence? Finding Melina's body and knowing there would be no justice for her.
Occupational Questions
1. Do you have a job? What is it? Do you like it? If no job, where does your money come from? Back home, money comes from stealing from the countryside and Church donations. I'm a Seraph and the leader of the Renegades. In the castle, I don't generally have much money on hand, because the castle feeds us just fine.
2. What is your boss or employer like? (Or publisher, or agent, or whatever.) Sadistic, manipulative, insecure, power-mad, and childish.
3. What are your co-workers like? Do you get along with them? Any in particular? Which ones don't you get along with? Kratos and I get along...distantly, back home, but we're there when we need each other. I hate the Grand Cardinals, except possibly Forcystus. Botta and my Renegades are some of the finest, most loyal soldiers I could ask for.
4. What is something you had to learn that you hated? Being constantly in charge of other people. I know, it doesn't seem likely, but I'm only in charge because there's no one else who can do it right. I don't relish being responsible for more lives than my own.
5. Do you tend to save or spend your money? Why? I save whenever I can, for fear of running out.
Likes & Dislikes Questions
1. What hobbies do you have? Reading, flying, debating. I should learn to play chess, maybe I can make Kratos teach me, since Lelouch is gone.
2. Who is your closest mundane friend? Describe them and how you relate to them. ...I don't think anyone I know could be described as 'mundane'.
3. Who is your worst mundane enemy? Describe them and why you don't get along. Same answer here.
4. What bands do you like? Do you even pay attention? I used to prefer classical ballads, but since the memory swap occasionally I find myself humming 'J-rock' and 'classic metal'.
5. What tape or CD hasn't left your player since your purchased it? Why? Not applicable.
6. What song is "your song?" Why? Sylvia's come up with a whole playlist of them, but if I had to pick just one... Best of You, by the Foo Fighters
7. What's been your favorite movie of all time? I haven't actually seen any movies, but I have been informed that I would like Die Hard.
8. Read any good books? What were they? Are you asking for a list of every good book I've ever read? ...Les Miserables was quite good, at least in the abridged form. The unabridged had a tendency to go off on chapter-long tangents.
9. What do you watch on the Television? I don't. I'm told I'd like House, though, and I can't disagree, since I've met the man and found him quite interesting to talk to.
10. When it comes to mundane politics, do you care? If so, which way do you tend to vote? If not, why don't you care? The only election I ever had the opportunity to vote in, I voted for the man who was not The Master.
11. What type of places do you hang out in with your mundane friends? There's that 'mundane' word again.
12. What type of places do you hang out in with your normal friends? ...Wherever we happen to be at the time? Usually I talk to them over the journals. The roof is a favored spot, too.
13. What annoys you more than anything else? People who refuse to be helped.
14. What would be the perfect gift for you? Some kind of hobby, I suppose. I could always use something more to occupy my time.
15. What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? Martel dancing in a field of moonflowers.
16. What time of day is your favorite? Twilight
17. What kind of weather is your favorite? Thunderstorms
18. What is your favorite food? What is your least favorite food? Pasta, fish
19. What is your favorite drink? (Coffee, Coke, Juice, Beer, Wine, etc.) Orange juice
20. What's your favorite animal? Why? Dragons. Majestic, graceful, intelligent, powerful and protective beings
21. Do you have any pets? Do you want any pets? What kind? Two cats, a longhaired calico female and a shorthaired grey tabby male, a Bellossom, a rainbow floating fish, and a white Tribble are quite enough of a zoo for me. And then there's Kratos' Arshis pup.
22. What do you find most relaxing? (Not as in stress relief, but as something that actually calms you down.) Having my hair stroked. Tell anyone this, and you will die.
23. What habit that others have annoys you most? Unneccessary and excessive guilt.
24. What kind of things embarrass you? Why? Showing weakness of any kind. It probably has to do with my upbringing.
25. What don't you like about yourself? I don't really know how to interact well with normal people.
26. How would you like to look? I'd like to have pointed ears and large, feathery white wings. Or at least for my normal wings to not be pink.
Sex & Intimacy Questions
1. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why? Bisexual, leaning straight. ...I don't think that requires explanation.
2. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? What was it like? How well did it go? Melina, the week after I managed to chase the overseer off her the first time. It was...fast, we didn't have much time, but very enjoyable.
3. Have you ever had a same-sex experience? Who with, what was it like, and how did it go? Yes, repeatedly. I'm not laying out the details of every time.
4. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it? I think I'd like to experiment a bit more with pain tolerances, if Kratos won't run and hide from the concept of talking things out beforehand.
5. What was the wildest thing you've ever done, sexually? Who was it with and when did it happen? Electricity play with Kratos. A few weeks ago.
6. Is there any sexual activity that you enjoy and/or practice regularly that can be considered non-standard? (Bondage, Fantasy Play, etc.) Why do you like it? Bondage plays a role on a fairly regular basis. We both like being able to give up control now and then to someone trustworthy.
7. Is there any sexual activity that you will not, under any circumstances, do? Nothing that involves deliberately cutting the skin or body fluids not normally associated with sex.
8. Do you currently have a lover? What is their name, and what is your relationship like? What are they like? Why are you attracted to them? Yes, Kratos, we're very much in love. He's...Kratos. I couldn't summarize him. ...We understand each other.
9. What is the perfect romantic date? Wine and pasta under an open-air canopy while watching and listening to the thunderstorm outside.
10. Describe the perfect romantic partner for you. Someone strong and stable enough to balance out my worse mood swings, and keep me stable when I start taking on projects. Someone who I can count on to be there, safe and warm, at the end of a long day. Someone who can remind me why I keep fighting.
11. Do you ever want to get married and have children? When do you see this happening? I used to, but that path died with Martel.
12. What is more important - sex or intimacy? Why? Intimacy. Sex is just empty unless there's some connection there.
13. What was your most recent relationship like? Who was it with? (Does not need to be sexual, merely romantic.) I'm in a relationship with Kratos. Right now. We've been through this.
14. What's the worst thing you've done to someone you loved? Kept her suspended between life and death for four thousand years.
Drug & Alcohol Questions
1. How old were you when you first got drunk? What was the experience like? Did anything good come out of it? Did anything bad come out of it? Kratos snuck a bottle of wine from the kitchen when we were seventeen. We were very silly for a few hours until we fell asleep, and had terrible headaches in the morning.
2. Do you drink on any kind of regular basis? A glass of wine with Kratos over dinner now and then.
3. What kind of alcohol do you prefer? Mostly I prefer wine.
4. Have you ever tried any other kind of "mood altering" substance? Which one(s)? What did you think of each? I have had thousands of years, most of which were unhappy, to experiment with. I've tried a little bit of nearly everything, but mostly I feel like I prefer to be in control of my own mind, thanks.
5. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Are there any people should not do? Why or why not? I think people should know their limits, be sensible, and not do anything stupidly brain-rotting.
Morality Questions
1. What one act in your past are you most ashamed of? What one act in your past are you most proud of? Standing guard while the mother of the first Chosen was essentially raped. Proving to a large number of angry knights that a village of half-elves had nothing to do with local livestock theivery.
2. Have you ever been in an argument before? Over what, with who, and who won? Many times, usually with Kratos, and we've both won our share. Sometimes with Mithos; he always won those because I wasn't willing to risk my life defying him.
3. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won? I spent most of my first thousand years of life fighting, usually over my right to survive, with various humans. Seeing as I'm still here, I think it's clear I won in the end.
4. What do you feel most strongly about? Freedom
5. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people? ...I can't think of anything.
6. What trait do you find most admirable, and how often do you find it? Intelligence, and not as often as I'd like.
7. Is there anything you think should not be incorporated into the media or art (sex, violence, greed, etc.,)? If so, what and why, and if not, why not? ...No, I generally have better things to worry about than what people are entertaining themselves with.
8. Do you have any feelings in general that you are disturbed by? What are they? Why do they disturb you? If someone or something angers me deeply enough, I tend to want to lash out violently and mercilessly. The temptation to give up control and respond out of proportion is distressing.
9. What is your religious view of things? What religion, if any, do you call your own? No.
10. Do you think the future is hopeful? Why? Yes. Lloyd has proved his ability to take care of the world.
11. Is an ounce of prevention really worth a pound of cure? Which is more valuable? Why do you feel this way? I'm not sure of the purpose of the exact measurements, but yes. Prevention ensures that the spread is stopped, which is the most important thing.
12. What's the worst thing that can be done to another person? Why? Keep them ignorant and indoctrinated with hate and fear of anything different, enslaved to a victim's mindset, stripping them of the ability to choose their destiny. Without freedom of thought, we are no better than beasts.
13. What's the worst thing you could actually do to someone you hated? It would start with injecting chemicals into their veins that would cause excruciating pain...
14. Are you a better leader or follower? Why do you think that? If you think the whole leader-follower archetype is a crock of shit, say so, and explain why? I'm a better leader than a follower because I hate taking orders. Mostly I work best with equal partners of my own choosing, though.
15. What is your responsibility to the world, if any? Why do you think that? My personal responsibility to the world is to survive until the damage Cruxis did is well on the way to being repaired, and help wherever I can. We're the ones who created the mess in the first place.
16. Do you think redemption is possible? If so, can anyone be redeemed, or are there only certain circumstances that can be? If not, why do you think nothing can redeem itself? Not for anything that matters. If you break someone's nose on accident, that's one thing. But anything that can't be fixed as good as new, there's no redemption for it. Because you can't go back and make that choice again. Life is a series of choices, and choosing to do good in the present doesn't outweigh choosing to do evil in the past. It just keeps you from adding more evil onto the list. Because if you fail to do good when you have the chance, then by definition you are allowing evil to spread, even if you're not actively taking part.
17. Is it okay for you to cry? When was the last time you cried? Not usually. ...After the Marker was destroyed and I realized what I'd done.
18. What do you think is wrong with MOST people, overall? Most people don't bother to look outside their own lives.
Miscellaneous Questions
1. What is the thing that has frightened you most? Do you think there is anything out there that's scarier than that? What do you think that would be? Losing myself to the Marker's madness, and realizing that no part of myself is ever safe from the castle. I don't think there's anything more frightening.
2. Has anyone or anything you've ever cared about died? How did you feel about it? What happened? Yes. Martel. I broke, and helped her brother take over the world.
3. What was the worst injury you've ever received? How did it happen? A greatsword cut open my midsection, and it got infected because Martel and Kratos were too drained to heal me much right away. If not for the enhancements of the Cruxis Crystal, I doubt I'd have survived.
4. How ticklish are you? Where are you ticklish? My feet, but not very.
5. What is your current long term goal? Bring Vergil back to the state of morality he had before he left.
6. What is your current short term goal? Convince Vergil I'm not a threat.
7. Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they, and do you plan to get rid of them? I brood too much sometimes, but I don't feel like bothering to break that one.
8. If you were a mundane person, what would you do with your life? What occupation would you want, and how would you spend all your time? ...I liked being a freelance reporter when the castle turned into New York. And the 'Internet' is a wonderful source of information, I'm sure I'd spend a lot of time researching there.
9. What time period do you wish you had lived in? Why? (Looking at this as an attempt to change history doesn't count.) What appeals to you about this era? ...It's probably not applicable if I've lived in all the time periods currently remembered by history.
10. How private of a person are you? Why? Very. It protects my weaknesses.
11. If you were to gain an obscenely large sum of money (via an inhertiance, a lawsuit, a lottery, or anything else) what would you do with it? Give it to Allen, probably.
12. What would you wish for if you found a genie? A way to bring Kratos back to Aselia.
13. What do you do when you are bored? Read, usually.
14. What is the most frightening potential handicap or disfigurement you can conceive of? What makes it so frightening? I did not like being blind at all. Being blind and deaf would be terrifying, to be that isolated from the outside world...